@eleven_ they seriously just hit today! I woke up and felt nauseous, but it went away with eating toast. And then DD was jumping on me and accidentally hit me in the boob and I thought I was going to die. And finally, I almost fell asleep on the couch while she was playing in the living room. So so tired today.
@srscott3 I remember at 6 weeks while pregnant with DD passing out on the couch by 6pm.
With the twins I had zero symptoms, except maybe peeing a lot.
Ive never had sore boobs as a pregnancy symptom, except from nursing/pumping. I wonder why that is. People always say it is their first symptom and I’m like, hmm never had it.
I feel like ive never had strong symptoms through any of my 4 pregnancies. My body likes to make up for the punishment through postpartum. 😆
@meatballs37 I have still been using up the rest of my Wondfos since I had them. But then I freaked myself out this morning thinking that the one today was lighter than yesterday. I think really though the control line was darker on today's then yesterday's. But yea...I really want to get one more blood test done just for my peace of mind. The 31st is so far away.
I'm remaining strong. I've peed on all of 1 stick. That's it. I have wondfos and a digital frer. I will admit that I have looked at the pic of of that 1 stick about a bazillion times...... and may or may not have looked at the actual stick when I emptied the bathroom trash today.......
I dig through a sea of used pee sticks to get to my cotton balls at night. I have stopped peeing on the things but I still need to double check every test every time.
1. How many weeks are you? I don’t know for sure yet, but I’m going with 4 weeks for now so I don’t expect to be further along than I am.
2. Previous loss(es)? 1 MMC 7/18. I only got to 8w4d, but didn’t find out until 12w.
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Exhausted, a little nauseous, and having some very slight cramps. The cramps are absolutely freaking me out, though. I keep having to remind myself that that can happen very early on.
4. Any appointment updates? I haven’t scheduled any yet. I’m hoping to schedule an appointment at 9w so I can get past my first milestone at that appointment and I don’t have to have as much anxiety over the next four weeks. I’m sure I’ll still be anxious, though.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? None right now. Just excited to get the BFP.
6. Any milestones coming up?
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? Definitely tacos. Not a sushi person at all.
1. How many weeks are you? 4 weeks, 5 days 2. Previous loss(es)? none 3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? emotionally, excited and nervous. I want to share the news with everyone, but also scared of the unknown. 4. Any appointment updates? I have my first appointment on 11/7 5. Rants/Raves/Questions? is it normal to have slight cramps every day? The last few days I've had mild cramps and tender breasts. 6. Any milestones coming up? anticipating morning sickness? haha 7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? tacos, for sure!
@mamabearlmel this thread is for those of us pregnant after loss (PGAL). Your post says "none" in regards to previous losses. If you've had a loss, please feel free to update that and participate. If you've not suffered a loss, please refrain from posting here in the future (unless you are "lurking" to support us).
I peed on like 5 wondfos in the beginning because even at 14DPO with FMU they were so faint that they made me question whether or not I was hallucinating. Thank god for those CB digis that just say "pregnant". That was what convinced me. I did POAS again at like 18DPO (a bit darker), which reassured me. Embarrassed to say I took another one today because I have to POAS at the doctor tomorrow and I had some weird fear that it would just be negative. Nope-- actually looks like two dark lines now! I swear I will stop doing this soon...
Guys, do YHs get where your at with anxiety? Last night I told him I'm nervous about the US tomorrow and his response was "you need to be positive" and I wanted to smack him. Like, he doesn't remember how traumatic my last one was.... He doesn't get why I'm worried. He doesn't feel what I'm feeling and he doesn't even try to understand where I'm coming from. When I tried to explain it he said "are you still seeing your therapist" 🙄😒
@prpl11butterfly I’d be upset too if DH said something like that. He probably wouldn’t, but if he did I would lose my mind. Maybe you should tell him, “yeah I am seeing my therapist, let me bring you along so they can smack some sense into you.”
DH and I were going to therapy together for a while and it helped. We learned we grieve soo differently. And the best thing they got through to him about was that he needed to ask often (every week) how I was doing and let me talk about my grief.
Men seem to get over things so much more quickly. Or at least they just don’t show it. Therapy made DH realize I need everything acknowledged still. Especially with subsequent pregnancies. Maybe you could bring yours along and he could see it from a different perspective about why your anxiety will always be there. And that it has nothing to do with “being positive.”
@prpl11butterfly mine totally does not understand. In his mind, that’s over and there is no reason why I should be nervous since nothing bad has happened this time so far. He just refuses to acknowledge the possibility and thinks that makes it go away. So frustrating.
2. Previous loss(es)? MC June 2016; MMC October 2016
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I'm really nervous about losing this baby. I had a successful pregnancy but still remember our losses. They are seared into my heart and memory. I've had some spotting but remind myself that it can happen in the first trimester. I feel awful. I had to start Bonjesta because I was having trouble keeping water and food down. I'm still nauseous with it, I can just keep more down. I'm so exhausted.
4. Any appointment updates? October 23rd US, I'm holding my breath
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Nothing currently
6. Any milestones coming up? This month it has been two years since our MMC.
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? Tacos
Thanks @nmbrcrnchr1, it's going to be a long day waiting....
@TJtheGoat yes! To him it's a "new start" and that means everything is okay (until its not).
@meatballs37 I don't know that I'm ready to share that space with him yet. I do feel like it will come to that, eventually.
This is about the only reassurance that's helping me right now :
These 2 will not get away from me. The mostly black one is constantly by my side and usually laying with her upper body and paws stretched across my belly. She acted just like that during my pregnancy with DS. The other one only acted like this after my D&C so I feel like he's picking up my need for comfort.
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally, I'm a bundle of nerves and stress! I just want to blank out for the next couple of months to get into the next trimester. Physically, I'm just tired at this point.
4. Any appointment updates? My fertility clinic doesn't have my betas scheduled until the 22nd, but I left them a message today asking them to move it up. I really need to have everything confirmed with a blood test to ease my mind just a little bit. POAS (or two) every morning is going to get expensive
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I got a positive on a digital, so that made my day! I'm with a couple of other ladies...my DH is hopelessly optimistic and thinks that this one will stick...much like he thought the last three would stick.
6. Any milestones coming up? Nope
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? I'm not a fan of either, but I'd take tacos if I could tailor them to my liking!
@prpl11butterfly I have learned with MH that I need to ask him really directly for what I need, even for things I feel like he should know already. It only works in a time of relative calm, but I will say things like "I need you to ask me how I'm feeling every day, because I want to complain that I feel bad every day." And he mostly has. It took me a long time to learn this and to not feel resentful about it. At least for MH, he wants to help but he has NO emotional intuition about how to do so in any given moment. When I tell him, it's genuinely eye-opening for him. With the losses, I have never met a husband who takes it as hard as the woman. They just don't-- and they don't get the anxiety brain either because they are not feeling every weird twinge, wondering what everything means, worrying about every blood test, etc. They're just not in it as deeply-- they don't internalize, blame themselves, etc. Anyway, it sounds like YH was being a jerk in that moment, but I would encourage you to talk to him and ask really directly for what you want from him. It can't hurt.
@prpl11butterfly I would lose my s*t if DH said something like that! As others said, I don’t think they can possibly understand the same as we do, but it sure would be nice to feel like they are trying!!! That being said...today is going to be a great day for US, I have one too and hopefully we both have happy news to share!!
1. How many weeks are you?
~ 6 1/2 weeks
2. Previous loss(es)?
Two, 7/16 and 8/17
3. How are you feeling?
A lot of nerves with the US this afternoon, but going to acupuncture beforehand which will hopefully be calming.
4. Any appointment updates?
US this afternoon 🤞
5. Rants/Raves/Questions?
I loved having a conference this past week it kept my mind off of things. If I wasn’t participating in the sessions, networking, etc all I wanted to do was sleep.
6. Any milestones coming up?
Baby steps along the way, just want to get past today.
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life?
I saw they are doing a wave of light thread on TTGP. I so love that idea. I would love for any of us who are lighting a candle tonight to be able to post it here or maybe also create a thread.
@prpl11butterfly MH has been telling me that everything WILL turn out okay any time I even mention the possibility of an MC happening again, but he’s also told me that he doesn’t want me to get too excited because he thinks that’s why I was so devastated last time and he doesn’t want that to happen again. We had a long talk about it all last night because he was driving me crazy with it. I really do think it’s just harder for husbands to understand and know the right things to say.
Sending you all the love @prpl11butterfly . Also my husband doesn't get it at all. He has said most of the stereotypical things you are not supposed to say to someone. When I was going through my MC I had a physical scheduled and I went. Due to my medical history MH came with to make sure that we liked this dr. (it was a new one). After I told her that I was going through a MC at that moment she turned and looked at me and was like well are you going to be a basket case about this? MH didnt see anything wrong with that.
So tech said she sees exactly what she would expect at this point, which is basically nothing. There was a properly sized/located gestational sac and nothing more. She said they really shouldn't have sent me this early. It was an aweful experience. Anxiety through the roof, I left and just cried because of that (and probably a touch of PTSD issue). DH made a stupid comment and immediately knew it was and apologized profusely.
@nmbrcrnchr1 I'm not sure. I'll probably hear from my OB tomorrow. I mean, it was nice to know that I'm on track for now. But, having been through a US with no HB, you think they would push it until the likelyhood of seeing one was strong.
Oh @prpl11butterfly I am so sorry. That is really hard. Is your OB someone you are comfortable with? Can you express your feelings to them so that they know both for you in the future and other people? They really put you through the ringer. ugh.
@dntstpbelieveing yes, I am very comfortable with them and already decided I'd be telling them how cruel it was.
@eleven_ based on LMP, 5+4. Based on O 5+2 (which is likely more accurate).
The tech expressed immediately that it would be very unlikely to see much of anything this early. Before she even turned on the machine. So I knew. I googled before hand so I knew. But, we all always want to be that SS and hope is a bitch so, here I am trying to talk common sense into my PGAL brain....
@prpl11butterfly I’m so sorry. No one deserves that extra stress. I don’t know if this is what you might be looking for or maybe need. But in spoiler is a pic of DDs US at 6+2. Only gestational sac and yolk sac. Don’t even think I heard the heartbeat at that visit. I can’t seem to find the picture, but I looked on my old OB portal and I also had an US at 5+5 and only the gestational sac was detected. I really hope it was just too early. ❤️
Re: PGAL Check-in 10/10
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
With the twins I had zero symptoms,
except maybe peeing a lot.
Ive never had sore boobs as a pregnancy symptom, except from nursing/pumping. I wonder why that is. People always say it is their first symptom and I’m like, hmm never had it.
I feel like ive never had strong symptoms through any of my 4 pregnancies. My body likes to make up for the punishment through postpartum. 😆
2. Previous loss(es)? 1 MMC 7/18. I only got to 8w4d, but didn’t find out until 12w.
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Exhausted, a little nauseous, and having some very slight cramps. The cramps are absolutely freaking me out, though. I keep having to remind myself that that can happen very early on.
4. Any appointment updates? I haven’t scheduled any yet. I’m hoping to schedule an appointment at 9w so I can get past my first milestone at that appointment and I don’t have to have as much anxiety over the next four weeks. I’m sure I’ll still be anxious, though.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? None right now. Just excited to get the BFP.
6. Any milestones coming up?
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? Definitely tacos. Not a sushi person at all.
2. Previous loss(es)? none
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? emotionally, excited and nervous. I want to share the news with everyone, but also scared of the unknown.
4. Any appointment updates? I have my first appointment on 11/7
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? is it normal to have slight cramps every day? The last few days I've had mild cramps and tender breasts.
6. Any milestones coming up? anticipating morning sickness? haha
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? tacos, for sure!
BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
Baby girl born 6/19/19
TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
IVF with PGT:
Standard Antagonist:
ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
Duostim (Standard Antagonist):
ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
ER #6 10/9/2021 9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
FET #1 11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
Baby boy born 7/19/22
TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
FET #3 planned Jan 2024
DH and I were going to therapy together for a while and it helped. We learned we grieve soo differently. And the best thing they got through to him about was that he needed to ask often (every week) how I was doing and let me talk about my grief.
Men seem to get over things so much more quickly. Or at least they just don’t show it. Therapy made DH realize I need everything acknowledged still. Especially with subsequent pregnancies. Maybe you could bring yours along and he could see it from a different perspective about why your anxiety will always be there. And that it has nothing to do with “being positive.”
2. Previous loss(es)? MC June 2016; MMC October 2016
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I'm really nervous about losing this baby. I had a successful pregnancy but still remember our losses. They are seared into my heart and memory. I've had some spotting but remind myself that it can happen in the first trimester. I feel awful. I had to start Bonjesta because I was having trouble keeping water and food down. I'm still nauseous with it, I can just keep more down. I'm so exhausted.
4. Any appointment updates? October 23rd US, I'm holding my breath
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Nothing currently
6. Any milestones coming up? This month it has been two years since our MMC.
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? Tacos
@TJtheGoat yes! To him it's a "new start" and that means everything is okay (until its not).
@meatballs37 I don't know that I'm ready to share that space with him yet. I do feel like it will come to that, eventually.
This is about the only reassurance that's helping me right now :
These 2 will not get away from me. The mostly black one is constantly by my side and usually laying with her upper body and paws stretched across my belly. She acted just like that during my pregnancy with DS. The other one only acted like this after my D&C so I feel like he's picking up my need for comfort.
And I hope your US eases your mind today! I’m gonna be refreshing a ton today!
@prpl11butterfly Good luck today!!
1. How many weeks are you? 3+4
2. Previous loss(es)? 3
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Emotionally, I'm a bundle of nerves and stress! I just want to blank out for the next couple of months to get into the next trimester. Physically, I'm just tired at this point.
4. Any appointment updates? My fertility clinic doesn't have my betas scheduled until the 22nd, but I left them a message today asking them to move it up. I really need to have everything confirmed with a blood test to ease my mind just a little bit. POAS (or two) every morning is going to get expensive
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I got a positive on a digital, so that made my day! I'm with a couple of other ladies...my DH is hopelessly optimistic and thinks that this one will stick...much like he thought the last three would stick.
6. Any milestones coming up? Nope
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life? I'm not a fan of either, but I'd take tacos if I could tailor them to my liking!
So many fingers crossed for you today!
BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
Baby girl born 6/19/19
TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
IVF with PGT:
Standard Antagonist:
ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
Duostim (Standard Antagonist):
ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
ER #6 10/9/2021 9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
FET #1 11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
Baby boy born 7/19/22
TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
FET #3 planned Jan 2024
@prpl11butterfly I would lose my s*t if DH said something like that! As others said, I don’t think they can possibly understand the same as we do, but it sure would be nice to feel like they are trying!!! That being said...today is going to be a great day for US, I have one too and hopefully we both have happy news to share!!
1. How many weeks are you?
~ 6 1/2 weeks
2. Previous loss(es)?
Two, 7/16 and 8/17
3. How are you feeling?
A lot of nerves with the US this afternoon, but going to acupuncture beforehand which will hopefully be calming.
4. Any appointment updates?
US this afternoon 🤞
5. Rants/Raves/Questions?
I loved having a conference this past week it kept my mind off of things. If I wasn’t participating in the sessions, networking, etc all I wanted to do was sleep.
6. Any milestones coming up?
Baby steps along the way, just want to get past today.
7. GTKY: would you rather have unlimited tacos or sushi for the rest of your life?
Hands down sushi.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
@eleven_ based on LMP, 5+4. Based on O 5+2 (which is likely more accurate).
The tech expressed immediately that it would be very unlikely to see much of anything this early. Before she even turned on the machine. So I knew. I googled before hand so I knew. But, we all always want to be that SS and hope is a bitch so, here I am trying to talk common sense into my PGAL brain....
ETA that DH realized his error and smartly brought home KFC for dinner. It was delish and awesome to not have to cook.