PGAL Check In 09/07

kelseyyh

**corrected the date, whoops

This thread is for anyone who has experienced loss at any point in pregnancy or experienced the loss of a child. ((Please feel free to share your loss story if you haven’t already.)) Also a general TW (trigger warning) in that previous losses will likely be discussed in this thread.

How far along are you? 

How are you feeling (symptoms, mentally/emotionally)? 

Any upcoming appointments? 

GTKY: Dream travel destination (after covid 🥰). 

honeybee1984

I'm 8+3 based on LMP. My first appointment is on Thursday.

I'm nauseous most of the day. I have that weird metallic taste and occasional fatigue. Mentally, I'm scared. I'm scared most of the time. I had a little spotting last Friday night went I went to the restroom. I immediately started crying. That's exactly how my miscarriage started the last time.   
I'm also nervous about my 1st appointment on Thursday. I'm seeing a new doctor at a new practice and will be delivering at a new hospital if I don't switch to a midwive. I'm also nervous that I will receive bad news.

My dream travel destination is Turks and Caicos. I wanted to go for my 36th birthday this past July but Covid messed that up.  

I apologize if this is too long. I needed to vent. I don't think DH understands my anxiety about this upcoming appointment.

bblair24

How far along are you? 

6w6d

How are you feeling (symptoms, mentally/emotionally)? 

Far more nauseous than I was with either of our daughters. Other than that, constipated and grumpy 😂 I’m a joy to be around right now! 

Mentally, I’m worried. I’m taking my constant sick feeling as a good sign, but there’s still always that fear in the back of my mind. 

Any upcoming appointments? 

Ultrasound and meeting with an OB a week from tomorrow!

GTKY: Dream travel destination (after covid 🥰). 

Normally I’d say somewhere tropical, but I’m tired
of hot weather. Soooo somewhere cold and snowy where I can sit inside and be cozy and watch the snow! 

goldpolkadot

@honeybee1984 you are totally allowed to vent!! I understand your anxiety for sure. Is DH going with you to your Thurs appt? Either way, voice your anxiety to your OB (and/or the nurses) - it’ll help them know that it’s on your mind & hopefully shift they way they talk to you, which may help your anxiety a bit.

kelseyyh

How far along are you? 

8 weeks, 4 days based on LMP. 

How are you feeling (symptoms, mentally/emotionally)? 
I go between stable and total pessimist. TW - but my numbers don’t look good to me. I’m not a doctor though, and I didn’t check my HCG constantly with DS or my loss. They are up but it’s by such a small increment in my eyes from last Thursday.

TW again. Today I can honestly say I am preparing for bad news come my ultrasound 😢. My loss was a missed M/C, and I was tipped off eventually by spotting (though fetal development had stopped awhile before) But I know that there can be no tip offs. My symptoms encourage me to be optimistic, but I’m just waiting for the shoe to drop... and maybe everything truly is perfect and fine & I just am a gal with low ish numbers.

@honeybee1984 I get venting ❤️. I feel like this thread is my constant vent. 

Any upcoming appointments? 
I was supposed to see the doctor tomorrow (09/09), but they’ve moved me to next Tuesday to be after my ultrasound. So, ultrasound Monday 09/14 and doctor Tuesday 09/15. Bloodwork drawn twice a week.

GTKY: Dream travel destination (after covid 🥰). 

Edmonton, AB. I went to uni there when hubby and I were newly married & he needed us to move there for work. So many great friends. A reunion is needed. 

peppylilfoxy

How far along are you? 7 weeks, 2 days

How are you feeling (symptoms, mentally/emotionally)? 

Symptom wise - still the usual exhaustion and nausea but now I am legit craving some weird stuff. Today, my dinner was literally mac n cheese with polish pickles mixed in and spicy sweet mustard on top. It's hard not to compare with previous pregnancies and man, my son was nothing like this!!!

Any upcoming appointments? Ultrasound on Friday, and I'm really Uber nervous. My friend is 2 weeks ahead of me and not gonna lie, I'm so jealous of her hearing the heartbeat already. I keep thinking the worst is going to happen again for me and I wish I could get that thinking out of my head. After 4 miscarriages and 1 stillborn, I just so desperately want to experience having a living child!

GTKY: Dream travel destination (after covid 🥰).
I've always wanted to visit Asia (Korea, Thailand, japan...) But I would also gladly gi back to visit Iceland or Greece (last time I was in Greece, I got caught in a riot and tear gassed. Lmao)

goldpolkadot

@kelseyyh I’m so sorry 💕 hang in there!
I did have to look up Edmonton to make sure I was thinking of the right spot on a map - it’s beautiful!!

bblair24

@kelseyyh I’m sorry. It’s so hard to stay out of your own head and thoughts. Hang in there ❤️

thedomesticgeek

How far along are you? My due date just got demoted by a week. Ultrasound looked great, baby is measuring 6 weeks 5 days. I know I did ovulate late, but didn't know how to figure that in. New due date is April 30th, I was so close to getting kicked out of this group, ha!  

How are you feeling (symptoms, mentally/emotionally)? 
Mentally I'm so relieved. After the ultrasound while we were waiting for the tech to put the pictures on the CD my husband and I just looked at each other and cried. I was dreading the ultrasound, that's how we found our missed miscarriage last time. My symptoms are getting worse, I'm so nauseous, so tired, my boobs are constantly in pain. 

Any upcoming appointments? I just had my ultrasound, baby has a heartbeat! Apparently my uterus is huge already, and I definitely have a follicle on my right ovary which is why I have all of this pain on my right side. The tech was very optimistic and said "congratulations" about 50 times to my husband and I. Things are starting to feel real. I have an actual appointment with the midwife tomorrow and I need to start prepping a million questions for that especially since they were weird when I brought my husband to this appointment, so I'm not even going to try to get him into tomorrow's appointment. 

GTKY: Dream travel destination (after covid 🥰). 
I love San Fran, but I feel like traveling that far won't be a thing when we're a family of 4. 

kelseyyh

@peppylilfoxy I will pray for happy news at your ultrasound. You’ve been through so much ❤️.
@goldpolkadot @bblair24 Thanks 💕. Sorry to be a downer in this group! I’m glad hubby keeps me grounded. 

@thedomesticgeek
woohoo! I’m so glad you saw your little babe 💕. 

bbrahmbhatt

How far along are you? 7w2d

How are you feeling (symptoms, mentally/emotionally)? Physically I'm exhausted, nauseated all the time with waves of dry heaves, boobs huge and so sore, insomnia, bloating, gas, constant pelvic pressure/tugging. Emotionally/mentally I am both excited and scared for my upcoming appointment. I started seeing my therapist again after I found out I was pregnant, and we came up with some strategies to help me stay in the positive and hopeful as opposed to fearful. It works, most of the time. I am also taking solace in the fact that my symptoms seem to be progressing and getting worse. I am still POAS about once a week (I can't help it) just to make sure, and there is a pretty immediate dark line, so I find that reassuring too. 

Any upcoming appointments? My first OB appointment, and early US (one perk of being AMA  I guess) is 9/21...nervous/excited

GTKY: Dream travel destination (after covid 🥰). Fiji...MH and I have been dreaming of that vacation for awhile

goldpolkadot

@thedomesticgeek yay for a great US!!

lovemyducks

How far along are you? 7w1d

How are you feeling (symptoms, mentally/emotionally)? Definitely queasy all day long. Tired and loss of energy. Since our miscarriage in Jan, I am kind of neurotic that I'm making this all up in my head and am wondering if I really am pregnant. Before our last pregnancy, it had been at least 2 years of trying. U/S on Monday and I'm a mix of excitement and anxiety. We are an IVF family, so I found out at something like 4 weeks and both blood draws were good indicators that it's progressing. But my nerves keep me worrying that my Dr will tell me something is wrong. 

Any upcoming appointments? Monday the 14th (ultrasound) 

GTKY: Dream travel destination (after covid 🥰). We love to travel. So it's such a bummer that covid is keeping us from exploring our world. I think a great trip would be Bora Bora or S. Africa. I could also do Greece... 

lovemyducks

@honeybee1984 Turks is amazing! My profile photo is of our trip there about 7 years ago. So bummed you did not make it. Hopefully soon though!