I lost track of the board last year - I got a new job last December, and we took a break from "trying". I was emotionally exhausted from it all. It was putting a strain on our relationship. I felt like that wasn't a great attitude to share with you all. I feel like I'm in a better place, and I'm looking for advice.
TW - Pregnancy mentioned
My sister-in-law, the one that I complained about all the time, she's pregnant. They are due in March, so she's going through some stuff now, wrestling with gestational diabetes and other complications of her PCOS, etc. I am slightly worried about how my husband will feel, since it's his younger brother having his first child. I had to hear about her diabetes for the first 10 minutes of Thanksgiving dinner. And they've been kind of touchy about being included in family get-togethers and I've been so frustrated with their self-centered approach. Instead of saying "pick a date, we'll see if we feel well enough to go", it's been "well, we're pregnant and we'll have to see how that fits with our schedule". Nope, the brunch I wanted to host for Grandma will NOT be scheduled around you.
Add to this, I've recently gotten closer with my family, and I found out a week ago through 23AndMe that I have surprise cousins! (My uncle sowed some wild oats as a young man.) So, I have definitely been thinking about kids and how they may or may not fit into my life.
I am approaching 36 next month, and never imagined that I would be having these kinds of thoughts. I figured I would be done with kids by 35. I am really torn, and the problem is my husband was absolutely fine with all the testing, hormones and appointments that I went through to attempt to get pregnant but has no desire to do IVF and little interest in fostering or adoption. It seems most likely that it's his low motility but I can't completely be sure that there's not something off with me.