TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Let's pretend I didn't post this... But really, beware of the threads you open.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Is that a first? Pretty sure I've never seen that anywhere on these boards before! I am SO glad I was busy and didn't log on until after the thread was closed and the picture removed.
And who doesn't know that that even if something actually is IB, it looks the same as any other spotting? It's not like your blood magically changes color or something whether it's period, IB or anything else.
@lovesclimbing , Not true. IB turns neon green. That's why the questions are so dumb. Haha. But no, we have had it before, but typically they get closed faster. Even completely deleted.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Honestly, I’m new to this app and the responses to newbies’ questions are quite harsh at times. I am not one to EVER post anything bodily-function related, but there are plenty of other pregnancy apps out there where this is the norm. It’s quite possible that these other newbies are operating under the assumption that a standard has been set for all these type apps. *Not everyone reads the rules.*
I, for one, AM a rule reader and I’m STILL confused as to what thread I can mention I have children, or which thread I risk having my head bitten off for sharing that I ‘selfishly’ want another child even though I ‘greedily’ already have a toddler. Honestly, many of the responses I’ve seen the last few days of joining the app do seem overly rude and bitter to the OPs who post the rule-breaking questions. Perhaps the majority of the group is just over it, but the responses I’ve seen don’t give a warm feeling of gushing support and empowerment. They often come across as bullying & therefore make me highly cautious about posting anything at all. I have a very thick skin & it still makes me pause before posting, or wondering how someone might twist my post into something else entirely.
And last—we are all either mothers or preparing to become mothers. The sight of blood or any other bodily function may not be the most pleasant thing ever— but is it really that bad? Just par for the motherhood course we all are on if you think about it...
Honestly, I’m new to this app and the responses to newbies’ questions are quite harsh at times. I am not one to EVER post anything bodily-function related, but there are plenty of other pregnancy apps out there where this is the norm. It’s quite possible that these other newbies are operating under the assumption that a standard has been set for all these type apps. *Not everyone reads the rules.*
I, for one, AM a rule reader and I’m STILL confused as to what thread I can mention I have children, or which thread I risk having my head bitten off for sharing that I ‘selfishly’ want another child even though I ‘greedily’ already have a toddler. Honestly, many of the responses I’ve seen the last few days of joining the app do seem overly rude and bitter to the OPs who post the rule-breaking questions. Perhaps the majority of the group is just over it, but the responses I’ve seen don’t give a warm feeling of gushing support and empowerment. They often come across as bullying & therefore make me highly cautious about posting anything at all. I have a very thick skin & it still makes me pause before posting, or wondering how someone might twist my post into something else entirely.
And last—we are all either mothers or preparing to become mothers. The sight of blood or any other bodily function may not be the most pleasant thing ever— but is it really that bad? Just par for the motherhood course we all are on if you think about it...
If if you don’t like how we play, then go find another sandbox. The answer to all your concerns is to lurk. Read without posting, learn the acronymns, understand the culture.
We jump on driveby’s because they don’t want to join our community, they want us to be google. Some driveby’s have gone on to apologize for their mistake and join in on our dailies (which is the correct response).
There is tons of support in our community, but you have to give support to receive support. It shouldn’t just be expected because we all want to be mothers and any support that’s given in that situation isn’t genuine.
And I also refuse to encourage someone that thinks posting their toilet paper on the internet is appropriate, no matter how many times I’ve looked at my own.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
And last—we are all either mothers or preparing to become mothers. The sight of blood or any other bodily function may not be the most pleasant thing ever— but is it really that bad? Just par for the motherhood course we all are on if you think about it...
I'm a mom to a SK, aunt to a dozen other kids, sister to 4 brothers, was a CNA for 8 years, and I'm now a nurse. Oh, and I babysat throughout middle/high school and college.
That does not in any way shape or form mean I want to see someone's vagina blood that they decided to share online.
Random person's vagina blood =/= bloody knees, period talks, sexual health discussions, and vomit.
Last I knew I wouldn't be looking at a random person's vagina blood as a result of being a parent.
Look, chick, just because you can't seem to figure out what you are allowed to do and not do, doesn't mean we still won't hold you-and everyone else- to the standard. Negligence is not an excuse. If you can't figure it out, or if TP girl can't, lurk longer. Why do we have to be the ones to be gracious and understanding? Eff that. I've been TTC for 49 damn cycles. I've miscarried 5 times. I'm pretty sure I am damn ready to be a mother. Just because I don't want to see someone else's dirty TP, doesn't mean I wouldn't be well-equipped to be a good mom. To even allude to that lie is just plain ugly. Step off your high horse.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Also, I find that this board, while harsh in its responses, chills out pretty immediately if someone goes ‘Oh, I see what the mistake was. Sorry, my bad.’
@keikilove And yes, you should be trying to figure out which threads allow you to talk about existing kids. Frankly, for people who are struggling to have their first, they are fighting a different and dare I say worse fight than trying to have a second (or third etc.) and you *should* make the effort to be sensitive to that. Maybe your family feels incomplete and that is upsetting to you, but theirs is lacking even the one child that you clearly treasure. They have to listen to people IRL talk about (and complain about) their kids- let them have their space because I promise you they are burnt out on hearing it.
I should have a 16mo old and/or be 4 months pregnant now but I don’t and I’m not. Instead I’m recovering from my second surgery. I don’t feel up to looking at some fly-by tp and hear them lament to me about how *hard* this is for them when they don’t care what I or other women on this board have been through in the slightest.
keikilove A good rule is, if you can't figure out when to or NOT to mention live children, the answer should always be to NOT mention them. Always good to err on the safe side of these things.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
@lin0442 I completely understand your point and am sorry for your challenges. What no one here is aware of is the depth of anyone else’s story. I myself was unable to get pregnant for 17 years. Finally got a very bad sickness that knocked me on my behind and made me unable to work for months, I was glued to my couch, couldn’t walk, couldn’t think straight. Turns out it was a long-standing illness that had gone undiagnosed throughout adulthood. After six months of treatment that made me sick like chemo, I was finally better and the biggest miracle: I was able to conceive.
My point is that we really don’t know what anyone is going through. What is called a Drive-by could be someone who’s lurked for months—or not—and is finally ready to interact w the group. There are tons of rules here. Sometimes when introducing oneself you can mention your family, sometimes you can’t, amongst tons of other rules. Even after the rule-breaker apologizes for their mistake they are ridiculed, just like this secondary post about that offending picture. I am surprised by the harshness and group mentality of a place that is supposed to be welcoming to all on the journey. I’ve been a part of other groups online and never seen anything like this.
Someone told me to find my own sandbox & another said to get off my high horse. “You can’t sit with us.” “You don’t belong because you don’t think like us.” I’m just pointing out my observations as a newbie who has joined other apps before & not seen these types of “Ooooh, there’s a rule breaker?! Let me add my wicked comment or mean girl meme to teach her a lesson!” I have been disapponted by the bad behavior. I would encourage us to be better & move away from such an unwelcoming gang mentality.
@lin0442 I completely understand your point and am sorry for your challenges. What no one here is aware of is the depth of anyone else’s story. I myself was unable to get pregnant for 17 years. Finally got a very bad sickness that knocked me on my behind and made me unable to work for months, I was glued to my couch, couldn’t walk, couldn’t think straight. Turns out it was a long-standing illness that had gone undiagnosed throughout adulthood. After six months of treatment that made me sick like chemo, I was finally better and the biggest miracle: I was able to conceive.
My point is that we really don’t know what anyone is going through. What is called a Drive-by could be someone who’s lurked for months—or not—and is finally ready to interact w the group. There are tons of rules here. Sometimes when introducing oneself you can mention your family, sometimes you can’t, amongst tons of other rules. Even after the rule-breaker apologizes for their mistake they are ridiculed, just like this secondary post about that offending picture. I am surprised by the harshness and group mentality of a place that is supposed to be welcoming to all on the journey. I’ve been a part of other groups online and never seen anything like this.
Someone told me to find my own sandbox & another said to get off my high horse. “You can’t sit with us.” “You don’t belong because you don’t think like us.” I’m just pointing out my observations as a newbie who has joined other apps before & not seen these types of “Ooooh, there’s a rule breaker?! Let me add my wicked comment or mean girl meme to teach her a lesson!” I have been disapponted by the bad behavior. I would encourage us to be better & move away from such an unwelcoming gang mentality.
QFP
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
@keikilove could we be nicer? Sure, but I also think you are reading malicious intent into some things.
For example, I said “find another sandbox” meaning, there are many other TTC forums and this one happens to be science based and a bit snarky. If you don’t like to get a little snarky when someone posts pictures of their used toilet paper, ask us if they’re pregnant instead of getting a pregnancy test, or wave around an obviously positive pregnancy test then maybe this message board is not for you. No malice, not “get your own sandbox” but maybe this isn’t a good fit.
And as for a group mentality, yes this is a community and when someone comes in and flouts the rules, we are going to enforce them and our way of doing that is the be sarcastic and snarky. TP OP could have googled “implantation bleeding pics” during the 3 days she waited to be able to post but she (ironically) probably didn’t want to look at them. Alternatively, she could have lurked and read the rules in those 3 days and she probably would have rethought her post.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
@keikilove if you're wanting to see more kindness on the board, be the kindness on the board. It takes two seconds to post something kind and supportive to a drive by if thats the vibe you wanna give. I for one have been on this board for 3 years so I no longer have the patience for being treated like google, but if you do, more power to you. No one is stopping you from being kind to drive bys.
Me: 31 Husby: 36 Married May 2014 TTC # 2 Since December 2021 Baby girl W born 2/2021 Our journey so far... (tw loss & infertility)
Diagnosis: Poor Egg Quality Working with an RE since March 2016 2 failed TI cycles 3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017 23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17 BFP 4.21.17 MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey: 12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted! 5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house! 1.1.20 Homestudy process started 3.14.20 First social worker visit 5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test! Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
@keikilove I think you missed several points that the ladies were trying to make. One specifically is that we are in fact a community and in being one, we do know each others stories. We are invested in each others journeys and have spent the time to do so. And in doing that, we are protective of our friends from the AW posts that could be potentially hurtful. Will also dish out some snark to those that come in and break the rules, that we ourselves, have taken the time to learn. TP OP (I think that should stick @meggyme) clearly did none of these things. And yes, we may be #bitterhagsofthebump but sometimes its the snark that gets us through this very trying journey that we are on, together!
I think the point you are missing, @keikilove , is that this forum is what we make it. We, the people that actively participate, have made it into a place we enjoy. We enjoy community. There are others things we like, but hands down, our number one goal is community. When people like TPOP come in and treat us like google, without giving two shits about us, that's not community. If we allowed her and others to post things like that, our community would disappear, drowning in random one-offs. We THRIVE on helping and loving each other.
I agree we never know what someone is going through. But that goes both ways. I understand your hurt and frustration. But at the end of the day, my hurt and frustration matters too. We ALL have issues like that. Pain doesn't exempt you from the rules. We all have to abide by them. Period.
So again, step of your high horse. I am not saying that to be all "you can't sit with us." I don't care where you sit, but if you sit with us, follow the rules. You aren't above the rules, no matter what kind of pain and suffering you have been through.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@keikilove I'm relatively new here and I felt intimidated at first. However, by doing my best to follow the rules and participating in the threads, I'm already starting to feel like a part of the community I hope you'll stick around and get to know everyone here!
@Swiftlet , #NewbieGoals If only they were all like you.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Re: Oooops
But really, beware of the threads you open.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Is that a first? Pretty sure I've never seen that anywhere on these boards before! I am SO glad I was busy and didn't log on until after the thread was closed and the picture removed.
And who doesn't know that that even if something actually is IB, it looks the same as any other spotting? It's not like your blood magically changes color or something whether it's period, IB or anything else.
Haha. But no, we have had it before, but typically they get closed faster. Even completely deleted.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
I, for one, AM a rule reader and I’m STILL confused as to what thread I can mention I have children, or which thread I risk having my head bitten off for sharing that I ‘selfishly’ want another child even though I ‘greedily’ already have a toddler. Honestly, many of the responses I’ve seen the last few days of joining the app do seem overly rude and bitter to the OPs who post the rule-breaking questions. Perhaps the majority of the group is just over it, but the responses I’ve seen don’t give a warm feeling of gushing support and empowerment. They often come across as bullying & therefore make me highly cautious about posting anything at all. I have a very thick skin & it still makes me pause before posting, or wondering how someone might twist my post into something else entirely.
And last—we are all either mothers or preparing to become mothers. The sight of blood or any other bodily function may not be the most pleasant thing ever— but is it really that bad? Just par for the motherhood course we all are on if you think about it...
If if you don’t like how we play, then go find another sandbox. The answer to all your concerns is to lurk. Read without posting, learn the acronymns, understand the culture.
We jump on driveby’s because they don’t want to join our community, they want us to be google. Some driveby’s have gone on to apologize for their mistake and join in on our dailies (which is the correct response).
There is tons of support in our community, but you have to give support to receive support. It shouldn’t just be expected because we all want to be mothers and any support that’s given in that situation isn’t genuine.
And I also refuse to encourage someone that thinks posting their toilet paper on the internet is appropriate, no matter how many times I’ve looked at my own.
Did she really just try to WK the bloody toilet paper chick?
<img src="https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/60/8c5ie4j2srim.gif" alt="">
That does not in any way shape or form mean I want to see someone's vagina blood that they decided to share online.
Random person's vagina blood =/= bloody knees, period talks, sexual health discussions, and vomit.
Last I knew I wouldn't be looking at a random person's vagina blood as a result of being a parent.
Me: 30 | DH: 34 | DSS: 14 | DS: 4
PG #2, EDD 10/12/2023
Look, chick, just because you can't seem to figure out what you are allowed to do and not do, doesn't mean we still won't hold you-and everyone else- to the standard. Negligence is not an excuse. If you can't figure it out, or if TP girl can't, lurk longer. Why do we have to be the ones to be gracious and understanding? Eff that.
I've been TTC for 49 damn cycles. I've miscarried 5 times.
I'm pretty sure I am damn ready to be a mother. Just because I don't want to see someone else's dirty TP, doesn't mean I wouldn't be well-equipped to be a good mom. To even allude to that lie is just plain ugly.
Step off your high horse.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@KristoKekerooni, girl, love you!
Married: 2016
BFP #1 4/23/18, blighted ovum 5/29/18
BFP#2 7/14/18, DS 4/5/19
Also, I find that this board, while harsh in its responses, chills out pretty immediately if someone goes ‘Oh, I see what the mistake was. Sorry, my bad.’
@keikilove And yes, you should be trying to figure out which threads allow you to talk about existing kids. Frankly, for people who are struggling to have their first, they are fighting a different and dare I say worse fight than trying to have a second (or third etc.) and you *should* make the effort to be sensitive to that. Maybe your family feels incomplete and that is upsetting to you, but theirs is lacking even the one child that you clearly treasure. They have to listen to people IRL talk about (and complain about) their kids- let them have their space because I promise you they are burnt out on hearing it.
I should have a 16mo old and/or be 4 months pregnant now but I don’t and I’m not. Instead I’m recovering from my second surgery. I don’t feel up to looking at some fly-by tp and hear them lament to me about how *hard* this is for them when they don’t care what I or other women on this board have been through in the slightest.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
My point is that we really don’t know what anyone is going through. What is called a Drive-by could be someone who’s lurked for months—or not—and is finally ready to interact w the group. There are tons of rules here. Sometimes when introducing oneself you can mention your family, sometimes you can’t, amongst tons of other rules. Even after the rule-breaker apologizes for their mistake they are ridiculed, just like this secondary post about that offending picture. I am surprised by the harshness and group mentality of a place that is supposed to be welcoming to all on the journey. I’ve been a part of other groups online and never seen anything like this.
Someone told me to find my own sandbox & another said to get off my high horse. “You can’t sit with us.” “You don’t belong because you don’t think like us.” I’m just pointing out my observations as a newbie who has joined other apps before & not seen these types of “Ooooh, there’s a rule breaker?! Let me add my wicked comment or mean girl meme to teach her a lesson!” I have been disapponted by the bad behavior. I would encourage us to be better & move away from such an unwelcoming gang mentality.
For example, I said “find another sandbox” meaning, there are many other TTC forums and this one happens to be science based and a bit snarky. If you don’t like to get a little snarky when someone posts pictures of their used toilet paper, ask us if they’re pregnant instead of getting a pregnancy test, or wave around an obviously positive pregnancy test then maybe this message board is not for you. No malice, not “get your own sandbox” but maybe this isn’t a good fit.
And as for a group mentality, yes this is a community and when someone comes in and flouts the rules, we are going to enforce them and our way of doing that is the be sarcastic and snarky. TP OP could have googled “implantation bleeding pics” during the 3 days she waited to be able to post but she (ironically) probably didn’t want to look at them. Alternatively, she could have lurked and read the rules in those 3 days and she probably would have rethought her post.
Married May 2014
TTC # 2 Since December 2021
Baby girl W born 2/2021
Our journey so far...
(tw loss & infertility)
Working with an RE since March 2016
2 failed TI cycles
3 failed IUI cycles
IVF Feb - April 2017
23 eggs collected, 20 mature, 14 fertilized with ICSI, 4 day 3 blasts, 3 day 5 blasts, 1 PGS normal
Transferred 1 PGS normal embryo 4.12.17
BFP 4.21.17
MMC due to small gestational sac 6.8.17
Our adoption journey:
12.25.18 Agency picked and apps submitted!
5.1.19 Adoption on hold so we can buy a house!
1.1.20 Homestudy process started
3.14.20 First social worker visit
5.25.20 Homestudy Approved & Submitted to Agency
6.1.20 Surprise! Positive pregnancy test!
Healthy baby girl born 2/10/2021
And yes, we may be #bitterhagsofthebump but sometimes its the snark that gets us through this very trying journey that we are on, together!
I agree we never know what someone is going through. But that goes both ways. I understand your hurt and frustration. But at the end of the day, my hurt and frustration matters too. We ALL have issues like that. Pain doesn't exempt you from the rules. We all have to abide by them. Period.
So again, step of your high horse. I am not saying that to be all "you can't sit with us." I don't care where you sit, but if you sit with us, follow the rules. You aren't above the rules, no matter what kind of pain and suffering you have been through.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019