PGAL Check In w/o 3/14

offtoneverland

This is a check in for those of us who are experiencing pregnancy after a loss (miscarriage, chemical pregnancy, stillbirth, child loss, to name a few). Hopefully we can all lend support to each other through the hormone-filled craziness that is pregnancy! Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread. 

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 

4. Any appointment updates?

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 

offtoneverland

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 7w today! I passed all the milestones from my previous 3 CPs.

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Feeling a little better than last week, but it might be because I'm learning to eat smaller dinners and avoid things that make me feel sick in the evenings. I'm doing much better with vegetarian meals for some reason. I still get waves of nausea throughout the day, feel hungry all the time, and I've been really exhausted. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Actually feeling really good and optimistic today. After seeing the heartbeat on Monday, I'm really confident. 

4. Any appointment updates? I graduated from the RE to my OB. Called the OB this morning for an appointment and was surprised that they want to see me tomorrow! I thought I'd have to wait several weeks. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Rant: I got a cold so I'm home sick today. Rave: I've been watching the new Queer Eye on Netflix this morning and it's hysterical! 

6. GTKY: My all time favorite vacation was the Disney cruise we took with DD last fall. It was a 5-day cruise to Maine and Canada. We had been on Disney cruises before we had DD and loved them, but it was so much more fun getting to see her reaction to the ship, the entertainment, and all the characters. I also really enjoyed the cooler weather, as our previous cruises had been to the Caribbean and I much preferred the cool, fall weather in Canada. 

middleschoolmommy

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
5weeks 1 day, or so. This is when I had my CP 18 months ago. 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
Insomnia is no fun. Headaches and having to pee all the time, but no nausea yet! 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
I'm one of the world's most impatient people. I hate having to wait! I want to know things are okay and I have a healthy little one growing. 

4. Any appointment updates? I had hcg blood draw yesterday and I'm waiting for results. OB appointment tomorrow morning. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 
I'm currently on spring break... So I'm supposed to be relaxing, but I'm not. I'm reading everything I can get my hands on. 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
DH and I went on a carnival cruise for our 2nd anniversary and it was amazing. We hiked and claimed all over the Mayan ruins at Uxmal and the next day drank at a swim up bar in the Caribbean.

Side note: we actually booked a Christmas cruise for this year just a couple weeks ago...fingers crossed we will be having to cancel it

sarcaztic1016

Can I join in? We are hoping for rainbow #2 with this one.

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 4 weeks 4 days, my milestones are at 5 weeks, 7 weeks, and 11 weeks also confirming that this is not an ectopic. 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Heartburn, insomnia, and occasional nausea. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Feeling pretty anxious right now. My betas last week came in at 152 (13 DPO) and 332 (15 DPO) with a doubling time of 49 hours. I go back in tomorrow for a 3rd beta and I am feeling really nervous about it and hoping for a good number. 

4. Any appointment updates? 3rd beta result should come back on Friday and if it looks ok then they will get me in for an early ultrasound to confirm its not an ectopic. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Our HVAC unit crapped out a couple weeks ago. The weather was 70 degrees daily at the time so we figured we would weigh our options for a bit. The temp dropped back down to the mid 30's at night again and we have been freezing our butts off. They are finally putting in our new unit today so I am hoping to have heat tonight! 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! Best Vacation was to Charleston, SC, we have vacationed there twice and each time is so awesome. We lived there for 2.5 years but moved away and we both left a small piece of our hearts there. 

KristoKekerooni

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? I'm 4w6d. I haven't hit any milestones yet, but I hope I do! 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Not nearly as bad as I want to. I have some symptoms, breast pain, little bouts of MS, and crazy fatigue, but sometimes I wish I had more. Not that it means much, but still.

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Ugh. I am not doing good right now. H keeps asking me "can you accept it now??" after everything. First beta, then we it doubled, etc. And I'm like, no. Anxiety doesn't listen to logic, so now. It doesn't matter, I still just feel horrible anxious. Part of the issues is because we transferred two embryos, and with my betas being so low, I know that one of them almost definitely didn't make it. There is no way I have two with such low numbers. Not that I'm unhappy with my one. I am. If that one sticks around, obviously. But it's just hard to know that I already lost one. Probably. I dunno. I feel so dumb now that I typed it all out. Beggars can't be choosers and all that, right? But that embryo was mine too... Ugh. ANYWAY, no. Not good. I just want to cry all the time about everything. Can we please fast-forward? Not even to second tri. Just like, all the way? Gimme the baby in my arms. 

4. Any appointment updates? I have an appointment Monday for more labs (my TSH is outta wack, and to check beta and progesterone) and we also get an US Monday. It's still early, so no heartbeat or anything, but at least we can see if there really is something there. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): We are working on telling people this week. Only because we were very open about our IVF journey, so people will start asking soon. I would rather tell people on my terms than to be cornered when my anxiety is too high to discuss it. So, yeah, mostly just telling the people that knew about our journey. It's actually been really hard. I always imagined it as an exciting thing, but really it's super hard, because the anxiety is just outta this world. I haven't even been able to say the "p" word, so mostly I just say "it worked for now." And then people people use the P word and I want to cringe. It makes zero sense. 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 

I've been on a few great vacations, but I SO DESPERATELY want to stay in an over water bungalow. They look amazing and relaxing. 

sarcaztic1016

@KristoKekerooni I am right there with you and the anxiety! PGAL brain is out of control. I can only ever say that for right now everything looks promising. I can't accept that I am PG until I am farther along and even then I will probably always wait for something to happen. Its so hard (((hugs)))  

@middleschoolmommy I am having insomnia nightly and I am dragging every day. I hope you get to cancel your cruise! Keep us updated on your betas! 

@offtoneverland Yay for passing milestones and seeing a HB!!! I binge watched the new QE on Netflix a few weeks ago and loved it!

mockingjay1

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 5w3d, with my last loss we didn't see a heartbeat at 6w and a very low one with poor growth at 7w so if I see a good heartbeat next week I'll feel so much better

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Fine other than super bloated which makes me more anxious... I don't want to feel like crap, but symptoms are reassuring 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Not great. I am a huge ball of nerves and feel like I'm constantly snapping at DH who has been so supportive of me. I feel like I'm super negative, but I feel like it's a defense mechanism in case this is another loss. If it's another loss I feel like I'm not only grieving the loss of this baby, but we'll be moving onto IVF which will cost us at least $15-20k and this pregnancy will have put it off even more (it was planned for April-May).

4. Any appointment updates? Waiting for my u/s next Wednesday

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): We're potting training DS which is going well minus the fact he won't poop. Just hoping time flies until my appointment next week because I am driving myself crazy. 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! We haven't done any big extravagant vacations, but I loved Yellowstone! My dream vacation is an African safari! 

KristoKekerooni

@mockingjay1 , I hope so hard that this one sticks so you don't have to do IVF. 

thebobloblaw

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
4w4d, no milestones yet

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
Not having a whole lot of symptoms, although bouts of fatigue that come and go. My boobs don’t hurt nearly as bad as previous pregnancies so that has me worried. I keep telling myself they’re bigger and have been through this before so maybe that’s why lol. RLP and already a little sciatica pain here and there. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
Ive actually been very confident the past couple
days, but I get waves of anxiety and then feel like I’m setting myself up to be crushed again. Going to the bathroom is always a trigger and terrifies me. 

4. Any appointment updates?
Have to wait until 8 weeks in April. It’s gonna be a long few weeks! 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 
We told my family and my daughter last night at my dads birthday dinner. It went well, wish I would've waited longer but I’m not good at hiding things and they would’ve found out regardless I think, lol. My daughter is super excited as long as I giver her a sister!! Haha. 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
Anytime I've been to South Carolina. Family vacation at myrtle Beach was fun and Charleston is amazing. 

thebobloblaw

@KristoKekerooni I’m so sorry you’re having such a hard time. I think you have every right to feel all the feelings you are. Sending tons of positive vibes your way and so pulling for things to go smoothly for you!

@mockingjay1 I’m just like you with snapping at my SO. I have a hard time showing how vulnerable I actually feel. I hope time flies for you this week so you can get some reassurance at your appointment!

jennak210

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
5w1d, no milestones yet

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
Nausea, exhausted, mood swings, stuffy nose, so hungry all the time but then full after a couple bites

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
I'm feeling really positive this time around!  My last 2 losses I was in a really weird headspace and this time is night and day different.  I really hope that's a good sign!

4. Any appointment updates?
Had my first appt today for blood work.  Hoping for good news tomorrow.

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 
Trying to remember not to let the news slip to the kids.  My DH and I want to wait until 2nd tri to tell them, but we talk about it so much, so we're having to talk in code.  Luckily our 5yo is in his own little world and doesn't pay attention.  Our 9yo, on the other hand, picks up everything!  We're having to be very careful about what we say around her.

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
The best vacation I've been on was a 1-month-long trip we took a couple years ago.  We started at my parent's house for the week of Christmas.  Then we went to FL to visit with my in-laws for a week.  Then we took my in-laws on a 7-day Disney cruise with us and our kids.  Then we stayed at Disney World for a week before driving home.  It was the best trip ever!!

goldfishcraker

@offtoneverland congrats on your milestone!!!! And I love Disney! Jealous!

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
6w1d. I've passed the date of my MC, so that's a relief!

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 

Exhausted. Especially on work days. Yesterday I fell asleep in an awkward position on the couch, and DH took a picture. Meanie. Also achy. Not so much cramps. But aching. Food aversions and all that.  

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 

I had a nightmare last night that I was bleeding. It was a Total flashback. I woke up crying and panicking. 
But I got some great advice on here, and I'm trying to be optimistic!

4. Any appointment updates?
Unfortunately no appointment for another 6 weeks. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? 
Husband has been sick, and I feel like I've been doing a crappy job taking care of him. Work this week was brutal. Hopefully next week will be better!

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
I LOVE to travel! I've been on several big trips. Have to say the best was our honeymoon. We spent a month in Australia and New Zealand, scuba diving on the great barrier reef, black water rafting in glow worm caves, learning to surf, Lord of the rings tours, swimming with wild dolphins... We packed in as much as we could. 
Also going back to Europe in July. Might be a rough trip, as I seem to have miscalculated before we started trying haha. So I'll be a bit farther along than I had intended. 

arieselle

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 6 weeks 3 days!

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
Sore boobs but other than that- great!

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
Much better now that I’ve had betas twice and the numbers are increasing steadily as well as the first US and the baby’s heartbeat is 128 BPM. The dr. said anything over 120 is good so we were happy. 

4. Any appointment updates?
just had a viability US today and it was great!  It’s funny because every US I see this early is just blobs to me but when I saw it I knew exactly where my little sweet pea was! I go back in two weeks for the first official full visit and another US. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Not too much. I mentioned in the “when will you tell” post I have a girls brunch where there will be lots of drinking and they will know if I’m not so I’m half excited/half nervous about telling so early. A few know about my MC at the end of January. I know they will all be happy but I just don’t want to jinx anything. 
Oh another rant- I gave up bread, pasta, and pizza for lent. It’s not easy to find things to eat, esp. while KU! Today they had a pizza party in my suite at work. I’m amazed by my willpower to not have any! Can I be like preggo phoebe from friends when she eats meat “for the babies” and convince someone to not eat bread, pasta, or pizza until Easter? Any takers?

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 

My DH and I took out honeymoon last year to the Seychelles. It was amazing! We had a layover in Dubai and spent a day there on the way back. Flights took about a day each way but well worth it. Anyone want info on either feel free to PM me!

@Babybrain2018 I’d love to go to Australia!!! So jealous!

To everyone else- I’m a FTM so learning about what it all means as I go through it. I’m rooting for us all to have our rainbows and promise I’ll show love when I can give any support. I’m just so clueless now and don’t want to say something that isn’t helpful or supportive!

ETA:correct tag and a spelling error

middleschoolmommy

@arieselle I was on my birth month board EVERY Day during my first pregnancy! It kept me sane. I hope you find any help/comfort/answers you need here! 

offtoneverland

@middleschoolmommy Enjoy your spring break. What are you reading?
@sarcaztic1016 It took me a while to figure out that you're caybb from TTGP! Good luck with your beta tomorrow. Do you have heat in your house tonight?
@KristoKekerooni Hugs, friend. I'm so sorry you're feeling so anxious. I think all of your feelings are completely valid. You worked so hard for those embies for such a long time, so it makes sense that you'd be so sad worrying that one of them did not stick. Don't feel dumb about that at all. I'm so excited for your u/s on Monday! I have everything crossed for you. I hope until then, you can find just a little bit of peace so you're not as stressed out. Good luck getting your TSH worked out too. 
@mockingjay1 I hope that the rest of the week goes by quickly until your appointment next week. I'm sure YH understands you being emotional right now. I'm so hopeful that you won't have to go forward with IVF. As for your GTKY, I grew up in Montana so I went to Yellowstone a few times. It's so beautiful! I would love to go back with MH sometime. He would love it there. 
@jennak210 Your month long vacation sounds glorious! What did you think of your Disney cruise? It's my favorite way to vacation because it's so convenient and the staff makes you feel like royalty! 
@babybrain2018 Wow, that Australia trip sounds so amazing! Where are you going in Europe? 
@arieselle Hooray for a great u/s today! So happy for you. As for lent, I'm pretty sure that God will forgive you if you need to eat some carbs. The early days of pregnancy are rough and sometimes carbs are the only thing I want to eat! Definitely make sure you're taking care of yourself and eating what you need in order to feel better. 

goldfishcraker

@arieselle oh my gosh it was SO amazing!! Highly recommended!!

sarcaztic1016

@offtoneverland yes! We finally have heat again!! I am so grateful, you never know how awesome heat is until it’s gone! 

I changed my SN awhile ago on TK but it took awhile to kick in! 

offtoneverland

@sarcaztic1016 Our HVAC went out a few winters ago when DD was just an infant. It took several days for them to get out to replace it, so we holed ourselves up in a small room with a few space heaters to try to stay warm. It was miserable. So glad you have heat! 

middleschoolmommy

@offtoneverland I'm on the 2nd book in the Broken Earth series. It's really interesting, but I don't know how to describe it without giving things away lol! Basically, a few people have evolved to where they can manipulate the earth/ground but they are outcast and/or murdered because of this. There really is more to it...

Where in Montana did you grow up? DH was born in Livingston and lived in Lewistown (and Butte for a year with me). He still has tons of family and friends there so we try to visit every couple years, but airfare is getting ridiculous! 

vrj0522

@arieselle - I will seriously join you. I've been so unhappy with the amount of carbs that I have been eating lately that I am ready to break away. Two weeks is not too long to do it!

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 4w3d

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?  I'm having some cramping and back pain, bloat is ridiculous already and I am super irritable. The one symptom that I always have way early and haven't had yet is nausea, which is making me nervous but I am trying to stay positive. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? See previous question. Other than that, I just keep telling myself "I am pregnant today" and that helps me. It's still way early though so we'll see how I feel as the days go by.

4. Any appointment updates? I had my blood drawn yesterday and progesterone was a little low so I got a prescription for it. Tomorrow is the second draw and depending on results we'll make an appointment. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever: DH and I were talking and he basically told me not to get attached to the pregnancy because I have miscarried before. I think his intention was good because he knows losses have hit me hard in the past but the way he said it was awful and the fact that I've had a short fuse lately didn't help either. I was so mad. 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation!  Our honeymoon to Hawaii was my favorite. We spent a week in Kauai and a week on the Big Island. It was so amazingly fun and relaxing.

goldfishcraker

I woke up this morning not feeling well. I had the the faintest, tiniest bit of light pink spotting. So faint I wasn't positive it was there. Nothing on the second trip to the bathroom. Relief/fear had me bawling my face off. I don't know if I can go through this again. I want this baby so badly. I'm trying to relax and tell myself there is nothing I can do and there is no point stressing. 
It's not working though. 

ginjs

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
5w5d

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
Some waves of nausea, but haven’t gotten sick yet. In the evenings I keep having that skin crawling feeling, not my favorite, but trying to remind myself that symptoms are good!

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
Not great today...had a little bit of spotting before lunch. Just the tiniest amount of pink, but enough to make me really nervous. 

4. Any appointment updates?
Nothing until 3/27. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 
I teach dance and we are in the middle of setting recital choreography. I feel like this anxiety has squashed my creativity! I was finally starting to feel a little more optimistic yesterday, but now with the spotting I’m nervous again. (I tend to be a worry wart anyway)

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
Paris! We went for our 5th anniversary, I could go back every year if we had the money! Bread/cheese/champagne picnic under the Eiffel Tower was the best!

ginjs

@babybrain2018 I’ve got similar things going on today. FX for both of us!

@offtoneverland I’ve heard such great things about the Disney cruises. It’s definitely on my bucket list!

offtoneverland

@babybrain2018 Oh no! I had one instance of reddish/pinkish spotting about 2 weeks ago, and I flipped out. I was sobbing in the bathroom at work and it was really scary. Have you had any more spotting today? If not, it sounds like it's probably normal early pregnancy spotting. I asked my nurse about it and she said as long as it was light spotting, it was totally fine. *TW-loss* I know for me, with my 3 CPs, the spotting started and turned into heavy bleeding with clots very quickly, so it's probably good news if you haven't had any more spotting today. *end TW* I'm so so sorry for the stress though. I have my fingers crossed for you! Please keep us updated. 
@ginjs Same goes to you about the pink spotting. So sorry for the extra stress this is putting you through! What type of dance do you do? 

ginjs

@offtoneverland thanks for the peace of mind. I’m trying to think positive thoughts, and it is definitely different than my CP. 
I teach mostly ballet, but a little jazz, tap, and contemporary as well.

goldfishcraker

@offtoneverland thank you! That helps ease my mind a bit. There hasn't been any other spotting all day. Which is a relief. But about half an hour ago I was doubled over by a weird pain. I've had aching fairly constantly. Which I have attributed to growing uterus pains. But this was almost sharp. I have been trying to convince myself it's a weird UTI or something. But it's something I've never felt before.  My husband suggested maybe it's just weird growing pains because my uterus is messed up. Trying to stay positive as long as the bleeding stays away. 

*TW with my last loss, it was fairly heavy spotting followed rapidly by cramping and then within a few hours full out bleeding and clots. And of course, the first call I went to that morning was a 16 year old having a MC, screaming in pain. I remember thinking "great. This is what I have to look forward to in the near future..."
Not a good day.  End TW

I'm definitely an emotional wreck today though haha. This is at least the 4th time I've cried. 
Don't show me any puppy /animal commercials today haha

offtoneverland

@babybrain2018 It is definitely okay to be an emotional wreck. The early days of pregnancy are so incredibly stressful, especially with spotting. I'm so thankful you haven't had any more spotting! That is weird about the pain you were having today though. Perhaps try to get in to see your OB if it continues. 
@ginjs That's so fun about the types of dance you teach! I don't dance myself, but I love watching it so much. So You Think You Can Dance is one of my favorite shows.  

arieselle

@middleschoolmommy I’m hopeful I can keep up with everyone!! But just reading everyone else’s conversation is helpful- all of the veterans are so knowledgeable and helpful @offtoneverland I almost caved and had pizza yesterday but my friend gave up cheese so I had her cheese and she had the rest. @babybrain2018 fingers crossed so hard for you that everything is ok! @vrj0522 I keep telling myself “2 more weeks”.  You can justify your pasta and pizza and bread cravings by saying you’re eating them for me! I lost 8 pounds last year doing it and just hoping to not have gained any because I’m going to be putting it on soon enough. I’m about 30 pounds overweight (luckily I’m tall). If it weren’t for lent, I’d be eating all the carbs.

alweldon86

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  6wks which is a big milestone. I had 2 early MC at the end of 5 weeks. This time around we used IVF and I am cautiously optimistic.

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I have never been more tired in my life. Also the nausea keeps hitting me like a ton of bricks (thankfully I haven't gotten sick yet). My boobs are so sore and I feel as though I need new bras already but I want to wait a bit longer as in sure they'll keep growing.

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?  I am super anxious and kind of walking on eggshells. I had a tiny bit of spotting the other day and I completely freaked out. I called my RE and since it was just a tiny bit and after my us she said it is normal. I also freaked out with every little twinge or cramp which I also know is normal. I am just so worried that this will not end with the outcome we hope for. I will fell so much better next week when we can see/hear the heartbeat.

4. Any appointment updates?  I've had 3 betas with the numbers rising the way they should. I also had my first US last Tuesday. We were able to see the gs/ys

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): rant: I an so hormonal and my poor DH takes the brunt of it. Rave:. He takes it like a champ and is so supportive

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation!  My greatest vacation is a tie btw 2. Our honeymoon moon in Italy or our trip to Paris and Amsterdam. 

mrsdrez

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
5w5d. 
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
All the nausea (who knew my makeup has a smell and that smell could make me feel nauseous), a little bit of sore boobs. I'm not complaining though!

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
Not all that great. My loss was at 6 weeks in November. It started with 3 little specks of blood so every time I go to the washroom I am inspecting toilet paper like nobody's business, it's unhealthy. We're also trying not to think ahead, I haven't even told my husband the due date yet. I keep telling myself "be cool, be cool", I said it aloud in the middle of a meltdown and my husband and I had a good chuckle. Also, every little twinge throws me for a loop. I had a day of dull pain on my left side, I was going crazy.. turns out it was gas. Sigh, it's going to be a long haul. 

4. Any appointment updates?
U/S and bloodwork scheduled for tomorrow. Cont'd in rant. 

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 
So I got my BFP on March 9th, I called the OB right away (this OB had seen me at the hospital through the Early Pregnancy Assessment Clinic when I had my loss and had said that as soon as I got a positive pregnancy test to call her office and she would order bloodwork and early US for me). I called everyday the next week and just got my requisitions on March 16th.  So then I ask the office when I will know the results of the test and US, she says they will not book an appointment until around 12 weeks. Like hello? really? I won't get to know my betas or what shows up on my US until May? I'm losing my mind ("be cool, be cool"). I'm really considering if I want to stay with this OB. 

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
I love all the tropical vacations Cuba, Dominican, bring on the beach and sunshine! 

eahayes

1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
Hi all! I think I am about 5 weeks.. we did IVF after genetic testing so the embryo was 5 days when it went in!

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
sore boobs but I'm wondering if it's because of the Progesterone/Estrogen I'm on! The bloat is REAL also, which is annoying, especially since I can't exercise until the first ultrasound!

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
A little anxious.. they just lowered my progesterone and estrogen which is good(!), but of course makes me worried I need it more than they know. I have to keep reminding myself they are the experts, and that this baby is genetically healthy, so we've done all we can at this point! I had 3 m/c before going the IVF route, so some things are coming up for me during this process. Had a super realistic dream that we lost the baby last night- woke up and had to talk myself off the ledge by reminding myself that nothing has happened yet and to enjoy each day as it comes. My mantra is, calm, relaxed, and confident!

4. Any appointment updates?
Nope-- ultrasound  is April 2!

5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 
I'm enjoying living with this little secret, and imagining my future with this babe. I have so many friends with kids and I'm so excited to get to experience this chapter, as exhausting as it will be!

6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
Been super lucky to have been raised traveling, due to family living all over the globe. Most special trip was when I went to Africa with my mom for a few weeks-- most magical place I've been!

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1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 
5w6d (my levels had dropped at my 5w5d blood draw with my loss in January so I'm hopeful being a day past that right now)
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? 
Nausea comes & goes, heartburn, hunger, I'm bloated. I'm on progesterone so I think my symptoms are increased because of that.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? 
I'm nervous, but I think that's how I'll be any pregnancy - I was with my first especially in the first tri with all the spotting/bleeding I had.
4. Any appointment updates?
I have an ultrasound on Friday!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): 
Not much happening this week. Just counting down the days until Friday!
6. GTKY: Tell us about the best vacation you've been on. If you haven't been on a great vacation, tell us about your dream vacation! 
Disney cruise to the Bahamas with me & 7 other women in my family. It was a great cruise and the adults only beach on Disney's island was AMAZING!!!