PGAL 11/12

bkjade

This is a check in for those of us who are experiencing pregnancy after a loss (miscarriage, chemical pregnancy, stillbirth, child loss, to name a few). Hopefully we can all lend support to each other through the hormone filled craziness that is pregnancy!

Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread. 

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?

4. When is your next appointment? 

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  

6. GTKY: What’s your dream vacation spot?

bkjade

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  

5 weeks

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

Sore boobs, tired, moody, happy.

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?

I have been having anxiety about not feeling pregnant enough (no morning sickness, boobs not as sore as they were a few days ago - which are all blessings!) This is my first pregnancy after a really physically traumatic miscarriage last year (let's be honest tho, all losses are traumatic). I am scared about another loss, but honestly just as or even more scared to be in that much pain/sick/complications/etc again. 

4. When is your next appointment? 

Nov 20th. Thank goodness, I cannot wait.

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  

I am SO cranky, my partner is really being a trooper this week   

6. GTKY: What’s your dream vacation spot?

So many places it's hard to choose one! Seychelles sounds good right about now, I could use a good beach!

karacc18

Thank you for starting this... I feel like I'll be on this post alot. 

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  7w5d (just had an ultrasound and they put my due date at 7/1 when I thought it was 7/4, so farther along than I thought, yay!)

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? tired, sore boobs, occasional food aversion, "pulling" feeling

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? super anxious. I felt like I was going to throw up today walking into my viability ultrasound. Everything looked good and right on track (yay heartbeat!!). But I was still so anxious through the whole thing. I don't think I am going to feel "relieved" until I get out of first trimester. 

4. When is your next appointment? Not sure yet. Just left the RE and they have to send my records to the OB so i have to wait until they get them and call me back. I should be getting another scan in 2-3 weeks. 

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  I hate this feeling of constant worry and anxiety. I have always been anxious during first tri, but this is a whole new level. I feel like it sucks the joy right out of it. But, I will say that I do feel more optimistic and have been manifesting alot more with this pregnancy than i did with the one i lost in the spring. 

6. GTKY: What’s your dream vacation spot? I'd love to do a European tour through Italy, France, Switzerland and one through England, Scotland, and Ireland.... maybe someday lol

gadzooks_3

Thank you for starting this thread. Sorry I haven't been around. I have needed s few days to cope with still not knowing. 

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  

This is the million dollar question really. By measurement I would be 6 weeks today, by LMP 7 weeks. 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

I am so nauseated! I was never this bad this early with the others. And I have such a sweet tooth. My last two pregnancies it was all about pickles,  this time I keep wanting raid my kids Halloween stash.

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?

I am maintaining a sort if suspended zen quality right now, but the anxiety is right there below the surface.  I keep reminding myself that until we know otherwise I am pregnant now. 

4. When is your next appointment? 

Dec 1

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  

I keep reminding myself that this is a different pregnancy and even if it is a loss it is a different loss. The experience will be different.  

6. GTKY: What’s your dream vacation spot?

New Zealand I think. It looks beautiful and I want to see the southern sky. A whole new set of stars. 

gadzooks_3

@karacc18 I know that feeling of wishing you could just enjoy and that the anxiety sucks the joy out.  I am so glad your ultrasound went well!

ThePax89

I hope that it is okay that I post here. I lost my second and third pregnancies. I have since had two healthy pregnancies since. 

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?

4 + 1   

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

Tired, snippy, a bit nauseous  

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?

Absolutely awful. This COVID stuff is killing me. I'm a SAHM, so the lack of distraction is awful.  

4. When is your next appointment? 

First appointment in 4 weeks.  hoping to go for an early scan in 2 weeks.  Blood work has been okay. Hcg doubled appropriately. Another blood draw tomorrow. 

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  just feeling really negative, which is really upsetting to me.  

6. GTKY: What’s your dream vacation spot?

A beach. I need a beach. 

marikkita12

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 6w3d 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Tender nipples and exhaustion 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Trying to take it one day at a time

4. When is your next appointment? Formal ultrasound the Friday after thanksgiving. Next OB appointment is 12/8

5. Rants/raves/whatever. I just found out my sil is pregnant and also due in July  she’s due on our anniversary (7/27) and we are due on hers (7/9). I’m nervous about another potential loss, especially with her also being pregnant. 

6. GTKY: What’s your dream vacation spot? I want to go back to Europe 

bkjade

@karacc18 - sending ♥️ to you, I’m feeling exactly the same way. Feeling really overwhelmed by anxiety after my last loss too. Really glad we have a place to talk about it since irl I don’t really know who I would talk to about all of this stuff. 

riansmommie

Hope it’s ok if I join here as well. This is my 11th pregnancy and hopefully my 5th (and final) earthside baby.

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 4w2d - finally got a digital to pop positive for me. Makes me feel a little better.

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Sooooo tired. Like I wished I could sleep all day, but 4 other kiddos need me. Nausea is setting in (early for me, usually don’t get it until the 6 week mark). It’s the one symptom I loathe as I have a fear of throwing up. Thankfully it’s coming in waves vs constant so it’s tolerable, but when it is here it’s wicked strong. My boobs also seem to be getting more sore by the day. This is actually my first pregnancy where my boobs are sore. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? So freaking anxious! Confirmed pregnancy yesterday at my fr. I asked for more hcg draws and an early ultrasound (still waiting to hear back, darn military doctors). I did finally get a digital to show positive today though so that eased my mind slightly.

4. When is your next appointment? Not sure, still waiting to hear back from the dr. Hopefully in the next couple of weeks though. Hoping they can sneak me in for an appt while I’m the hospital for my oldest daughters surgery on dec. 1st.

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  just really excited and shocked that I’m here. We weren’t going to start TTC for another 6ish months.

6. GTKY: What’s your dream vacation spot? Australia, hoping to make it happen while we are stationed in Guam. 

hannahcampbell2017

So grateful for this board! I lost my very first pregnancy in April of this year at week 8. I am now week 5 and am trying to stay cautiously optimistic but definitely still hard. First appt is Dec 9th and while excited for it, still nervous. How long are you waiting to tell family members? 

bkjade

@hannahcampbell2017 - I told my partner’s mother and father already. I experienced a loss at 8 weeks with my last pregnancy and we hadn’t told anyone yet, so we ended up having to go through it mostly alone, then kind of on the spot explain why we needed help (childcare for our youngest) to others - it was just hard, weird, and awkward. This is kind of weird (maybe?) but I reached out early to a few people this time so I have a good support system in case of another loss. 

marikkita12

@hannahcampbell2017 I told my parents and sibling right away, my husband told his parents and sister like 3 days later (we found out on Election Day and we have very different political beliefs). I’ve told my first bmb and a few close friends. I have an ultrasound next week so we will be announcing then. I’m a believer in sharing early because you never know if you might need the support. With my last pregnancy I had my first appointment and saw a really strong heartbeat on Monday. We announced on Tuesday and I ended up in the er on Friday where I was told my baby had no heartbeat. The amount of support and love I received was incredible. I’ve known people who have gone through miscarriages basically alone because they didn’t want to talk about it. I found it super helpful in my grieving process to be able to freely talk about it 

ThePax89

@riansmommie I also have a fear of throwing up!!! 

ThePax89

@hannahcampbell2017 so sorry for your loss. We told everyone right away. Idk if that is wise or not. Obviously didn't share on social and won't until 12+ weeks. 

karacc18

@hannahcampbell2017 I think we are going to tell family (parents and my siblings) on Thanksgiving. I will be 9 weeks to the day and I did just have an ultrasound yesterday so I feel a tad more comfortable. We will also tell my husbands 2 adult daughters on Thanksgiving (interesting fact: his younger daughter who is 26 is currently pregnant too and due 6 weeks before me... lol). Like the other girls said, I wouldn't announce to the whole world until out of 1st tri, but want my family to know in case something happens again. 

daisy528

@hannahcampbell2017 so sorry for your previous loss. We are waiting until Christmas to tell our family, as I don’t have an appointment until December 21😑 That being said, I have told a few friends already just to have a couple people in the know. 

hannahcampbell2017

Thank you everyone for your kind responses! Wishing luck and health for all of your pregnancies as well!

marikkita12

i realized last night that my due date (7/9) is right around the day I had my d&c this year (7/2). I really hope I don’t give birth on 7/2. I don’t need those two things happening on the same day 

hannahcampbell2017

Question for the group: How do you quiet that little voice in your head that makes you scared to start planning and getting things? 

bkjade

@hannahcampbell2017 - I’m trying to chill until my first visit and ultrasound (tomorrow lol) and then I’m going to just *try* to let myself be excited. I normally have a lot of anxiety so this isn’t something I’m good at, but I’m doing a lot of of meditation, yoga, and running to try and help quiet my mind. 

marikkita12

@hannahcampbell2017 I’m trying very hard to focus on one day at a time. Today I started spiraling a bit and my husband reminded me to focus on today