PGAL Check-In 2/3

fitzfizz

This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es).

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 

Previous loss(es)? 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? 

Any appointment updates? 

Rants/Raves/Questions? 

Any milestones coming up? 

GTKY: Favorite feel good movie? 

fitzfizz

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 5 weeks, due ~Oct 5th, will be FTM if things work out.

Previous loss(es)? 22 week TFMR last year for problem that is now known to be genetic with a 2-5% chance of recurrence. Also one CP. 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Physically having occasional nausea and feeling tired. Emotionally, so nervous! Having trouble even believing there is a chance this will be fine. I realize logically and statistically it is more likely to be fine than not, but I somehow can’t even emotionally believe there is any chance at all. 

Any appointment updates? Dating US and first OB apt in 2 weeks, then if everything looks good, will set up with MFM for additional early monitoring and plan when we can do genetic testing. 

Rants/Raves/Questions? My rave is that so far I have no cramping or spotting, and having some occasional nausea, so at least my body is trying to let me know things are OK! 

Any milestones coming up? We found out about my first pregnancy right after Valentine’s Day, so it is just bringing up memories. 

GTKY: Favorite feel good movie? Basically just the Harry Potter series on repeat haha

kitandcat

Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 4+4. EDD Oct 9th! I have a 4 1/2 yo boy and my daughter is almost 3.

Previous loss(es)? I had two miscarriages in 2020. The first in June. I found out at my 8 week ultrasound when they couldn’t find the heartbeat that the baby had stopped growing around 6 weeks. It was so awful and I was alone. We didn’t have anyone to watch the kids because of COVID so DH was at home. My second miscarriage was around Halloween. I wasn’t quite 5 weeks when I had cramping consistently throughout the day and then just a little spotting. My doc sent me to the ER (where I had to go alone, again) and after a few days confirmed another loss. 

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? I’m a mess. It’s really hard. I try all day to be positive and feel happiness and excitement. But I also think about losing the baby every second of every day. It’s consuming.  

Any appointment updates? I have an appt March 4th. I’ll be 8+5. I wish it were earlier and I could schedule it earlier, but I’m also afraid to go too soon and not see a heartbeat and just have to wait anyway. So I’m just going to wait. 

Rants/Raves/Questions? Just ranting on PGAL in general. It’s a mind f***. 

Any milestones coming up? I just passed where I’d starting cramping in my second loss. It’s crazy how much loss saturates your life. It seems to effect everything. I found out I was pregnant the day before Mother’s Day, and by Father’s Day we’d lost the baby. And those holidays make me so happy but now I fear I’ll be so sad. The other was the day before Halloween so there goes Halloween. We’d talked about telling our kids on Christmas so Christmas was hard. And now this baby is due the day before DHs birthday. We have a wedding we’ll have to miss (that we’re assuming would have been safe to attend in October 2021) because I should be having this baby just days before. And I fear for losing the baby and having to attend that wedding and all I’ll think about is the baby I should have in my arms. But I’m trying not to let that line of thinking take over. I have a good friend who found out she was pregnant right after I did when I had my first loss. My baby was due January 17th. So her baby was just born. It’s been so difficult to watch her pregnancy progress and then see the beautiful newborn. I’m so happy for her, this is her rainbow baby too, but I’m also so affected every time I see the baby. 

GTKY: Favorite feel good movie? Hmmm... some of my go-to’s that I’ve seen a million times are Love, Simon, Harry Potter (@fitzfizz !), allllll the Marvel movies, You’ve Got Mail, The Big Sick, everything by Mike Birbiglia, and Going the Distance!