With ex I somehow managed to have to kids but, I fought preterm labor with both.
Now my SO wants to try to have a baby with me.
I called it quits 5 yrs ago and after greiving and accepting my losses and thanking the stars for the 2 healthy ones I have now.
But, he doesn't get it. He doesn't get that ttc alone is a part time job and he doesn't get the emotional rollercoaster, the waiting game, the triggers, just the emotional crap that we go through to do what feels like it comes so easily to others. And don't even start me on **the fear** if I were to get pregnant. The PGAL fear.
He doesn't understand! He doesn't understand the dark days or even years! for a rainbow baby.
Ladies, I'm asking my fellow sisters to help me paint the real picture for him.
My mom died 2 years ago and now I feel like I have to go through this emotional rollercoaster again.
I hate that he wants what I likely cannot give him and that breaks my heart
Soooo on the other hand I'm pressured (by myself) to open a door I thought I locked years ago.
And YES I did tell him my history at the get go of the relationship.