I am 40 years old and have had four C sections, the last being just 9 months ago. I was told by my doctor that I should not have anymore children as she described my uterine walls as "paper thin." The scar tissue, with adhesions to bowel and bladder and the abdominal wall have caused a massive, hard lump under my skin. I've had such a horrible time post partum with pain, cramping, and excessive bleeding that I started seeking a hysterectomy five months ago. My doctor was holding off until they straightened out my PCOS to see if that helped first. I had a diagnostic ultrasound this morning to get a better idea of my PCOS and found out I am 6 weeks and 2 days pregnant with... twins?!?! I am terrified. Absolutely terrified. How on earth would I be able to carry twins in this uterus? My last two babies were born early and small due to restricted growth in my uterus. I have so much going on in my head right now. I've had miscarriages before, it's early, how far could I possibly make it? The chances of me having two healthy babies has got to be practically impossible. My husband is thrilled and doesn't seem to understand my very rational fears here regarding two possible babies' health and my own. In fact, he called his mother who immediately posted that we were having twins all over her social media. I'm so upset. Nobody understands or respects my fears and my feelings. I feel even more pressure to produce two completely healthy babies. I feel very, very alone.