Test results today

ah80

I have an appointment in less than 2 hours for follow up with the RE.  I had two non-day 3 FSH come back at post-menopausal levels and  I'm getting the day 3 labs / AMH results today.  I'm trying to stay positive, but based on the RE's predictions I'm expecting the worst.

Ever since I found out there are likely issues, I've been looking on message boards like this. Some posts are from years and years ago. I wonder how their stories ended up. I wonder how mine will turn out.  Part of me wishes I could fast forward this part of my life to know that things will be OK - to not be able to envision my life in any other way than it had turned out.   To not have any regrets or wonder what if.  I have barely started this journey and I don't know if I'm strong enough.

embryoman

@ah80 My only advice is to take things one at a time and try not to worry too much. IVF is an amazing thing and it can turn people's lives around! For some it happens quickly, for others it doesn't and for many in the end it DOES work. Persistence is key!

How did things go with the RE?

ah80

Not great. My AMH is very low (.03) and my FSH is 12.14.  The RE said my best chance at pregnancy is to use donor eggs.  We are going to do an IVF cycle hopefully to get some of my eggs in October, though the RE said it would likely not be successful, citing chances in the single digits at best.  It's so expensive and I'm wondering if it's worth it when the emotional/financial investment is so high with the likelihood of success being so low. I think there is no other choice but to try even if it's only a small chance.  I'm already hating myself for not starting this sooner and I don't want to look back on this and wonder what would have happened if we tried.  This experience is making me realize what is truly important and I'm reevaluating a lot of things in my life right now.  Things I thought mattered, really don't.  I'm working to de-stress my life. I'm trying to find peace and focus on what I actually have control over.  I do feel better knowing that we have a plan.