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kikimi83

I've been quietly reading along for a couple of weeks now. Just couldn't bring myself to actually write down that I'd had a loss. 

I started bleeding 1/8 at 8 wks and completely miscarried 1/11. It was heart-wrenching. 

We are a blended family, I have an older son, my husband has a son and a daughter, and we have a little guy together. I was hoping this might be our chance to have a little girl together. Our kids all knew about the baby and were very excited. We'd been checking the size each week and laughing about what fruit it was now. 

I had a miscarriage before my first son and after 2 healthy pregnancies the thought just never crossed my mind. That was something that happened during your first pregnancy, I thought. 

I'm trying to keep it together, trying to keep things normal for our kids, but I so badly miss being pregnant. And time feels like it is literally standing still  We are TTC again but the HPT has only just gone back to negative.  Hopefully that means this could be the week! Good luck to everybody!

coco2787

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I hope you find comfort here as you start on your TTC journey again.  

Mack2342

So sorry for your loss.  Welcome to the group 

zamoraspin

I’m so sorry for your loss. Welcome, this is an amazing group.

offtoneverland

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need to grieve and remember that it's okay to be sad and cry and be mad at the world for a while as you process your loss.

bakerstreetboys

I'm sorry for your loss.  I have just recently joined the board, but have found it to be avery supportive group of ladies.  Good luck TTC again

kikimi83

Thank you, all....@offtoneverland I do feel angry at the world! I was feeling like I was coping well and moving forward then time just seemed to stand still and I'm finding it hard again. Hopefully, fingers crossed, I think I'm seeing signs that I'm going to O in the next couple of days. Either that or I'm just imagining symptoms now.   Let's hope there is a light!

Kath525

I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the group. I hope your stay here is short.

tosh24

I'm so sorry for your loss. Definitely take the time to feel whatever you need to feel. Welcome to this great group of ladies

pumpkinpancake

I’m so sorry for your loss, but welcome. Trying to keep things “normal” after a loss is so hard, so don’t put too much pressure on yourself to do so. Allow yourself some time to grieve if you need it, and know that it’s ok.