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October 2019 Moms

PGAL check in w/o 1/28

Thought I would get the ball rolling here so its available as people start wandering in. 

I had two mmc 6 months to the day apart in 2015 before having my son in 2017. I am feeling oddly hopeful about this bean. I am trying to be kind and let myself feel whatever I feel, but I am also trying to choose joy in this lonnnnnng waiting period before I can get an ultrasound. From my experience, after the pain is not as raw, it has been nice to have even a few happy memories of those other 2 pregnancies even though my heart was crushed when they ended. I know that being anxious now isn't going to make me any less hurt if things don't end happy this time, so I might as well enjoy what I can while I can. But I am still peeing on all the things in the meantime. 

TW: MMC
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

c.gardner37zaraanitysoraletteelle-0409

Re: PGAL check in w/o 1/28

  • cmbt2cmbt2 member
    Fifth Anniversary 100 Comments Name Dropper Photogenic
    I also belong in here.  I had a MMC well before DS1 and a CP over the holidays (so this current pregnancy was a complete shock). 

    I’m homozygous for the C677T MTHFR mutation, so in addition to a prenatal, I’m on additional methylfolate and baby aspirin. MWs also stuck me on progesterone supplements this time around and have been in consult with my MFM (because they also classify me as high risk) on whether to switch to lovenox injections. I have my third beta draw today as a check to make sure they’re still rising as they should. My MWs have been very proactive this time around (I think I’m one of the rare ones who has a MW group that accepts high risk patients).
    BFP #1 3/07, EDD 11/12/07, MMC 5/7/07
    ~~~  ~~~  ~~~
    BFP #2 5/4/14, EDD 1/15/15, DS1 1/19/15
    BFP #3 8/19/16, EDD 4/30/17, DS2 4/25/17
    BFP #4 12/22/18, EDD 9/6/19 - CP 12/29/18
    BFP #5 1/18/19, EDD 10/3/19 
    ~~~  ~~~  ~~~
    High Risk Dx (6/14):  Homozygous MTHFR C677T, protein C & S deficiencies
    ceclarlinetlosoralette
  • @cmbt2 When we did all our recurrent loss testing some of my APS antibody results came back as "indeterminant" . One time I was 1 point too low to be considered a true positive, and when they did the recheck how ever many weeks later I was 1 point too high to be considered a true negative. So I am square in the middle of the grey zone. They told me baby aspirin won't hurt if those antibodies are not actually an issue, and they can help if those antibodies are an issue so I took when I was pregnant with DS and I am taking it again. I also had a small septum removed before I got pregnant with DS. On ultrasound it looked like a true septum, but when they actually got in there they didn't have to remove much tissue before they reached a blood supply so they downgraded me to "sub-septate"  diagnosis. We have no idea if that was really causing an issue but it definitely can't anymore.
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

  • I hope it's ok if I post here. I had one mmc in 2015 before a successful pregnancy in 2016. It's amazing how even one loss impacts your future pregnancy experiences. I know this will be our last and I'm trying desperately trying to enjoy it, but it's been real tough. I haven't thought about my loss in a long time and now it's fresh in my mind as we go through these next few critical weeks.


    galentinececlarlinetlosoralette
  • I hope it's ok if I post here. I had one mmc in 2015 before a successful pregnancy in 2016. It's amazing how even one loss impacts your future pregnancy experiences. I know this will be our last and I'm trying desperately trying to enjoy it, but it's been real tough. I haven't thought about my loss in a long time and now it's fresh in my mind as we go through these next few critical weeks.
    It is absolutely OK to post here! I am sorry for you experienced a loss. Having a child after the loss is a wonderful gift, but it doesn’t mean we won’t struggle with “what if's” sometimes! 
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

  • I recently had a MC with my first pregnancy back in November... very early, midway through week 6. So I am excited and frankly surprised that I am pregnant so quickly again, but also trying to keep my feet on the ground and stay level for these next few weeks. 

    We are telling less people this time around, mostly my SO's request because he found telling people about the MC to be very painful (whereas I enjoyed the support). I'm def feeling some anxious-ness and keep checking in with my body, looking for symptoms, and worrying at the little cramps. 

    Fingers crossed for us all <3 slow and steady :) 
    ceclarlinetlo
  • soralettesoralette member
    Long-Lasting Membership 2500 Comments 100 Love Its First Answer
    edited January 31
    Hello, PGAL friends. <3 Here's hoping the anxiety bugs aren't hitting you too hard yet!

    Short version -- We've had four early losses, and are now pregnant via IVF with PGS.

    TW for living children:
    We had our first son with no problems in 2012, then had 4 early losses from 2014-2015 while trying for #2. We ultimately had to move on to IVF with PGS, which told us that about three quarters of the embryos we were able to make had monosomies and trisomies that were incompatible with life. Thankfully, we had enough euploid ones for both son #2 (born 2016) and now this pregnancy -- though we did have to transfer both of the euploid ones we had left (both girls).

    If we miscarry this pregnancy, though, we'll have to start all over again. :( So I'm scared about that!


    ---
    ♥ Married since June 2009 ♥
    TW: Living children & Losses:
    Mom of sons "Alpha" (Feb 2012) & "Beta" (May 2016)
    Pregnant after 4 losses via IVF/FET with daughter "Gamma" (EDD Oct 2, 2019)
    Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
    ceclarlinetlozaraanity
  • @soralette I am so sorry you have had such a hard struggle! 🤞🤞 one for each embryo 🙂
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

    soralette
  • @ceclarlinetlo Thank you very much! <3 I hope things go easily and smoothly for you, too!
    ---
    ♥ Married since June 2009 ♥
    TW: Living children & Losses:
    Mom of sons "Alpha" (Feb 2012) & "Beta" (May 2016)
    Pregnant after 4 losses via IVF/FET with daughter "Gamma" (EDD Oct 2, 2019)
    Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
    ceclarlinetlo
  • Hi ladies! I am 4 weeks today with pregnancy #6. EDD is 10/10. I got my BFP on the 26th which is really early for me to find out! I’ve never had a positive before AF was due. I have 2 girls, ages 10 & 4. This will be our 4th and final attempt at bringing home 1 more baby. The first little baby we lost was a late miscarriage in Sept 2016 at 12w6d that I needed a d&c for. We have had 2 babies born still. The first in May of 2017 at 20w1d and the next April of 2018 at 21w6d. I have gone through a TON of testing but have no answers. I am really trying to stay positive and have a feeling of calm so far (we’ll see how I feel later on 😉) Looking forward to belonging to this group to not only receive support but also give it! I have found that focusing on what I am thankful for helps. Today I am thankful for all these pregnancy symptoms that seemed to pop up extra early and strong! Here’s hoping we all have a Happy, Healthy and Uneventful 9 months! 
    ceclarlinetlosoralette
  • cdnrunningcdnrunning member
    500 Love Its 500 Comments Third Anniversary Name Dropper
    edited January 31
    c.gardner37   I'm so sorry for your previous losses - I can't imagine how difficult that was. This is already a wonderful group of ladies and I'm sure you'll find that too!


  • @c.gardner37 I am so sorry for everything you have been through! You are so strong to be able to choose positivity in the face of so much grief! 
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

  • @ceclarlinetlo @cdnrunning thank you both so much! I’m sorry you’ve both been through losses but I’m glad we get another chance! And we get to do it together! 
    ceclarlinetlosoralette
  • I am sorry for everyone’s losses. They are never easy.

    My husband and I hadn’t told family I was pregnant the last time around so we went through out loss quietly together. I had started spotting and went to see my doctor at 11 weeks, only to find out if miscarried at 7 weeks but it took my body nearly 4 weeks realize it. I will be going to an early ultrasound this time for around the same time as my prior loss so am trying to be calm about things until then. 
    ceclarlinetlo
  • @geminigirl16 I am glad your doctor is getting you in for an early scan. I had a similar experience with my second loss. That one stopped growing at 6w1d and I was 10+ weeks when I opted for a D&C because my body just wasn’t getting the memo. 
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

    geminigirl16
  • @geminigirl16 I’m sorry you had to go through the loss quietly. With my first we had just announced to everyone that morning and then found out at our doctors appointment later that morning that baby no longer had a heartbeat. It was awful! I’m so happy that you’re able to get in for an ultrasound and it’s totally normal to feel anxious about it but you are stronger than you know! Keep thinking positively! Can’t wait to hear how your ultrasound goes. 
    geminigirl16
  • Copying my intro here because it has all of the relevant info for here too.  :)

    Hi everyone!  I am very cautiously introducing myself here.  I've been over in TTGP and TTCAL, and have found some wonderful support over there!  I am currently on day 37 of my cycle and had been getting BFNs all the way up to 14DPO, so I thought I was out this cycle.  I went away on a business trip, and on the last day of the conference, started feeling extremely nauseous.  I still hadn't gotten my period yet, and I had brought a few cheap tests with me just in case.  I took one last night, and saw the faintest second line.  Went out and bought a FRER and confirmed with a slightly less faint line.  I have a digital for tomorrow morning because pee on all the things!

    I'm 33, MH is 38.  We have one son who is about to turn 27 months (former N16 BMB member).

    I had a MMC on Nov 16 at almost 10 weeks.  I briefly participated in the June '19 BMB before my loss.  I am extremely nervous this time because of how faint my test line is so late in my cycle, but also cautiously excited!  I have no idea how far along I am because this cycle was so wacky!

    I honestly have no idea when my due date is at this point because of how wacky this cycle was.  Based on when FF says I O'd, I'll go with 10/7.

    Febrary TTGP Siggy: Animals in Love (TW below)



    **TW: LC & loss**
    Me: 33 | H: 38
    DS: Nov 2016
    MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
    CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
    ceclarlinetlozaraanitykbrown2385
  • Welcome @shamrocandroll! I am do for your loss. 🤞 for this bean. I had a super wonky cycle as well. FF said I ovulated cd26 but that would mean I got a BFP on 5dpo which is not possible so 🤷‍♀️ 
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

    shamrocandroll
  • @ceclarlinetlo Thank you!  I'm super nervous because I saw somewhere that CPs are more likely right after a MC, and my line is so faint, so late, but I need to resist the Googling and try to just be excited!
    Febrary TTGP Siggy: Animals in Love (TW below)



    **TW: LC & loss**
    Me: 33 | H: 38
    DS: Nov 2016
    MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
    CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
    ceclarlinetlo
  • cmbt2cmbt2 member
    Fifth Anniversary 100 Comments Name Dropper Photogenic
    @shamrocandroll welcome! FWIW, I didn’t get a definite faint line on certain cheapies until close to 14dpo (only squinters). Maybe that’s the case for you? Could it be you’re a better night tester? My tests are always darker at night 🤷🏼‍♀️
    BFP #1 3/07, EDD 11/12/07, MMC 5/7/07
    ~~~  ~~~  ~~~
    BFP #2 5/4/14, EDD 1/15/15, DS1 1/19/15
    BFP #3 8/19/16, EDD 4/30/17, DS2 4/25/17
    BFP #4 12/22/18, EDD 9/6/19 - CP 12/29/18
    BFP #5 1/18/19, EDD 10/3/19 
    ~~~  ~~~  ~~~
    High Risk Dx (6/14):  Homozygous MTHFR C677T, protein C & S deficiencies
  • @cmbt2 Who knows!  I got a negative FRER at 12DPO, a negative Wondfo at 14DPO, then positive Wondfo at 16DPO.  I just confirmed this afternoon with a FRER.  It was slightly less faint, but still pretty faint...
    Febrary TTGP Siggy: Animals in Love (TW below)



    **TW: LC & loss**
    Me: 33 | H: 38
    DS: Nov 2016
    MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
    CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
    emily1052
  • jd614jd614 member
    Sixth Anniversary 250 Answers 100 Comments 25 Love Its
    I don't know if I fully belong here but just want to send my support and good vibes to you all. I have 2 beautiful boys, almost 6 and 3.5.  I had a MC around 6 weeks back in the fall and I was crushed. I was so surprised because my last 2 pregnancies happened quickly and were fairly easy. It took us about 6 months to get pregnant this time and then I miscarried. Even though it was very early, I was still so upset.  So while my journey is no where near what others have been through, I can sympathize with nerves this go around hoping we all have successful pregnancies <3 
    ceclarlinetlo
  • @jd614 If you would like to join in then you definitely belong! Other people having a harder journey doesn’t invalidate your journey or feelings. I once heard a phrase “Nobody wins at the pain olympics.” And that really resonated with me. 💜
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

    soralettegalentine
  • @jd614 Welcome, of course you belong here! All loss is painful and should never be a contest. Wishing you a H&H9!
  • @ceclarlinetlo ;@c.gardner37 Thank you for the kind words. I am glad my doctor is sending me for an early scan too as I am also AMA (38) and know that time is not in my favor at the moment. Wishing you both healthy and uncomplicated pregnancies. 
    ceclarlinetloemily1052
  • I’m so sorry to hear about all of your losses.  I hope this one (or two) sticks for all of you!!  

    We got our first BFP in September ‘17 which was a CP.  

    We were surprised at our 2nd BFP in November ‘17.  Doctor confirmed a 2nd miscarriage at 7weeks.  At 9weeks they finally diagnosed the ectopic pregnancy when my right tube was bleeding.  They were able to save the tube initially but 2 weeks later I had to have a second surgery to remove my right Fallopian tube due to bleeding.  

    So here I am!  One year after the worst month of my life and pregnant again.  I’m really hopeful that this one sticks around.  I even bought a pregnancy journal!  
    geminigirl16soralettezaraanity
  • I took a leap of faith this morning. I really really really wanted to by another box of FRERs when I went to the store to buy some draino and a plunger. But I saw the store had side-ruched tanktops that would work as materity active wear so I bought those instead. I kept the receipt so I can return them if necesary but I am hoping that I won’t have to. 
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

    zaraanityshamrocandrollc.gardner37
  • @ceclarlinetlo ahh good for you <3 I did something similar a few days ago with some pants that had a bit of extra space in the waist that I really wanted.... fingers crossed. It’s really hard not to feel like I’m “jinxing” it or something. :disappointed:
  • zaraanity said:
    @ceclarlinetlo ahh good for you <3 I did something similar a few days ago with some pants that had a bit of extra space in the waist that I really wanted.... fingers crossed. It’s really hard not to feel like I’m “jinxing” it or something. :disappointed:
    I know what you mean! It is so hard to not worry about jinxing it. These first few weeks are such a mind game. Something my therapist has me do when I am anxious is to identify the thought that is making me anxious and then identify a truth statement to directly combat the anxiety inducing thought. So this morning I told myself, (paraphrasing here lol) “you have blood work that shows your baby is growing well. Buying these tanktops will not cause your baby to die, and peeing on sticks won’t cause the baby to live.” 
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

    c.gardner37zaraanityallycat983
  • *TW - I'm out

    Well ladies, just as quick as I was in, I'm out. Bad cramping and bleeding started this morning. I had to tell MH just 12 hours after telling him we were pregnant. Feeling a lot of mixed emotions right now.


    Febrary TTGP Siggy: Animals in Love (TW below)



    **TW: LC & loss**
    Me: 33 | H: 38
    DS: Nov 2016
    MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
    CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
  • @shamrocandroll I am SO SO sorry. I know there isn’t really anything anyone can say that helps. This sucks and I hate it for you. 💜💜💜💜
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

    shamrocandroll
  • @shamrocandroll I’m so sorry for your loss :disappointed: Sending you so much love from afar <3 <3 <3 
    shamrocandroll
  • cmbt2cmbt2 member
    Fifth Anniversary 100 Comments Name Dropper Photogenic
    I’m so sorry @shamrocandroll
    BFP #1 3/07, EDD 11/12/07, MMC 5/7/07
    ~~~  ~~~  ~~~
    BFP #2 5/4/14, EDD 1/15/15, DS1 1/19/15
    BFP #3 8/19/16, EDD 4/30/17, DS2 4/25/17
    BFP #4 12/22/18, EDD 9/6/19 - CP 12/29/18
    BFP #5 1/18/19, EDD 10/3/19 
    ~~~  ~~~  ~~~
    High Risk Dx (6/14):  Homozygous MTHFR C677T, protein C & S deficiencies
    shamrocandroll
  • @shamrocandroll I'm sorry. Such heartbreaking news for you and your husband.


    shamrocandroll
  • @shamrocandroll I am so sorry to see your update. Sending positive thoughts to you and your husband. 
    shamrocandroll
  • @shamrocandroll this sucks and it’s not fair and I’m more sorry than you know. I’m thinking of you and crying with you today. Wishing you fast healing and peace. 
    shamrocandroll
  • **lurking**
    @shamrocandroll I'm so sorry for your loss. This is not fair. Hugs ❤
    shamrocandroll
  • @shamrocandroll I’m so sorry.  Truly, so incredibly, unfair.  Sending you and your family lots of healing thoughts. 
    shamrocandroll
  • Thank you, all.  It means so much!  I wish you all a happy and healthy 9 months.  <3 
    Febrary TTGP Siggy: Animals in Love (TW below)



    **TW: LC & loss**
    Me: 33 | H: 38
    DS: Nov 2016
    MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
    CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
    ceclarlinetlozaraanityc.gardner37zuuls_mom
  • @shamrocandroll I am so, so sorry for your loss <3 Sending love your way.
    ---
    ♥ Married since June 2009 ♥
    TW: Living children & Losses:
    Mom of sons "Alpha" (Feb 2012) & "Beta" (May 2016)
    Pregnant after 4 losses via IVF/FET with daughter "Gamma" (EDD Oct 2, 2019)
    Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
    shamrocandroll
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