Thought I would introduce myself, I will probably be here for a while. I had my 12 week scan on Friday and the baby only measures 8 weeks. This isn't my first rodeo, I had a mmc late last year I should have been 9 weeks but was measuring 6w4d, I tried medical management then but ended up having a d&e. As nothing aside from spotting (which I have had for 2 weeks) seems to be happening I will probably go the same route as surgery doesn't appeal especially for a second time. I feel a bit numb, I have been crying but actually feel like it isn't happening yet. When I do think about it i feel yet again like a failure and a coffin.
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022