PGAL Check In ~ 5/16 - 5/23

dubcompanion

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?

3. Any appointment updates?

4. Rants/Raves/Questions?

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?

missamiissssaa

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
3w6d per my app, poppy seed!

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
Mentally, just trying not to take this day by day, physically exhausted.

3. Any appointment updates?
First ob appointment on june 12th

4. Rants/Raves/Questions?
This irritability is for the birds, i feel so bad for my husband and daughters, ugh.

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
hmm.. i honestly don't know. I've always been drawn towards India, maybe one day

furmama1986

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? 4 weeks 5 days... from app

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? mentally exhausted.  I feel fine physically.... and I felt fine last time when I had the mmc.  Therefore my PGAL brain tells me this will be the same.  I'm having major anxiety thinking of our upcoming appointment...

3. Any appointment updates?  first appointment is Tuesday the 29 of May...6 weeks and a couple days.   They are doing a ultrasound.   I've done betas and the doc was happy with my levels so they said no more are needed

4. Rants/Raves/Questions?

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?  I've always wanted to go to England.   ...i love my beach vacations... but that is one place I'd love to tour

dubcompanion

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? 
7+0, a blueberry

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
Mentally, just mainly tired because fatigue gets to me the most 1st tri. Physically, also fatigued. My other symptoms are generally mild. If it weren't for the telltale sore nipples and queasiness, it's basically like having never-ending PMS. (Which kind of sucks for DH because I am touch-y.

3. Any appointment updates? First appointment is May 30.

4. Rants/Raves/Questions? @missamiissssaa The irritability is awful over here too. Sometimes I hear myself complain or bitch and even want to tell myself to get a grip and chill out!

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why? I'd really like to visit New Zealand. Different family members of mine have visited there within the past couple years, and I'm absolutely green with envy! Alas, DH and I have chosen starting a family over saving money to travel. We'll definitely make plans to visit NZ one day, but for now I sit at my computer, in middle-of-nowhere USA, fervently wishing to be on the other side of the world touring Hobbiton.

baileym9126

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
6+1. Sweet Pea. 

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
Tired, sore breasts, and nauseous off and on. Nothing too unbearable, though. I’m still really nervous and not letting myself get too excited or attached until my ultrasound when I can see that baby is where its supposed to be and measuring on track.

3. Any appointment updates?
I have my first ultrasound on May 22. 

4. Rants/Raves/Questions?
I’ve been in a surprisingly good mood lately, other than being a nervous wreck half the time. Before I got pregnant I seemed to always be bitter and angry (infertility sucks when all your friends are getting pregnant so easily). My DH is enjoying the change for sure.

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
I’d love to go to Scotland or Ireland. No particular reason why, I’ve just always wanted to. I’m from Canada, and the furthest I’ve been away from home is Alaska.

zamoraspin

@furmama1986  I have had the same worry that I don’t have enough symptoms. All I can say is I’ve had super high hCG and we saw a HB yesterday which is the first time in four pregnancies that has happened. So, idk, maybe just different people react differently to hormones. Plus I’m always hearing MS often doesn’t kick in until 8w or so.
@kariann323 and @dragonette505 Good luck today!

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
Argh, I don’t even know anymore, 6w3d going by the u/s we had yesterday. 

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
Physically fine - vivid dreams, big boobs that are very sore when I first wake up. No nausea. I’m doing pretty well mentally but I know I will be anxious again leading up to our next appt.

3. Any appointment updates? 
We had our first u/s yesterday and saw and heard the beautiful HB. Everything seemed to be developing well but I was a few days behind where I should be both by ovulation and LMP. My RE was not concerned and I’ve heard it’s not unusual so trying not to worry. We go back next Thursday for another u/s.

4. Rants/Raves/Questions? We are traveling to go to a graduation and the lady in the seat in front of us asked if she could give me a note and it was a note saying congratulations on the pregnancy, you’ll be great parents. She had heard us talking so sweet!

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?  I’d love to go to go anywhere honestly but my top places would be India, Greece, Japan, and Ireland. They are just places I’ve always been curious to see. Honestly anywhere I go with DH we have a good time.

sparkymcgeee

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
Either 5+4 or 6. 
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
I'm feeling a bit more optimistic the last few days. I want to believe this is my miracle baby.
3. Any appointment updates?
I go for another beta draw today. Then when I can shove the good number in their faces I will make an appointment for next week.
4. Rants/Raves/Questions?
Can someone please come clean my house? I really don't have the energy and DH has been under the weather. I need a deep clean done and I.just.can't.
5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
So many places. I would love to travel everywhere. First thoughts were Great Britain and Ireland. Like all of the British Isles really. Paris, Rome, Greece, Moscow, South Africa, Thailand, Australia, Peru, Costa Rica, Finland, Japan, Alaska. I want to travel everywhere.

oaklandava

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? I don't know. Somewhere between 4-5 weeks.

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? Terrified. Terrified we're going to lose this nugget. I won't let myself feel excited until all is good. I don't really feel pregnant, which is also scaring me. With the other two, I knew from the get go.
 
3. Any appointment updates? New patient and intake appointment today. They should tell me when to come back for us.

4. Rants/Raves/Questions? Not sure if it's bad, but I never got my period between the loss and this pregnancy. I know it's not a leftover positive, because when I didn't get my period in 5 weeks, I started testing 1x a week until I either got my period, or got a positive. It was negative on 5/6, and positive on 5/12. I dunno. Just nervous and scared.

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why? Probably to Ireland. I really want to go do a European tour and see the major cities across that continent.

sparkymcgeee

@oaklandava My very healthy and happy 7 year old daughter was conceived two weeks after I had my first miscarriage. Obviously that's not what you plan but that doesn't mean it's bad. 

sparkymcgeee

I had my redraw and it went up to 2064! 167 to 2064 in 6 days is awesome! I can't contain how happy I am with that number. I was hoping for over 1k but this is so so good.

BitterBetty12

@sparkymcgeee oh man I am SOOO happy to hear that! That’s an amazing jump!! So did you get to schedule your appointment? My 5+4 draw was around that number too!

BitterBetty12

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? EDIT: 6+6 (had it wrong before).

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? Physically my biggest symptom is exhaustion. I’m soooo done after work each day. I let my DD basically play fetch with hersel in the kitchen yesterday with a plastic phone. I would watch her and she would come get me when it got stuck. I’m also bloated, breaking out, super thirsty, and constipated. My nausea is weird. I have at least a few gagging moments each day but overall nausea has been pretty light. 

3. Any appointment updates? SAW THE BABY AND A STRONG HB! I had my follow up ultrasound Tuesday and LO measured 6+0 with a HB of 128. I’m not thrilled I was measuring 4 days behind given that I had bad numbers last week, but that heartbeat was amazing. Plus my OB did it and wasn’t trying hard to get a good angle. I go back next Wednesday. 

4. Rants/Raves/Questions? I HATE that I’m having another pregnancy with weird numbers. My OB told me during the scan Tuesday that what she saw was ‘much better than I anticipated’. I kind of convinced myself that a 60 hour doubling time for HCG from 2.2k to 3.6k wasn’t that bad. But I mean. She’s the doctor and clearly sees people’s actual numbers all the time and I don’t. So it made me kind of sad that she really thought this was going downhill. I reminded her that DD went from 3500 at 5w0d to 4000 at 5w2d and yet there she was sitting in the room with us. So we’ll see. BUT with DD I never had such a low progesterone draw (but I was on crinone from 10dpo, but that really shouldn’t raise blood levels, so I just don’t know). So many mixed emotions. Too much to think about. 

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
Right now, New Zealand. And only because my H reallllly wants to go there and I know it would make him so happy. 

sparkymcgeee

BitterBetty12 said:

@sparkymcgeee oh man I am SOOO happy to hear that! That’s an amazing jump!! So did you get to schedule your appointment? My 5+4 draw was around that number too!

Yes! I have an U/S next Friday. I wanted it in the sixth week but closer to 7 in case my dates are off or I implanted later than I thought. I can survive a week. 

oaklandava

@sparkymcgeee  Thank you so much for that reassurance, I absolutely needed that. And congrats on your blood draw--that's an awesome number!!!

KariAnn323

@zamora_spin I'm so glad that you had such a great ultrasound
@sparkymcgeee Congrats on the awesome beta!
@BitterBetty12 Yay for seeing baby!

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? 5+5, appleseed

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? Physically I'm pretty good. Definitely tired and bloated and so much burping. Mentally not so great. We had our first u/s yesterday and it was great (details below). I was hoping that would ease my mind since we've never seen a HB before and it did for a little bit. But now it's the next day and all I can think is what if next week's ultrasound is bad (seeing an RE so weekly u/s). I just want to be happy about this, but what can go wrong is always in the back of my mind.

3. Any appointment updates? First u/s yesterday. Measuring a day ahead. Tech warned us that because it was so early she was expecting to just see the gestational and yolk sacs, but she would still look for a fetal pole. Well we saw the sacs a fetal pole AND a heartbeat. HB was a little slow at 85 bpm but tech said she wasn't concerned because she expects it just started beating in the last day or so. Next u/s is next Thursday at 6+4.

4. Rants/Raves/Questions? Going out with a group of girlfriends tonight to see Thunder from Down Under, pretty excited about it.

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why? I know it's cheating, but everywhere! We just got back from the UK, but Spain, Romania, France, China, Japan, Brazil, New Zealand. I don't think I could just pick one place.

BitterBetty12

@KariAnn323 It's AMAZING that you were able to see a fetal pole and HB at 5+4! I would not be concerned about that HB at all considering it almost definitely just started! I know the anxiety of feeling good for a moment but then worrying that as soon as the moment is over things are bad again. I am sorry you are dealing with that! 

zamoraspin

@KariAnn323 That is so beautiful that the HB just started and you got to see it. I am the same - was so comforted to see that amazing HB and now just a few days later it’s hard to believe it will still be going when we look again next week. I don’t know whether or when that anxiety will end. I’m sorry we both have to deal with it.

ouiser_boudreaux

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
4w2, a poppyseed is what I think I read?

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
I stopped testing this weekend and I’m feeling like all the sign are looking good so far. I do have a mini freak out every time I get cramps though.

3. Any appointment updates?
US scheduled for 7w2

4. Rants/Raves/Questions?
I had so much nausea last time and I HATED it but in some ways I’m hoping I get some to prove it’s all real. But really though screw nausea. Also RANTS, my H likes the dumbest names. It’s like really man?

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
I’ve always thought it would be kinda romantic to go stay in a cottage in the Irish countryside and take it slow for a well or two.

Kabazaba

@furmama1986 Wed I was where you are now; today I’m saying be careful what you wish for. This nausea is no joke.

@zamora_spin I think it’s so sweet that lady passed you a note! That is the cutest.

@kariann323 How amazing you got that early heartbeat. Next week it will be going even stronger.

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? The size of an earring post.

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? Pretty bad MS today and yesterday, along with a cold - so mentally I’m feeling great, and physically like I’ve been hit by a truck. 

3. Any appointment updates? First u/s appointment next Friday!! It can’t get here soon enough

4. Rants/Raves/Questions? My brother and SIL heard from mom I had bad MS and sent me a little care package that got in last night - so thoughtful of them.

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why? Everywhere! Right now, Japan, Spain, and Iceland are on the top of my list.

sparkymcgeee

Today was my due date. I don't know how I'm feeling right now. 

galactickates

Shoot @sparkymcgeee, i'm sorry.  Next month is mine.  I always think about how I should have a nursery set up,  feeling my baby kick, delivering in a month. I think it helps knowing I'm pregnant now.  That my dream will still come true, it's just a bit delayed.  I am still sad for the LO that never came though.  I hope you are doing ok today

sparkymcgeee

galactickates said:

Shoot @sparkymcgeee, i'm sorry.  Next month is mine.  I always think about how I should have a nursery set up,  feeling my baby kick, delivering in a month. I think it helps knowing I'm pregnant now.  That my dream will still come true, it's just a bit delayed.  I am still sad for the LO that never came though.  I hope you are doing ok today

It definitely didn't hit me as hard as my December due date baby. I think because so far so good in this pregnancy and I was still in the depths of my grief in December but I miss that baby. I should be holding a newborn and I'm not. So I don't know how to process the current feelings I'm feeling. 

galactickates

@sparkymcgeee I think that's totally normal.  I think and believe you can feel multiple ways at once,  feelings shift minute to minute, or even feel nothing at all. 

Sometimes I take hpts to remind myself it's actually happening.  I've been so disconnected even with +hpts, and a Ultrasound. It doesn't matter.  My heart is so guarded I feel like I just can't bare to go through that pain again. I basically won't believe it until that baby leavesthe hospital that it's real. 

sparkymcgeee

@galactickates yeah. The fear is even when you are feeling the baby move and you are massive is that you will have a cord accident or something. So until I have the baby in my arms I never fully relax. I relax a little bit once I hit certain milestones but complete relaxation doesn't happen. 

oaklandava

Hey guys! They did a beta draw yesterday to get an idea how far I am since I didn't have a period between loss and pregnant. The number they got was 441. They believed that when I got a positive last Saturday I was around 4 weeks, so they thought that number was good. I am nervous because I know it can vary, but I am also happy with it as it appears strong. Any thoughts on if that's a normal range for a first draw? When I had my first pregnancy they didn't do them. With the loss they were bad, so I am curious as to good numbers?  Thanks guys

sparkymcgeee

@oaklandava That's an AMAZING number for 4 weeks. Like mine at 4 weeks was 25 - 167. Feel good about that. Seriously.

BitterBetty12

@sparkymcgeee All the hugs on the due date. Those days are so hard. And PGAL anxiety is incredibly unfair and persistent. I actually had a lot more anxiety in the third trimester with DD than the first trimester because I was so afraid of a late term loss and not actually bringing her home after all the time I’d spent carrying her and feeling her move and kick.

That being said, milestones do absolutely help! And I hope as time goes on you’re able to find more comfort than anxiety. 

tosh24

I'm so sorry @sparkymcgeee. Loss dates are so hard. Whatever you feel is completely OK. Grief can be complicated. @oaklandava Looks pretty good to me! For reference, my first beta at 4+1 was 201 and my second beta at 4+3 was 585. Numbers can vary so much though, but it looks like your first beta is a strong one!

baileym9126

@sparkymcgeee I’m sorry about about the due date and PGAL anxiety, I know they suck. I imagine the pregnancy hormones right now only make the whole thing more muddled. 
@oaklandava I agree that your numbers sound good. Mine were only 51 at 4 weeks and 127 at 4+2. Yours is a great number.

oaklandava

@sparkymcgeee  @tosh24 @baileym9126 Thanks guys! This beta land is kind of new to me. They did it with my loss but it was a negative thing so it didn't really matter--they didn't do it from the beginning. You guys have made me feel much better today.

Duckie678

*TW-A small back story, I had a blighted ovum and a d&c in January.-end TW

 I'm having a hard time believing I'm pregnant. I only have faint positives, and very little symptoms. I'm afraid I'm wanting to be pregnant so bad I'm making this all up in my mind. I can't go to my doctor for another couple weeks to confirm, and I feel like im going crazy. 

BitterBetty12

@Duckie678 Hang in there! PGAL is hard. And you still have time for symptoms to develop! Early pregnancy doesn’t typically have a lot. And even as time goes on they can ebb and flow. 

Duckie678

Thank you! I finally got a clear result this morning. My DH and I are very excited. 

zamoraspin

@Duckie678 Glad you are getting a a clearer result today. I have struggled with not “feeling” pregnant so far as well. We can only take it one day at a time. You are definitely in the right place to get support!

eleven_

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? 4 weeks today. Size of a water bear.

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? I'm feeling really good after getting my 2nd beta back. I have another beta on Tuesday. I feel really awesome physically which would freak me out if I hadn't already done this two times before and know that it's completely normal for symptoms to come and go.

3. Any appointment updates? I have a 6 week ultrasound in 2 weeks. 

4. Rants/Raves/Questions? No rants; I'm just so happy to be here. 

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why? I want to go to Iceland so bad! DH and I always talk about visiting Peru one day too. 

julesf817

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
6 weeks 3 days
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?

im all over the place. I’m still bleeding on and off because of the SCH. I don’t think I’ll be able to really relax until my next appointment. I feel completely detached from this pregnancy, probably a self preservation thing. It’s just like I’m waiting for the inevitable or something. 

3. Any appointment updates?

My next appointment is an ultrasound on the 29th to check on the SCH.


4. Rants/Raves/Questions?

dont really have any at this point.

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?

 Nepal. I love mountains and I desperately want to see the Himalayas. 

AmandaV88

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
Six weeks. I think the size of a sweet pea?

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
Physically ok. A few bouts of nausea but nothing too terrible. Mentally I'm a mess. Without going into all the details, I'm feeling really guilty about my miscarriage two months ago. Basically I had had two healthy pregnancies since the first miscarriage so I didn't ask for any bloodwork last time. This time around I did and my progesterone was borderline low and I can't stop feeling guilty that maybe I could have saved that one. 
3. Any appointment updates?
Nope. Waiting not so patiently for June 5th. 
4. Rants/Raves/Questions?
We got the girls two kittens this weekend and I love how excited and happy they are about it. 
5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
I want to go back to England and Scotland. I didn't get to explore Scotland very much the last time and the Outlander series has gotten me so interested in the history there! I spent a semester in England and would just love to go back for a visit. 

BitterBetty12

@AmandaV88 I'm sorry you're feeling guilty. PGAL brain is not kind. It's so hard not to think about the what-ifs but it's unlikely you could have done anything to prevent your loss. Try to be kind to yourself. I know it's easier said than done.

Duckie678

I agree with @BitterBetty12, @AmandaV88. Hugs if you want them. 

ladystout08

1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby?
Ha. According to TB 3w5d, according to my cycles and O date 4w. 

2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically?
Mentally, I haven't really even acknowledged it yet or let myself get excited. Physically lots of symptoms so that's sort of comforting in a weird way. 

3. Any appointment updates?
Second beta tomorrow. First was 28 on Friday so if it double twice like it should, we should be over 100 tomorrow.

4. Rants/Raves/Questions?
Nah.

5. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
Oh man, this is tough, so many places. Really I'd want to go somewhere off the grid in Thailand or Vietnam. 

sparkymcgeee

You know what suck? Miscarriage dreams. Miscarriage dreams combined with weird vivid dreams suck even more.