PGAL Check-in w/o 7/10

kbrown2385

This thread is a safe place for those who are pregnant after a loss. (PGAL). If you have suffered a loss please feel free to answer the questions below and keep things going throughout the week as a continuing conversation.  

If you haven’t suffered a loss, please refrain from answering the questions, but know we welcome anyone who wants to come in and support the PGAL ladies and their milestones with encouragement or love tits! Thank you!  

1. How many weeks are you? 

2. Previous loss(es)? 

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? 

4. Any appointment updates? 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? 

6. Any milestones coming up?

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend?

kbrown2385

1. How many weeks are you? 12 weeks 

2. Previous loss(es)? 6 losses. 12/13, 1/17, 11/17, 4/18, 9/18, 2/19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally the mfm scan helped settle my mind a little although now that there’s two, I’m worrying that there will only be one next scan. I’m just ready to feel comfortable and happy with this pregnancy. Physically I’m still having nausea, some heartburn, not a huge desire to eat and I’m exhausted. 

4. Any appointment updates? July 23rd

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I ordered an instantpot yesterday and it should be delivered today. I got it for only $50 on amazon with their sale and an extra coupon, I was really excited! Looking forward to cooking all the things!

6. Any milestones coming up? Passed all previous milestones

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend? Just relaxing at home. Dh works Saturday so I’ll probably do some grocery shopping. 

biolprof

@kbrown2385 I find your dichotomy in that you don't feel like eating anything but you are excited to cook with your new instapot very interesting and somewhat comical and yet understandable all at the same time!

1. How many weeks are you? 11 + 4

2. Previous loss(es)? 12/18, 4/19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I'm feeling much better emotionally. I had my NT scan yesterday and slept horribly the day before and had a meltdown over the weekend just thinking that something was going to be wrong. But watching the baby jump around in there and wave just put my heart at ease. I really could have watched it all day and I tear up thinking about it. The pictures they take just don't do it justice!

4. Any appointment updates? See above. NT scan. I have a follow-up OB appointment tomorrow to look at the results. Hoping for the best!

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I'm tired y'all. I have had a marathon of grading midterms and I am just tired....

6. Any milestones coming up? !2 weeks is coming and so excited to be out of the first trimester. Definitely not gotten that far....but really I haven't got as far as I am not either. 

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend? I'm in week 3 of a 4 week term for my class and it is a whirlwind of work. I think I'm going to use the weekend to get caught up so next week isn't so daunting and I can make it through. Then all my teaching is done for the summer! Not that I'm off but the high stress work would be done anyways!

FyreFlyeRush

1. How many weeks are you? 11w3d

2. Previous loss(es)? 1/19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally, passing my big milestone was a huge relief. I'm clingy and needy and weepy, all blissfully normal pregnancy emotions. Physically the nausea that faded in weeks 9 and 10 came back hard-core this week, along with heartburn and a lack of appetite to exacerbate things. My back and hips are killing me, and I've got some RLP. EDIT: before I became pregnant, I was a 38DD. Now, I'm popping out of a 38DDD, and my partner is calling my bbs his pound cakes because they're so heavy and dense. *sigh* This is what happens when you fall for a boob-man!

4. Any appointment updates? 7/15 12w appt, and waiting for the MFM to call. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? My beautiful daughter is traveling China on her break from teaching. My friends son is stationed in Japan, and won't leave the base. I'm so proud of her for not just staying at her dorm during the break and taking this chance to explore such an ancient and unique country and culture. 

6. Any milestones coming up? For me, I still have the NIPT as a major milestone. But, I've passed all my loss related ones

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend? Sleeping in! 

kbrown2385

@biolprof I fully go into each meal planning on eating. I start and only take a few bites before I’m over it. The cooking part should be fun. Im so glad everything is going well for you! Watching that healthy baby on the scan is the best feeling in the world!

@FyreFlyeRush jealous of your boobs 🤣. Mine don’t grow at all during pregnancy so I’m stuck with my b’s for life. 

FyreFlyeRush

@kbrown2385, oh man. Its a mixed blessing, that's for sure. My daughter took me from 34C to 36DD. With my son I got to a 40EEE while pregnant and a 40FF while nursing!!! I much prefer my 38DD. 

c1kc1kpol1cn1k

@kbrown2385 enjoy your new instapot!
@biolprof totally agree the pictures don't do justice, I wish I recorded that actual ultrasound! Glad you had such a good appointment post all the worry and meltdown
@FyreFlyeRush oh my goodness your back must be in pain when you reach 40EEE!!!! 

1. How many weeks are you? 15w1  

2. Previous loss(es)? sep 18 / mar19

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? pretty good, having some pretty bad dreams, one night I sleep well then the next night I'm tossing and turning, oh well!

4. Any appointment updates? next week with the midwife

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? 

6. Any milestones coming up? just having a positive appointment next week

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend? nothing planned actually this weekend, probably just relaxing and swimming 

FyreFlyeRush

Update... I finally got my AMA MFM mess sorted and have an appt on the 19th!

DalexRN

1. How many weeks are you? 12w6d

2. Previous loss(es)? My son at 17 weeks Oct 2016

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I had a good but emotionally hard week.  My 1st trimester US was Wednesday at MFM and the last time I was there was the day I found out my son had passed.  I sobbed in the parking lot, at the front desk, and then cried throughout the entire US, even though things were good.  I have so many awful memories of what happened that day it will be hard to go each time but I am praying it gets better.  Physically I stopped my progesterone supplement a couple days ago and now I don't feel pregnant at all.  The US was reassuring though so PGAL brain is currently under control.

4. Any appointment updates? See above.  I also have an OB appointment next week.

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Anyone else stop their progesterone and have symptoms improve/disappear?

6. Any milestones coming up?  Creeping up on 17 weeks... I can't help but think "if I lose this baby at the same time I will only be pregnant for 4 more weeks"  

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend?  Not working!

kbrown2385

@DalexRN I can’t bring myself to stop using the progesterone. This is my last refill and I’m waiting for my next appt to stop. The thought of it makes me anxious even though I know the placentas have taken over at this point. 

biolprof

@DalexRN doc said to stop progesterone today so I'll let you know. I'm hoping for you that PGAL calms down and the next 4 weeks fly by uneventfully!

MollySm

@DalexRN - ((hugs))  Sending you lots of calm thoughts as you get though this part of pregnancy.   I wasn't on progesterone, but my symptoms are pretty much gone(and were at my ultrasound).  It makes sense you wouldn't feel many symptoms around the end of the first tri. 

@biolprof - My OB told my husband to take a video after we had been watching baby flip around for awhile.   I am so thankful she said something !  I cannot stop watching it.  

MollySm

1. How many weeks are you?  12w 2d

2. Previous loss(es)?  Blighted ovum in '13

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically I have lost so many of my symptoms.   It happened before my u/s so in my head I know it's not because of baby, but still.  And then this morning I had a super intense pain when I got out of bed, worse than any RLP I have had before.   

4. Any appointment updates? I have one on the 23rd.  I really hope we can hear the heartbeat on the doppler.   I have one to use at home, but I am too nervous I wouldn't find it and freak myself out.  

5. Rants/Raves/Questions?   We cannot come up with a 4th girls name.  Poor kid is going to be stuck without one.  

6. Any milestones coming up?  None

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend?  Tomorrow I am taking my big girls (5&7) to see a community theater performance of The Secret Garden.   They love musicals and acting, so I think they will love it! 

EmilyE13

@FyreFlyeRush I’m so glad you passed your big milestone and hope you have a great MFM appt next week!

@DalexRN That has to be so tough going back to the MFM place where you learned of your loss, but hopefully the great results you had this week will help lessen the pain for next time. How far along were you when you stopped your progesterone supplement?

@kbrown2385 @biolprof I need to call my office to confirm when they want me to stop progesterone. For some reason I thought it was 14 weeks but that seems long.

1. How many weeks are you? 13w3d

2. Previous loss(es)? DD’s twin 2/17

3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Feeling a little less anxious and more excited. Hearing the heartbeat for the first time in Wednesday really helped PGAL brain. Physically I have been more active but have also been feeling a lot more soreness and stretching.

4. Any appointment updates? Next appt is 7/29. 

5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Does anyone else have deep seemingly muscle pain on one side of their butt? It’s on my right side and can be BRUTAL. Sciatic pain maybe?

6. Any milestones coming up? Anxiously awaiting  NIPT results in the next week or so. 

7. GTKY: Are you looking forward to anything this weekend? Pool time! We also have dinner with my parents and grandpa on Sunday. It’s his first anniversary without my grandma, who passed last July, so we wanted to make sure he didn’t spend it alone. He and my DD adore each other so hopefully getting to play with her will be therapeutic for him. 

FyreFlyeRush

Update: I had my 12w appt today. They were able to locate the heartbeat with Doppler, shocking the heck out of me! 163bpm.The midwife and OB sat down and talked with me and went through all my fears and concerns. In the end, they convinced me to dream and relax a little, so I looked at baby stuff today. Its easier said than done, but I'm going to try to enjoy being pregnant and stop fearing the worst every time coffee doesn't make me hurl. 

Unfortunately, my PGAL anxiety has been so bad, my blood pressure is icky. I made myself high risk and have to go back in two weeks. We're hoping the NT and NIPT results will calm me down enough to put my blood pressure back where it normally is... The low 120s.

biolprof

@FyreFlyeRush so glad to hear your appointment went well! Take care of yourself. It's the best thing you can do for baby so rest and relax and try to enjoy the ride! I know easier said than done 😉

DalexRN

@EmilyE13 I stopped the progesterone at 12w4d