I was reeeaaally hoping my SIL wouldnt make it to my baby shower but she managed to buy a plane ticket for herself and my niece to come. I feel worse for my parents bc they'll be staying with them for almost a week! (Makes me extra glad we got a hotel room for the weekend of the shower!) Guess she thought since my brother got to come out for my wedding she deserves some time away too....even though she doesnt really like our family? And I know she's been buying clothes and keeps telling me that she hopes it's a girl so she can buy all the cutesy clothes....like I'd rather people just buy stuff off our registry! I don't care so much about the cutesy stuff as I do the essentials!
I hate working while I'm pregnant/ have a baby. I'm not remotely productive. Caring at all about any of my projects is so difficult. Any and all requests annoy me and I'm just doing an awful job and dragging @$$ because I feel like work is at the absolute bottom of my priority list. I just want to think about baby and prep for baby and rest and spend time nesting and doing domestic things. It feels so wrong to be in an office trying to care about any of this when my whole heart and mind is totally preoccupied and my personal to-do list is miles long.
I know some people find being at home difficult and prefer working, but I'm in the wrong position. I found being at home a million times easier and loved the year I had off with my son. I really wanted to be able to stay home this pregnancy, but there's just no way for my son to attend preschool and me not to work. Financially it doesn't make sense at all with me being the breadwinner, but I just want to sob. Why am I not folding laundry on the couch and cooking and taking my toddler for walks instead of staring at this stupid screen in an office all day?!
@craftywitch I feel ya, girl! I have to work too. I thrive at being the total caregiver to my kids and family, and even though I love my job, I want to be at home during this season of life.
@craftywitch I sooo feel you on this! I feel like I barely care about anything at work right now and I’m trying so hard to at least fake some interest so it’s not obvious to everyone. But all I want to do is think about baby, read articles, make my registry, plan the nursery etc. My lack of interest in work is further exacerbated by the fact that I stopped taking my ADHD medicine as soon as I found out I was pregnant. Bye bye productivity!
@craftywitch same boat! Being the breadwinner is powerful but also kind of a bummer! But you are right - preschool is so important although sometimes I dream about moving out to the country to a place where we can afford the mortgage/to live just on DH's salary and cook and garden and domesticate
Me: 38, DH: 36 Married Jan 2008 DD Baby Bells born Dec 2016 5 lbs, 12 oz, 18" so in love Due with #2 Baby Arya EDD February 2020
@nhh11 I completely understand. I stopped taking my ADHD medication when I was pregnant with #1 and my productivity seemed like it immediately went down the drain. For a while I worried that people would notice and think I was slacking off. I figure when I'm done with breastfeeding/pumping for #2, I'll get back on it. My productivity (and desire to work) is just not where it used to be.
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Married Jan 2008
DD Baby Bells born Dec 2016 5 lbs, 12 oz, 18" so in love
Due with #2 Baby Arya EDD February 2020
And I know she's been buying clothes and keeps telling me that she hopes it's a girl so she can buy all the cutesy clothes....like I'd rather people just buy stuff off our registry! I don't care so much about the cutesy stuff as I do the essentials!
I know some people find being at home difficult and prefer working, but I'm in the wrong position. I found being at home a million times easier and loved the year I had off with my son. I really wanted to be able to stay home this pregnancy, but there's just no way for my son to attend preschool and me not to work. Financially it doesn't make sense at all with me being the breadwinner, but I just want to sob. Why am I not folding laundry on the couch and cooking and taking my toddler for walks instead of staring at this stupid screen in an office all day?!
Married Jan 2008
DD Baby Bells born Dec 2016 5 lbs, 12 oz, 18" so in love
Due with #2 Baby Arya EDD February 2020