PGAL 11/6

kbrown2385

This thread is a safe place for those who are pregnant after a loss. (PGAL). If you have suffered a loss please feel free to answer the questions below and keep things going throughout the week as a continuing conversation.  

If you haven’t suffered a loss, please refrain from answering the questions, but know we welcome anyone who wants to come in and support the PGAL ladies and their milestones with encouragement or love tits! Thank you!  

1. How many weeks are you? 

2. Previous loss(es)? 

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? 

4. Any appointment updates? 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? 

6. Any milestones coming up?

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far? 

kbrown2385

1. How many weeks are you? 29 weeks 

2. Previous loss(es)? 6 losses. 12/13, 1/17, 11/17, 4/18, 9/18, 2/19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally I’m riding a high from our growth scan yesterday. Physically I can’t get comfortable in bed anymore.

4. Any appointment updates? More nst’s, Doppler checks and growth scans coming up. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I’ve about had it with one of the ob’s I see. Why on earth did he feel the need to plant the seed of doubt about her head size? Thank goodness I see great mfm drs who have got it together.

6. Any milestones coming up? 32 weeks is coming up quick. 

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far? Idk that they’ve been crazy but I’ve been loving sushi and all sorts of Asian food. Also, pickles. 

MollySm

1. How many weeks are you?  28w 6d

2. Previous loss(es)? 6/2013

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically?  I had a rough charlie horse last night, which seemed like it would never go away.  And then a stiff neck this morning.  And the cold weather is really settling in here.  I just want to curl up on the couch under a blanket til January.  

4. Any appointment updates?  Next week I have an ultrasound and my regular midwife appt. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions?  2 weeks from today we get to go enjoy the sun in San Diego! 

6. Any milestones coming up? I am excited to hit 30 weeks.  

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far?  We stopped at a local market one day on the drive home and H went in to get some steaks for dinner.   I had a sudden craving for pate, and asked him to get some, but then they didn't have any.  I was so grouchy and annoyed and sad.  It was ridiculous.  

c1kc1kpol1cn1k

1. How many weeks are you? 32w today!

2. Previous loss(es)? 9/18 & 3/19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? emotionally much better after my midwife apt yesterday, physically about the same just my hips like usual. Also that baby's head is down right now is comforting, even though I know that can change

4. Any appointment updates? I have a growth scan booked for next tuesday and then midwife the following week

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? not much but I notice in the evenings is when I get cramping/ potential BH's. Could be that I'm sitting at work all day then come home and am active getting dinner ready, playing with DD etc. Anyone else notice the evening a bit more rough for you?

6. Any milestones coming up? eager to reach the 36 week mark and start weekly check-ins

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far?  I believe it's the combo of pickles and fried eggs, they actually work's so well together haha! 

@kbrown2385 I am on the same sushi craving train, that is what I want also after delivery hahah a full on sushi dinner platter

kbrown2385

@MollySm Your trip to SD sounds exciting! I hollow the weather is great for you!

@c1kc1kpol1cn1k by dinner time I’m pretty much done for the day. I’m usually so uncomfortable and tired that I want nothing to do with making dinner, cleanup or putting ds to bed. There’s been a few nights where I go lay in bed once I’m done eating dinner lol.

c1kc1kpol1cn1k

@kbrown2385 I get it, but you also mentioned you are measuring full term so I can't even imagine the struggle right now. I feel bad not wanting to put DD to bed anymore since it's so tiring and I know when baby comes I definitely won't be...aah

biolprof

@kbrown2385 glad your mfms are good anyways!

@MollySm l also want to curl up and sleep till January!

@c1kc1kpol1cn1k I definitely get BH when I do too much. Sometimes I can barely move when I get home but that is just SPD not BH. The BH come when I'm dehydrated especially.

. How many weeks are you? 28 +3

2. Previous loss(es)? 12/18 and 4/19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally much better. Feeling pretty relaxed but starting to get nervous about the whole birth process hah! Physically I have a lot of pelvic pain especially if I do too much. The doc said a support belt might help but I haven't bought one yet.

4. Any appointment updates? Had my 28 week appointment on Monday. Things look good but I barely failed my one hour glucose test and am slightly anemic but nothing major. So now I'm sitting waiting to be poked the second time of 4 this morning and I'm pretty sure I'm going to be late for my class. I'm so excited that I have a co teacher for this class otherwise this would be terrible...

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? This 3 hour test is way worse than the one hour. I'm so sleepy...

6. Any milestones coming up? 30 weeks is soon

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far? My strongest craving was for BLTs in the first tri. I think I crave carbs more now though!

MollySm

@c1kc1kpol1cn1k - I definitely get more BH in the evenings.  I think because I pay less attention to drinking enough water when I am busy with dinner and bedtimes, and I am tired.  

FyreFlyeRush

1. How many weeks are you?  28w3d

2. Previous loss(es)? 1/2019

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Oh, this is a tough one. I feel like a TW might be needed. 

TL;DR version...this is the weekend I conceived, and my life pretty much sucked for the next 4 months.

Long version, TW... 

I became pregnant unexpectedly over Veterans Day weekend last year. We suddenly found ourselves on a Rollercoaster of excitement, fear (bad ultrasounds and blood tests), anger, resentment, and heart ache (not baby related) through New Years of last year. We finally reached acceptance and were working through our issues, when I got an ultrasound confirming all my suspicions, but with a HB. And made a very difficult decision to terminate if my body continued to hold on, (we knew it wasn't a viable pregnancy, and I couldn't continue to just wait it out), causing more anger, resentment, heartache and fear. I miscarried naturally, at home, Jan 8...sending us on a brand NEW roller-coaster of heart break, anger, fear, resentment, and grief through March. 

It's hard to approach the holidays without remembering everything I went through last year...the way when other people were around, he was loving and affectionate, but as soon as we were home in bed, he went cold and distant. It's hard to be excited about this baby when he'll be born right as I reach the first anniversary of my loss last year. AND, I'll be dealing with postpartum as I work through the worst period of time in our relationship, where he just shut me out and left me to grieve alone. Don't blame him. We all grieve in our own ways. His was to shut down. But the whole time period just sucked. 

4. Any appointment updates? My OB and MFM appointments went great, making me think carrying to 39w may be a reality instead of a dream. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Not really. 

6. Any milestones coming up? 32w, and then 35w I'm home free. 

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far?  I haven't had a lot of cravings...but ice cream at 2am was pretty funny, and my love of all things pumpkin spice has been annoying. Mostly I get.a hankering for a particular food or drink then am like, yeah don't want that.

Edit - formatting and typos

biolprof

@FyreFlyeRush thinking of you. Loss is hard and it's okay to have it mixed up with your excitement for the baby. Be on special alert postpartum and seek care when needed for you and your partner! I actually worry about depression more for my partner than me and told him that so hopefully if it is an issue he will be willing to seek care to help! No one should go this alone! Hugs!

FyreFlyeRush

@biolprof, I actually am more worried about him than me. My family is a block away, and I can drive or walk to my parents if I need adult companionship and a break.

EmilyE13

@kbrown2385 Hooray for good news on the growth scan!
@MollySm I keep waking up with calf cramps. Is that where yours are?
@c1kc1kpol1cn1k Evenings are really tough for me, too. 
@biolprof I hope you pass the 3 hour with no trouble! I agree; it’s a rough test. Had to do it for DD. 
@FyreFlyeRush Thinking of both you and your SO. That sounds so difficult to come to terms with, and I can only imagine all your conflicting emotions right now. 

1. How many weeks are you? 30w

2. Previous loss(es)? DD’s twin 2/17

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally, I’m getting really frustrated by work and difficult clients this week. Physically, I’m still tired and dealing with sharp pelvic pain at times. 

4. Any appointment updates? OB appt tomorrow. Hoping for a good chat with her about her honest assessment for my chances at a VBAC. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I continue to be amazed by this baby’s strength and movement. I could sit and watch/feel her kick all day

6. Any milestones coming up? Now that I’ve hit 30, I suppose the next big one is reaching full term. 

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far? Nothing crazy; I just want all the Asian food. 

kbrown2385

@FyreFlyeRush lots of love and hugs your way for this anniversary ❤️. I hope you and your SO are able to get through it together. I agree with biolprof about keeping a special eye on postpartum for both of you. 

ponyoisfun

@c1kc1kpol1cn1k I was reading that BHs can come exactly from what you described and unsurprisingly are worse in the evenings.

@biolprof I am contemplating a support belt as well, but honestly I can't imagine having to wear something else when I already feel so uncomfortable.  

@EmilyE13 Baby movement is the best!  So comforting. 

1. How many weeks are you? 30 +2

2. Previous loss(es)? 6/19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I am having many of the same symptoms mentioned above.  Even lying down isn't comfortable.

4. Any appointment updates? Got a flu shot yesterday, but nothing else exciting. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Lots of stress at work, which makes me worry that it will hurt the baby.  I know this is irrational, but hard to let go of.

6. Any milestones coming up?  Just want to get to 37 w. 

7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far? Reading all of your cravings made me have cravings!  I honestly get just the strongest craving for sushi at times.  We don't really have a way to satisfy it as it takes a lot of time to make and don't have time/money to go out.  

FyreFlyeRush

UPDATE:
7. GTKY: What has been your craziest food craving so far? OMG!!!! I'm wondering why I didn't notice it until today! I just bought 5lbs of organic grapes, with no intention of sharing...and realized... I WANT ALL THINGS GRAPE. If I see a grape or grape flavored thing...I HAVE TO HAVE IT RIGHT NOW. Grape Now and Laters. Grape hard candy. Grape soft candy. Grape water add ins. Grapes of all colors and flavors (I usually only like white). Fresh grapes. Fake grape. Frozen grape. Grape jelly. Crisp grapes. Sweet grapes. Tart grapes. Big grapes. Normal sized grapes. Grape juice. It's been like this since the first tri. No idea why I didn't realize it until today. 

MollySm

@EmilyE13 - mine was a cramp in the back of my thigh that woke me up.  My muscle there was in a giant ball!  But sometimes it happens on my calfs.  And I agree that baby movement in the best.  I love just sitting and watching 💕