hi, im having a difficult time managing cooking, cleaning, baby, toddler and i really think its time to do some changes. Either my house is clean and I can put Home Cooked food on the table and my kids are left out (i feel so bad i cant give them my 110%) or kids are fine, we are having fun, cuddle etc. and my house is a mess-which drives me crazy. Today I overworked and pain in my lower back put me to bed rest. How do you manage? Sometimes grandmas help But i cant fully rely on them, especialIy when both of them told me to wait with second child, because its really hard and now i feel stupid how confident i was to think it wont be that bad. After all they are my kids, cant just expect they be there everytime i need help. Just need to hear I am not alone, glad that i could get this out.