Hi all! I was on here for half of 2016 and most of of 2017. I experienced a cornual ectopic pregnancy the first time we conceived which was very traumatic because I had to get 5 shots of methotrexate because the location of the embryo was in the corner of my uterus in a very dangerous location which couldn't be resolved with surgery. I suffered major PTSD from the experience and had to get on anxiety meds. I got pregnant again in the beginning of 2017 which ended in a CP. Two months later I got pregnant again and had a MMC which we found out about at the 10 week appointment which was resolved with a D&C. Three months later I got pregnant with our little rainbow. I suffered extreme anxiety throughout the pregnancy because I had random bleeds throughout and was convinced things would go badly because of my history. I had a horrific 42 hour delivery where LO wasn't breathing when I delivered and had aspirated on meconium. I ended up with severe postpartum anxiety and OCD with intrusive thoughts following our daughter's birth. I also was diagnosed with D-MER which is a physiological disorder related to milk letdown.
But after all of that we are going to try for another rainbow. We are going to start now because it took three loses before we were able to have a successful pregnancy and I am already 38. I received so much support and understanding on this board the first time around that I couldn't imagine doing this again without this board. I don't have a period back yet so who knows how I will track anything. I am excited and petrified at the same time. I hope to get to know all you strong ladies in the process but do hope none of us are here too long!