I have had a rough couple of weeks. We went to my 6 week u/s appointment with our RE and found an empty sac. RE told us that he was pretty positive it was a blighted ovum, but I should come in a week to make sure. I came back at 7 weeks and sac now had a yolk sac and fetal pole. HB was only 40 and they told us it wasn’t looking good for LO, but not to give up hope. Last Friday we had another u/s and HB was gone. Now I need to decide between a natural m/c or D&C. I have gone back and forth all week and am still not really sure what I want to do. The RE suggested I come back in for one more u/s this week before I make a decision.
This is our third loss. My spirit feels pretty broken at the moment. I’m still trying to work through all these emotions. All I know is that I’m not emotionally ready to try again right away.
Re: Intro
Married: 2016
BFP #1 4/23/18, blighted ovum 5/29/18
BFP#2 7/14/18, DS 4/5/19
Only you can decide what is right between mc'ing naturally and D&C. The downsides I see with mc'ing naturally are that you won't know when the bleeding and cramping will be bad (and it can be pretty painful), there is a chance of retained tissue, plus you will not probably not be able to do testing on the embryo. The downside of a D&C is that with any surgery there is risk and it can be expensive depending on how your insurance covers it.
I have had two D&C's, both with the idea of testing the embryo to find a reason for the loss. The first one was a blighted ovum and there wasn't enough to amplify the DNA, so we got no answers. That was really hard on me. However, I am now very glad that we did do the D&C on this fourth loss because we finally got some kind of answer and it has given me a surprising amount of peace to know that the baby whose heartbeat we saw had T22. We also learned the sex, and just knowing that little bit of information is so precious to me.
Genetic abnormalities account for about 70% of all miscarriages, as high as 80% for those of us over 35. Even knowing that all along I worried that it was some other problem, like my immune system, and now knowing this last one really was due to a genetic issue we could not have prevented has made me more confident to move forward with our next steps.
It is very understandable to not be ready to move forward or know if you want to try again right now. If there is any chance you might in the future, you might consider asking to do the testing. Admittedly it might not give an answer, or you might not like the answer, and only you know whether it would be healing for you to know, but my experience has been that I am very glad that I do know.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
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BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@olivemomma Please intro here and stick around. I was so sad when you had to leave January. It would be so nice to post with you again
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN