I am 6 weeks pregnant with my first baby. It was completely unexpected. And I am having a really hard time being happy or excited.
Every time I find out something new about what I will have to go through or do or something that will happen to me/my body I have horrible anxiety over it.. for like days on end.
I feel like a stranger in my own body right now, I cry every day, I don’t want to lose my body or my “sex appeal” and most of all my dignity.
I feel like I am going to look so pathetic... what with all the procedures and tests I’ll have done, plus with how horrid my body will look when I’m huge, and then all the damage that will be done to me. I feel like everyone including my husband is going to be embarrassed of me and lose respect for me.
I want this baby, and I know it’s a blessing. But I’m not enjoying pregnancy like I always thought I would... and I’m not happy or excited at all.. and I want to be but no matter what I do I can’t stop feeling so low and disgusting.
What do I do? Will it get better? Please help.