IF Testing & Treatment w/o 6.1

keikilove

This is a place for those of us who have already started TTC, but have started infertility testing and/or treatments. You can express your thoughts, feelings, and frustrations on infertility. TTC can be a long journey naturally, then add in the difficulties associated with infertility, and it becomes a whole new ball game. The road to infertility can be lonely, frustrating, and complicated, so let's make this a place where we can vent, ask questions, and support one another. Feel free to resurrect this thread at any point in the week if you have something to say. Treat this as an ongoing conversation. 

Diagnosis (if you've been): 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): 

How are things going?: 

Any questions?:

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? 

mvt2003

Diagnosis (if you've been): MFI

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): FET cycle begins!

How are things going?: The weekend was difficult, lots of stress and anxiety. I'm hoping that I can throw myself into this new week, but it's not looking promising so far. I've got friend drama, work stress, my AMA bday is coming up, and MH also has massive work stress, so it's a lot to handle. I also realized over the weekend that MH probably won't get to be with me for my FET, which bummed me out a lot. I totally understand covid safety, etc. and MH says he understands too and is ok with it. It just kind of sucks. I've had a lot taken away from me throughout this process, and this has forced me to confront a lot of emotions I had buried. 

Any questions?: Nope

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? 1. Go to Europe with MH 2. Become a mom 3. Run the Disney Princess Half Marathon

mvt2003

@keikilove I'm taking the liberty to move your question from last week's post over here I was on BCP for 10 days from 1/18 until 1/27, then started stims on 1/30. I stimmed for 11 days, and triggered on 2/10. My RE told me in our post-ER discussion that I was right in the mid-range of medication, response, and stimulation. 

gingermama29

@mvt2003 I'm sorry this weekend was so difficult for you. It definitely sounds like you're dealing with a lot at once. I hope this week is better for you. And yay for FET cycle this month!!!

Diagnosis(if you've been): PCOS

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): benched for 3 months

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): Taking BCP to balance hormones

How are things going?: Things were much better this week. BC side effects seem to have subsided which I'm grateful for. I'm on my last hormonal pill of the first pack today so that's definitely something positive to focus on.

Any questions?: Nope

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? 
Be debt free, travel and see most of Europe, maybe build a dream house someday. (Getting KU is on there too). 

kpearse99

@mvt2003 my friend, I'm sorry it's been a rough week. I want this week to be different for you and I want you to go into your FET with happy, wonderful and positive stress-free thoughts so how can we make this happen? At the end of every day this week I want you to reflect on at least one good thing that happened that day. Train your brain to think about the positives and that will help you let go of the negatives. When you feel yourself start to think of the negative or bad things happening stop yourself and think of the opposite or find a positive about that bad thing. Let's get you ready for this FET!!

@gingermama29 So glad those side effects have settled down for you!! 

Diagnosis (if you've been): Secondary Unexplained IF

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): I thiiiiink I'm in the TWW? haha

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): PNV, OPK, Preseed and HIO (although that's been less frequent than usual lately...ugh!)

How are things going?: Overall not bad! My OPKs over the weekend were on the lighter side so hopefully they stay that way and I can say I O'd. But honestly, it is what it is and it's out of my control so I'm really not stressing too much about it. 

Any questions?: nope

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? Oh boy... 
1 - make MH a daddy
2 - Travel to new places with MH
3 - I'm borrowing @gingermama29 's one about being debt free!

........ #4 GO SHOPPING AT HOMEGOODS OR HOMESENSE!!  (I had to throw that one in there!)

inthewoods23

@mvt2003   hope you can ease the stress and anxiety this week. Music always really helped me get into the mood I needed to be in for our FET. That really sucks that YH can't be with you for the FET, but it's better than not being able to do the FET at all.

@gingermama29 glad to hear the side effects are subsiding!

@kpearse99 at least there's one of us here not stressing about something!


Diagnosis (if you've been): unexplained, low morph

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): HIO with Conceive Plus, using temping and OPKs to track O

How are things going?: I didn't realize until this morning that my failed FET due date came and went on Friday. I guess it was just another date that could have been and was no different than any other potential due date with other cycles. I've been in a weird funk on occasion lately and I don't really know what it is. I think there's just not a lot to be happy about right now. Just taking it day by day.

Any questions?: nope

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list?
1. build our dream house
2. experience zero G for an extended period of time/go to space
3. Visit Iceland again or a Scandanavian country for the first time
(Getting KU is a given)

kpearse99

@inthewoods23 I guess I just feel numb to all the TTC stress right now and it's not even phasing me anymore, at this moment in time anyway. Or maybe I'm really finally learning that I can't control this aspect of my life? Who knows! I hope you can find somethings this week to be happy about Also, Iceland is def. on my bucket list of places to visit! I want to see those northern lights so badly!!

misshelen86

@mvt2003 Sorry to hear you have so much on your plate right now. Hope you are able to take some time just for yourself! I’m so excited you’ll be having your FET very soon! 

@gingermama29 Glad that your side effects are subsiding . Woohoo to being done with your first pack.. you’re getting closer!

@kpearse99 Hope you O’d and can join me in the TWW! That’s one of the hardest things in this journey, is that so many things are out of our control. Hope you can go shopping very soon!

@inthewoods23 One day at a time.. that’s been my mantra for the last few weeks. Sorry about passing your failed FET due date and that you’re not finding a lot of happiness in your life right now. Sending hugs your way!

Diagnosis (if you've been): MFI

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): Trying on our own 

How are things going?: Great news! MH’s count went up from 0.8 million/mL to 56 Million/mL.. his motility was still on the low side at 30% but I’m blown away at how much of an improvement there was!! Our Dr. Recommended we try on our own for another month or two and then move ahead with IUI since we’ve been trying for a while already. She said it was up to us whether we want to try naturally or do a medicated cycle. She said we could even jump right into IUI as soon as they offer it again at the clinic. So lots of options and we are still discussing what we want to do.. I am so excited the numbers improved so much, but at the same time, I’m so used to periods and BFN’s it’s hard to be hopeful. 
Also, I had a repeat ultrasound last week to monitor a lesion on one of my ovaries, and it hasn’t grown since the last scan. So I’m very relieved about that! I was really worried about it. We still have to continue monitoring it but it’s likely not malignant since the size hasn’t really changed since they discovered it. 

Any questions?: Not right now

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list?

1. Become a mom 2. Travel! So many places I want to go… Australia, Africa, South America.. back to Europe! 3. Learn to salsa dance.. I’ve taken some classes but I’d like to get better at it

*Edited for weird formatting issues

inthewoods23

@kpearse99 yeah like the fact that we're nearly at 3 years of trying... it's just whatever. It feels too expected that it doesn't work month after month. Part of that could be that we haven't HIO much to have a real good chance of trying. I want to get into a more consistent EOD in the next day or so and just not have to worry about timing. But I'm a little more hopeful now that we're getting close to the 3 month mark of taking all these supplements so hopefully we're getting some boosted sperm this summer!

@misshelen86 so glad you got good news on YH's sperm! Some supplements could definitely help boost the motility (I think that's one of the easiest things to improve with sperm over actual count and morphology).

emeraldduchess

@misshelen86 that's awesome news about YH's count! 
@mvt2003 lots of hugs to you, my friend. I am so sorry you've been struggling. 💜 To answer your question from last week, I haven't gotten any protocol yet for my IVF cycle. My RE just moved offices so maybe they're not sending out anything just yet. 
@inthewoods23 totally get what you mean about just being in a funk. I was feeling like that last week. Just felt sad anxious and "off". Does that make sense?
@kpearse99 I think Homegoods will be my first stop when retailers open again! 
@gingermama29 glad the BCP effects are starting to lessen. That's what I am least looking forward to about IVF, having to take those. 

Diagnosis (if you've been): Unexplained IF, unexplained RPL, AMA. My reproductive system is prone to shenanigans. 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO.

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): OPKs, observing CM, HIO, bbt, all the usual stuff. 

How are things going?: OK. I am going to keep repeating to myself that every day we are another day closer to our rainbow. I got this message on my chocolate wrapper the other day, too which was timely. I eat these chocolates all the time and I've never seen this message before. 

Any questions?: Nope. 

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? Oh gosh. This is tough. 
1. Learn to play a musical instrument (piano or guitar)
2. Visit some historical palaces in England (huge Tudor history nerd)
3. Learn how to make some kick-butt pastries. 

pom9207

@mvt2003 sorry you had a stressful weekend. It’s a new week and I am sending you positive vibes!

@gingermama29 yay for BC side effect subsided!

@kpearse99 OPKs got me stressed sometimes... glad it’s lighter now and hopefully O happened!

@inthewoods23 I hope diet and supplement makes a difference! Yeah, this long IF journey makes us numb...

@misshelen86 omg that’s such an awesome news!!! So happy the surgery worked!

Diagnosis (if you've been): unexplained

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): FET!

How are things going?: currently 6dp6dt, and I am surviving the TWW! I am pretty positive, and trying to enjoy my “pregnant until proven otherwise” time. DH feeds me constantly, and thanks to progesterone shots/estradiol pills I am eating like a horse. Can’t help but symptom spotting as well as binge watching FET vlogs 😂 I have DH hide all my HPT. 3 more days until my beta!!

Any questions?: natm

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? 1. Visit Japan 2. Get a new job (hmm my interviews were cancelled because of covid, but getting a new job is still on my bucket list) 3. Help DH to lose 13 more pounds

inthewoods23

@emeraldduchess yes I totally get what you mean. It's that weird "off" feeling where you just don't know what has you feeling blah. I think it mostly had to do with the fact that there's not a whole lot of positive stuff going around. And maybe it's the body feeling out of sorts because it's not fully adjusted to the new normal.

@pom9207 hope you get good news soon!

shoogapoff

@pom9207 FX for you! 3 more days! 
@mvt2003 I'm sorry for all the stress. I understand the AMA birthday being a big milestone. i felt it too when I got there. Just remember that is a pretty antiquated way of looking at maternal age. I've never had any medical professional say that 35 actually matters to them. You're still a youngin! 
@misshelen86 That is such an amazing improvement! I imagine it just feels nice to have forward movement. So much of this process is cyclical and feels like we're not making actual progress. But that is definitely a huge step forward!
@inthewoods23 I'm glad that your FET date didn't mess with you too much. I can't believe it's been a year already since that time. I think you said it before, but do you have a date for another FET? 
@kpearse99 I'm glad you're not letting things stress you out too much! Easier said than done.
@gingermama29 I'm glad the BCP side-effects are letting up. Hopefully they do the trick for you!
@emeraldduchess That chocolate wrapper made me tear up! So perfect! And I definitely think it's an omen. 


Diagnosis (if you've been): AMA, blocked tube

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): Sorry I didn't update you all sooner, but a lot has been going on. I went this morning for my AFC for the IVF clinical trial, and I was approved! I'm supposed to call on CD 1 of my next cycle to get started. We are doing some baseline testing during my next cycle (I have to get a hysteroscopy, and MH has to have another SA) and we will start stims the cycle after that, in July! 

How are things going?: It still feels weird to have that confirmation that we are doing a clinical trial. I feel really hopeful, but I just keep waiting to find out we are excluded somehow. 

Any questions?: Anything I should be worried about with the hysteroscopy? Is that going to be painful like my HSG was?

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? 

1. Visit Japan! @pom9207
2. Learn Hebrew
3. Get my PhD

keikilove

Diagnosis (if you've been): RPL, High NK cells count & activity, blood-clotting disorders, AMA 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WFAF

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): Au Naturel. Hoping to begin FET prep with next period. 

How are things going?: Feeling a bit down about the whole process. I started RI treatment 7.5 months ago and, while it’s finally lowered my NK cells into normal range, I haven’t had any other success with the treatment. All the “what-ifs” are starting creep in: what if I missed my chance, what if my eggs really are too old, what if we don’t get good results at retrieval... Trying to counteract all these thoughts with positive ones, but this is the reality. 

Any questions?: Just last week’s question of what was your stimming protocol, how long did you stim for before ER? Thank you @mvt2003 for your response! 

GTKY: Top 3 things on your bucket list? 

1) Travel more outside of the U.S.
2) Live abroad for an extended period of time—Europe or Africa.
3) Write a book 

kpearse99

@misshelen86 this is such an amazing update!!!!! That's freaking wonderful news about YH and about the options you have in front of you right now!!!! woohooo!!!!

@keikilove I never got to say how amazing your news was last week about your NK cells!!! I know that the what-ifs are creeping in, it's only natural, but friend - your NK cells being in normal range is a HUGE thing and it's just one more step in the right direction for your FET to be successful! Good things are coming for you, I can just feel it in my bones!!!

@emeraldduchess that is the PERFECT wrapper to get!!! @bluetickgal got a good wrapper the other day too! I also feel that we are just one day closer to our rainbow... the other day I looked up into the sky and saw the most unique rainbow. It wasn't your typical rainbow it was more of like a watercolor brush-stroked rainbow without the arch and it was only visible with my sunglasses on.

@pom9207 Girl, I am so stoked for you!!!! Smart choice having YH hide those HPTs and how adorable is it that he just keeps feeding you! MH would be doing the same thing haha I have everything crossed that this is your time!!!!

@shoogapoff That's amazing that you were approved for the trial!! I've been dying for an update Good things are coming, my friend!!!

keikilove

@mvt2003 So many hugs to you, MVT. I’m sorry it’s such a rough time right now. It’s especially tough when YH has stress too. Maybe you guys can take a daily walk together to talk through the stuff that’s going on? It may not change the cause of the stresses, but might provide some relief just to express it openly. Hang in there—you do have the FET to look forward to, so that’s one bright shining light! ☀️🌈 

@gingermama29 So good to hear that you’re finally starting to feel better! I 100% support your bucket list. To be debt free is an excellent goal we are working towards as well! 

@kpearse99 I really hope you can confirm O too. And ditto to your Homegoods being on your bucket list! 😄

@inthewoods23 I’m sorry for the funky moods lately. Being that you’re a HSP, maybe your sensitivity is just picking up on all the stress & unrest in the world, whether you want to consciously take it on or not? Some of my acquaintances who call themselves Empaths are really struggling right now. Hopefully all of this will lead to positive changes & a better world overall.💓🤞🏽 I’m sorry that your milestone came and went, but also glad for you that it wasn’t an overly depressing day for you. 

@misshelen86 So happy to hear all of your good news—woohoo! You deserve to have some good things to report here! And I love your bucket list, very adventurous.😊

@emeraldduchess I love your positive thinking AND that message in your chocolate wrapper! Thanks for sharing. Also love everything on your bucket list. 

@pom9207 Eeeeeeek, so excited for you!!! How in the world are you holding out on testing? Hahaha! I would be wrestling MH to get access to the HPTs😂 Hope it’s all GREAT news a few days from now!💗

inthewoods23

@shoogapoff DH and I decided to try on our own for a little while to see if the GF and DF diet solves it. You can read a lot about how gluten and dairy can be inflammatory. I think it causes the body to see an embryo as a danger and prevents implantation. My RE said they've had 100% success with FETs where they have them go on that diet when all other tests have come back normal. We're giving ourselves a bit of a financial break and will try for the summer and then probably give them a call sometime in September or October. So glad you got approved for IVF! What did they say your AFC was?

@keikilove I think for me in total I only stimmed for 9 days. I started on a Friday evening and ended the following Saturday with the trigger shot taken on Sunday and ER Tuesday. My protocol included menopur (75U), gonal-F (started at 125U and dropped down to 75 after the first follicle check), and lupron. I'll always remember the day I started because I did it in a tent during Relay for Life haha.  I think you make a really good point regarding HSP. I feel like I'm being more sensitive towards things these last few weeks but maybe I'm just noticing it more now that I'm aware that it's a thing and occurring. Which sounds like the exact opposite of what it means to be an HSP 

keikilove

@shoogapoff I missed your update when I was tagging other. CONGRATS on getting into the clinical trial! That’s amazing! Just out of curiosity, does the trial cover the cost of YH’s SA & your hysteroscopy when it’s required for the trial? Also, I was very nervous for my hyst but it wasn’t bad at all. You should be fine. Hopefully others will chime in on that question. 

@inthewoods23  Thanks for sharing your stims protocol too! It’s helpful for my brain to gather as much info as possible; I like knowing the possibility that it could be as short as 8 or 9 days but maybe as long as 2 weeks... Prepares me to be flexible./ You make me want to learn more about this HSP diagnosis! 

@kpearse99 Thanks for being my own personal cheerleader! Well actually, you’re basically the mascot/cheerleader for TTGP—in a good & positive way!

inthewoods23

@keikilove they had originally told me it would be between 10-12 days of stims with the last day of stims being on that Sunday, trigger shot Monday, and ER Tuesday. Idk why it ended up different. For appointments I had the go ahead after the appointment the day before stim day 1, then the following week I had appointments MWF and Sunday. My clinic tries to keep to the schedule as much as possible. I think rarely have they had to move an ER date up or down a day.

kpearse99

@keikilove

 I will ALWAYS cheer all of you on!! 💕💕💕

gingermama29

@kpearse99 glad things are going well and you're not stressing about things much. Are you still NTNP currently?

@inthewoods23 sorry about your empty FET due date and your funk lately. I hope things improve for you soon. Hugs.

@misshelen86 that's awesome news about YH's count!

@emeraldduchess that chocolate message was perfect! Also for learning a musical instrument, might I suggest the ukulele? I think it's easier to learn than the guitar. They're less expensive too.

@pom9207 crossing everything for good news this week for you!!!

@shoogapoff congrats on being accepted into the clinical trial! That's so exciting!

@keikilove I'm sorry for all the what ifs going on right now. This process is hard enough without all the extra mental stress we put on ourselves. And yeah, I'm a looooooooooong way away from debt free. It doesn't help that I'm sitting on about $120k of student loan debt (and that's even having gone to state schools!). Ughhhh. I hope you're closer to that goal than I am. 

shoogapoff

@keikilove Thanks so much! You're so sweet. The trial does not cover my hysteroscopy, unfortunately. It also doesn't cover required STD testing and didn't cover today's ultrasound. And we lost our insurance coverage, so we have to pay cash. But compared to what IVF would have cost, we are okay with the expense. Thankfully the trial does cover MH's SA and everything else after that.

@inthewoods23 Ah. I probably missed that update somehow. That makes total sense. FX this does the trick and you don't have to think about doing IVF again! I have an IRL friend who is doing dairy/gluten free because of **trigger warning** multiple miscarriages. *** It definitely seems to be something that could help a lot of people's fertility. It was weird with my AFC because they did it today on CD 17, but I thought it had to be done early in the cycle. He saw 6 follicles on my right ovary, which is the ovary it seems like I ovulated from. Then he saw 9 on my left. So my total count was 15, just over what I needed to be approved. But I kind of wonder if it might fluctuate a little if we rescanned at the beginning of my cycle. *shrug*

@kpearse99 You are so sweet! Thank you so much for thinking of me, friend! 

keikilove

@kpearse99 Perfect gif!😊

@shoogapoff Oh, that’s good they’ll at least cover YH’s SA. It’s so awesome that you are saving all that money by being a part of the trial, even if you have to pay for other aspects of treatment. I’m really so excited for you!💕

@gingermama29 Ugh, I hear you on the student loans. I’m still paying off the last bit of mine many years later.😩 When I first dated MH I was afraid to tell him about my student loan debt (he doesn’t have any) but it turns out it’s so common that he didn’t bat an eye. We have a hefty chunk of total debt together in our married life, but we’ve had a solid plan for the past 18 months for paying it down that we’ve been sticking to, so I believe we will be debt-free one day in the not-too-far-off future. Oh, you know—AFTER we are relieved of all the IF costs of monthly supplements, vitamins, medicines, actual egg retrieval, stim meds, IVF procedures, etc. 😄🙏🏽😄 ONE day! 

legallykate

@mvt2003 Sorry you are dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety and that YH won’t be able to be with you for your FET. I hope you are able to indulge in some self care this week and be in a good headspace going into the FET!

@gingermama29 Glad your side effects have subsided, and yay for being almost one pack down!

@kpearse99 Hope your OPKs bring some clarity. I love your attitude about everything.

@inthewoods23 Sorry you are in a funk. Totally understandable given everything, but I hope things get better soon.

@misshelen86 That’s awesome about YH’s count, what a huge improvement!

@emeraldduchess Love the Dove message! FX it is a sign.

@pom9207 Everything crossed for your beta! Glad you are feeling good about it and that YH is feeding you (jealous!)

@shoogapoff Congrats on being approved for the trial, so exciting!

@keikilove I’m so sorry you are feeling down about the process. I hate the “what ifs” and can definitely sympathize with those thoughts. Focusing on the positive is so hard but your NK cells being in normal range is huge!

Diagnosis (if you've been): AMA, diminished ovarian reserve

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?): Trying on our own and then repeating CD3 testing before deciding whether to pull the trigger on IVF

How are things going?: Just feeling overwhelmed by the combination of my personal stuff and everything going on in the world. It's just such a dark time and it's hard not to get sucked into the darkness. But I'm feeling stupidly optimistic about this natural cycle and am totally drowning out the "less than 1% chance" the RE gave us. I think because I know this is possibly our last chance to conceive naturally before we move forward with treatment.

Any questions?: Not at the moment.

GTKY: Repeat from the weekend due to minimal TB traffic: Top 3 things on your bucket list? I don't remember what I put over the weekend, ha. 1) pay off student loans; 2) write a book; 3) eat and drink my (and MH's) way around Europe (he has never been!)

mvt2003

Thanks for all of your support, friends. I'm feeling better today. I leaned on MH for the stress, and let some of it out, which helped. I also worked out a lot, which always helps my stress. I woke up early today and we did 21 Day Fix Extreme Day 16 together, which always puts me in a better mood. 

@gingermama29 I'm so so happy the side effects are subsiding. BCP can be brutal!  

@kpearse99 Sweet friend, I am so so lucky to have you in my life. I put your Spotify playlist on yesterday and took the dog for a walk, and it absolutely helped. I remembered I'm not alone, and everything is going to work out in the end.  

@inthewoods23 So many hugs for your empty due date, friend. I'm glad it didn't eat away at you, and I'm also glad in a way that you were able to mark the date. I feel like we're all in a bit of a funk right now with everything going on, but it helps to know we're not alone. 

@misshelen86 I literally squealed when I saw YH's numbers!!!! AMAZING!!!!!! Hoping so freaking hard that you guys can go straight to IUI and hit it hard! 

@emeraldduchess I love that message you got! Hoping so hard that July brings your rainbow! (I'm not sure how your practice works, but we got our meds list when we met with our RE to discuss IVF, and the orders went in before my cycle even started. My insurance was funky and took some time to approve the meds and I had to stay on top of my RE's office to make sure they were submitting them to the correct place, so I would maybe call the office and see if they are starting that process? I don't want you to have any delays!) 

@shoogapoff Congratulations!!!!! So excited that you're approved for the trial!!!!!! 

@pom9207 Eeeek I'm dying for your beta! Probably for the best having YH hide the HPTs!!!!! 

@keikilove Thanks, friend. I'm feeling better today. Lots of activity yesterday helped a lot. I'm so happy your NK count has improved!!!! I feel so hopeful for your IVF cycle! 

@legallykate I'm sending you allllll the unicorn vibes possible!  

pom9207

@shoogapoff yes! Congrats on being approved to participate in the clinical trial!

@emeraldduchess the message on the chocolate wrapper got me in tears. July will be here soon!

@legallykate thanks! I really hope this is your magic cycle!

@keikilove thanks! I talked to myself that even if I tested negative using HPTs, I will still need to do PIO until the official beta comes back. I don’t want to stab my butt knowing it’s for nothing... if I tested positive at home, most likely I will keep testing every day/night to check for line progression while having loads of anxiety. I know myself all too well😂

@mvt2003 glad you are feeling better! And glad you were able to let out some emotions.

@kpearse99 thanks!! Trying my best to stay positive, and eating seems to help! 😝

kpearse99

@mvt2003 I’m so happy you’re feeling better!!! AND that you’re still listening to that playlist! I literally was thinking the other day if people were still listening to it! I need to add some new songs to it 🤔 

misshelen86

@emeraldduchess I love the message that you got in your chocolate. It’s so true   You are getting closer to your rainbow every day

@pom9207 Yay for being PUPO! Glad you are remaining positive during the TWW. Everything crossed for you!

@shoogapoff Definitely feel good to have finally made progress after being stuck for so long. Glad you have been approved for the clinical trial! I’m just thrilled for you!

@keikilove I hear you about all the “what-ifs”. It makes sense that it would be hard to replace the thoughts with positivity since there is so much emotion and grief attached to them. Try to keep in mind that you are in a different place now after doing all this work with your RI. It’s awesome news that your NK cells are in normal range! You got this!

@legallykate Don’t lose that hope! So important to help you through this journey. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you! 

inthewoods23

@shoogapoff I recall there being some results that can be done any time during a cycle, but I don't recall if that was AFC or AMH. Too many TLAs (three letter acronyms ). 15 is a good number!

@legallykate there is just something about the amazing idea of beating that 1% chance. You just never know!

@mvt2003 random thought - we need to have a FUNK party and post groovy gifs!  That'll cheer us up right?

keikilove

Just here to vent. My local RE that I love (a short flight away) can’t do any egg retrievals this month after all. The hospital she is attached to is still very cautious about any elective surgeries due to COVID (even though our cases have dropped significantly and we have some of the lowest numbers in the country). So they say my egg retrieval can’t be until late July or early August—if nothing changes. I’m so bummed because first it was March, then late June, now delayed again. And they could delay again after this. 

My backup clinic (a very long flight away) could get me started as early as the end of this month. But that’s all out of pocket. I’m going to ask my insurance if there’s any chance they’d cover out-of-state treatment if I can’t get it locally. 

pom9207

@keikilove shoot I am so mad for you. I really hope your insurance can make the case for you. They can’t just be pushing back!!

inthewoods23

@keikilove ugh delays! That makes no sense. I hope you can get in sooner! I think out of state treatment can still be considered "in network"... right?

legallykate

@keikilove That is so frustrating. I hope your insurance company comes through. 

mvt2003

@keikilove Ughhhhh that's so frustrating!!!! I hope insurance approves you for out-of-state if that can be faster!

keikilove

Thank you all so much for the support @inthewoods23 @pom9207 @legallykate @mvt2003.💛💛💛💛 I spent a long time on the phone w my insurance yesterday, and then with the new clinic early this morning with more questions. Nothing for sure yet, but my insurance definitely covers my backup clinic! CNY Fertility is listed as a preferred provider in their system, so YAY for that! However, flights, hotel, ground transport, & food would be OOP so still assessing all that and whether it would be worth it or better to be patient here. Now that the in-network/out-of-state Pandora’s Box has been opened, I’m wondering if there’s some other Reproductive Immunology-knowledgeable RE/IVF clinic a bit closer to me that I could go to, at least on the West Coast... Down the rabbit hole I go! 

*Edited to fix typos. 

gingermama29

@keikilove YGPM

legallykate

@keikilove Oh I am so so glad to hear that your insurance would cover the procedure itself and that opens up your options somewhat! I know you will make the right decision

kpearse99

@keikilove Wow!!! That's amazing news about insurance covering it out of state!! Woohooo!!! Good things, friend, good. things.

shoogapoff

@keikilove I'm so sorry for all of the roadblocks! But good for you for being your own advocate and trying to see what other options are out there!

shoogapoff

@inthewoods23 Thanks. I felt funny about 15, because I had to have a minimum of 14, so I felt like I basically got a C+ on the AFC test. :P But, I guess in the classroom of IF, it's more of a pass/fail scenario, so I should just take it. 

bows22

@shoogapoff first of all, I have been checking this thread for your update and I somehow missed it. I think I was watching for the number 14 😂. I’m so excited for you!!

The real reason I’m posting though is about your question. I was put under twilight sedation for my hysteroscopy (but they knew they were removing something). Have they mentioned if you will be awake or sedated?