Hi all, DH and I have been trying for 5 years. We are pregnant now, and I did smile when I got the BFP. I was so dreading another BFN, having to kill my hope. So it was a relief, but now I'm about 5 weeks along and I haven't been feeling happy or excited at all. I know I'm pregnant, it's really happening, but I just feel totally calm and neutral. Like it's no big deal. DH feels exactly the same way.
After 5 horrible years of IF, a sort of numbness sets in, to survive, and apparently you can't just turn it off.
I dont think other people realize how hard IF is. Let me put it this way: if someone beats you within an inch of your life, and then they stop beating you, you're not going to be like, "yay!!" Just dazed and traumatized.
Can anyone relate? Will we regain the ability to feel joy?