I haven't seen one of these threads for a bit so I thought I'd start a new one. Especially because the pregnancy weepies are REALLY hitting me hard now.
MH and I went to see the new Queen movie yesterday, it was all I could do not to bawl in the theater.
And later last night I decided I wanted to break out the doppler and listen for LO's heartbeat since I can't really feel him move much still. So I drop a glob of goop on my belly and he starts giving me crap about how much goop I used. He said he had to buy the stuff I use at home so not to use so much. Turns out... He really was just giving me crap and I'm super hormonal and took so seriously that I was crying about it. Haha! He felt so bad afterward.
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying - November edition
Yesterday we moved the crib from DD's room to the new baby's room and when DH put the mattress all the way up I lost it. Bawled about DD already being so big and how was that possible? blah blah blah. Then later cried about how ridiculous I've become.
I have turned into a complete weepy marshmallow. We looked at a house this weekend and I was borderline hyperventilating crying after we left. I had to wait 5 minutes to calm down before I could go back to my MILs house because I was so embarrassed.
Last night I broke down, then again this morning when we unloaded all of the baby gear/clothes/toys that we'd been generously given from a dear friend who had her son a year ago and most of it went unused and was in great shape so she passed it on. It sat in the van for a little while until I could make room in the house and so I had it all set aside in my son's closet and seeing it all filled me with a sudden, overwhelming anxiety. Partly from the realization, seeing everything...that this is really happening for us at long last and then feeling slammed by the list in my head of all that I've yet to purchase, organize, accomplish. Trying to set up maternity photo shoot, find a dress (why is this making me cry???) get car seats for each vehicle, the crib and changing table... so much to do!
Then going through a box of newborn outfits she'd given us, holding the clothes, I was just in tears.
A total mess!
Today I was crying as I was frustrated over trying to find a reputable place to purchase a gown for the maternity photos. I kept seeing the site Lulaluka but saw that it was a scam site and looking on Amazon and Etsy I'm not happy with what I'm seeing. The weight has been coming on fast these past few weeks and that has me ruffled too, even though I'm eating well/healthy but the body changes have me feeling so uncomfortable and awkward and not pretty right now. Haha. All of these reasons for losing it and breaking down into tears seems so petty and silly and they are but it just happens and then I feel so ridiculous.
*sighs* But it feels good to have a place to share this and vent a little and read all of you ladies experiences as you're right there with me.
Married: 2016
BFP #1 4/23/18, blighted ovum 5/29/18
BFP#2 7/14/18, DS 4/5/19