I don't know if I'll be around here long, but I had my 8th positive test this morning. You can see my extensive history in my signature, but the short story is I'm 40, I have a 2 year old daughter and I've had 3 missed miscarriages and 3 chemical pregnancies. AF isn't due until Thursday, so this could still be a chemical. The only reason I tested was to confirm that I could go get an MMR vaccine today. (I guess I can't.)
I was supposed to be preventing this month. My RE wants more blood tests done and then we would discuss treatment options after that. He specifically told me not to get pregnant because I could end up having another MMC which makes me lose about 6 months each time. I avoided my usual TTC days (CD10-14) and had sex on CD9 and CD16. I'm guessing CD9 did the trick.
I don't know how I feel about it. Part of me is upset for potentially losing 6 valuable months, part of me thinks it will just be a CP, part of me thinks positive tests mean absolutely nothing anymore, but that tiny stupid part is still looking up my due date, etc. The rest of the parts of me want to slap that part.
Anyway, like I said, I may not be here long. I just needed to say this somewhere. I haven't told my husband. I didn't tell him about the last pregnancy until I had a successful u/s at 7.5 weeks. Sharing this news feels like crying wolf after a while.
Congratulations to everyone who is past the tricky first trimester. And also to those who are struggling through it. I wish you all happy ultrasounds.
TTC#1 since Jan 2015 BFP 2/19/15 • MMC found at 9 wks • D&E at 11 wks (age 36) BFP 8/29/15 • CP (age 37)
BFP 11/18/15 • DD born at 41 weeks (age 37/38)
TTC#2 since May 2017 BFP 10/18/17 • MMC found at 8 wks • Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39) BFP 2/16/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 4/13/18 • CP (age 39) BFP 5/07/18 • MMC found at 10.5 wks • D&E at 11.5 wks • Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40) 9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied) RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy. BFP 9/24/18 • CP (age 40)
BFP 5/11/19 • Fraternal twins • MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w) • Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)