I’ve been home sick for 2 days so I HAVE to go into work today to catch up but I still feel like crap. To top it off DH woke me up at 4am because he thought he heard knocking on the door and he immediately fell back asleep and I can’t.
I do some part time work with a videographer and just talking to people about their wedding...
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Me: 33 DH: 32 Married 7/18/15 1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16 Team green turned BLUE! 2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18 Team green turned PINK! Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
I cried watching Kung Fu Panda 3 last night because of his dad saying "you being here doesn't mean less for me, it means more for Po."
Which is so far better than my pregnancy with DD where I cried over the Austria episode of No Reservations... because the blood sausage looked so good and I didn't have a place to go buy any
@chelletn I SOBBED watching This Is Us. Like, I always cry at sad tv, especially that show, but I was hysterical. Also, last night’s Greys Anatomy got me pretty good.
I'm at work. I'm bored. I'm thinking of doing our social media announcement around Easter (I wanted to do an Easter announcement for DS but DH was too excited to wait - another 2 or 3 weeks *eyeroll*). So I Google Easter pregnancy announcements. Seriously. Why am I fighting tears over this?!
And due to all of your This Is Us responses, I opted not to watch the latest episode on my lunch break in an effort to not cry today. *sigh*
By the end of the week, I'm so done. Done with interacting with people, done with being touched by my toddler, and I'm just in tears from the overall doneness that I'm feeling. Ugh, I need more sunshine and time outside!
The other night I cried when DH walked in the door. Bc he was home. From work. On a Tuesday. He kept asking me if something was wrong, and I kept telling him, No, but I could. Not. stop. crying. That was pretty extra. :D
Every single thing has set me off today.... I haven't ever cried this much in my life. I do believe I'm starting to even scare the dog. DH called earlier and I told him just to go out with his friends tonight because he doesn't need to see this...
Also, I cried because I realized that emperor penguins are only like 3 ft tall. I always thought they were like, adult human height. They’re not. They’re very smol, and if you see a picture of one cuddling wth a stuffed polar bear, you might cry.
I watched the first few minutes of that Elizabeth at 90 documentary and was tearing up at just the thought of the sentimentality that was to come. Then watching William and Harry watching the videos of their dad/aunt etc playing and reminiscing how they played with the same toys and rolled down the same hill, etc really pushed me over the edge. So silly!!
Me: 30 DH: 31 Married: 2012 BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
This is us got me this week. Also we are still telling my husband's aunt tomorrow who I also plan to make Godmother (but we aren't telling her about that till later in pregnancy). All the issues with my ruptured cyst have had me crying all week but I have been practicing what we are going to tell her and that makes me bawl too.
She is the first family we are telling as I am really early but she is super supportive and close and I wish she was my M-I-L instead of my monster in law that I have! Okay going to go cry some more.
I cried in my boss's office this week over a mistake I made. She doesn't know I'm pregnant so she was like, "I don't understand why you're crying. It's not that big of a deal. We can fix this." I'm thinking when I tell her, I'll say something along the lines of, "remember when I was in your office crying? It's because I'm pregnant!"
I just sobbed over not knowing that I would want marshmallow fluff after we got home from the store. I then cried because I actually have something that I want to eat but we don't physically have it in the house. Which then led to more sobbing because I didn't want DH to have to run back out to the store. And now I'm crying because he ran back out to the store.
And here's hoping the GIF works and isn't enormous.
Because DD was crying when we put her down for her nap. (Not uncommon.) But I felt guilty because normally I would have let her play for another 30 minutes because she didn't seem tired, but I am sick and needed her to take her nap so DH could go get me some soup. I just feel like a bad, selfish mommy for all the half-assed parenting lately.
I'm considering a divorce. I wish I could say I am overly emotional due to hormones but I think it's a decision that is years overdue, and now with a baby on the way I'm not willing to put up with the unhappiness anymore. It's reminding me how precious life is I suppose. Sorry to be the downer. I haven't even announced my pregnancy or talked about this with anyone yet. I know it's the right thing to do but it makes me sad, I wanted to have my children grow up with both parents in the home
I'm considering a divorce. I wish I could say I am overly emotional due to hormones but I think it's a decision that is years overdue, and now with a baby on the way I'm not willing to put up with the unhappiness anymore. It's reminding me how precious life is I suppose. Sorry to be the downer. I haven't even announced my pregnancy or talked about this with anyone yet. I know it's the right thing to do but it makes me sad, I wanted to have my children grow up with both parents in the home
I know it's not what you imagined for yourself, but two happy parents separate from each other is so much better for children than 2 unhappy parents together. No one "wants" to get divorced, like they don't say "I want to be married for 3 years and then get divorced! I think it'll be great!" But everyone I've ever talked to who's gotten divorced, myself included, agrees that while it's hard and sad it's worth it. For me, it was so so so worth it. Only you know what's right for you, mama. It's hard and it's sad, and that's no lie, but if it's what you need to do then it's what you need to do. Btw marriage counseling really helped me. Just a few sessions of listening to my ex's responses showed me that I absolutely wanted out and there was nothing worth "saving." Made it so much easier to say bye-bye, don't let the door hit you where the good lord split you! Have you tried counseling? It can really help you see which way you want to go.
@knitknitread omg, I cried so hard last pregnancy because I finished my dinner and I was still hungry and all I wanted was some Oreos and we didn't have any. We didn't have any cause I don't eat Oreos! We never have Oreos. So yeah. That was random. Dear hubby did go to the store and buy me some and omg they were soooooooo good! So good! The hormones want what the hormones want. Damn. Now I want some Oreos...
@Lucky2K13 I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how hard it is to feel like you do. Like PP said, it's better for kids to have 2 happy parents even if that means they are happyier apart. I always remind people that they need to show their kids that they deserve good and happy things. You can't teach that if your kids sense that you are unhappy. It will be hard but if it's right, it will be worth it once the pain eases.
I cried because my husband asked to eat the leftover vegetable stir fry for lunch. I haven’t been able to eat vegetables in so long and it actually sounded good to me so I had planned on eating it. But we didn’t have anything else to eat but soup and toast and he was leaving for a job interview. I wanted to make sure he had enough to eat, but I really wanted baby to get those veggies
I cried around 4 this morning because DH got called to work. He's basically on call 24/7 So it wasn't a surprise. But I was really hoping he would be able to get up with the kids this morning so I could sleep. Maybe tomorrow...
@tweets47 maybe see if your husband will go grocery shopping when he's finished with the interview. I can totally understand where you're coming from..
@Lucky2K13 I grew up with divorced parents who were very happy split. I was 4 when they broke up. It was totally the right thing for us, and I got to have two bedrooms, two birthday celebrations, and two Christmases each year
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Me: 33 DH: 32 Married 7/18/15 1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16 Team green turned BLUE! 2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18 Team green turned PINK! Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
I haven’t been extremely emotional (yet) this pregnancy, but I’m thinking back to 2 days before we found out we were expecting. I’m the kind of person that gets all emotional/filled with American pride during the National Anthem whether I’m pregnant or not. Well, we were at the rodeo and the Westernairres were riding their horses and doing their red white and blue light show act. It wasn’t even the national anthem and I was a sobbing mess! Thank goodness it was dark in there.
I was watching 15: A Quinceanera Story on HBO and the Dad sang his daughter a song he wrote for her celebration. She totally had the ugly cry which made me in turn get the ugly cry. Did I mention I'm not even Spanish?
Thanks for the feedback. I'm looking into filling, and even though TX won't finalize a divorce while the wife is pregnant I can still file now. He's refusing to leave the apartment (he's not on the lease) but has been yelling all morning even after I've told him to just leave me alone (in front of our DD). I'm reading the court can offer temporary orders, including living arrangements, after the divorce has been filed. Other than transferring to a new apartment unit and not giving him a key I am not sure what else to do to get him away from me. He is hellbent on making things miserable.
@Lucky2K13 since he isn't on the lease, just change the locks. I'm sure your apartment community maintenance guy can do it and the management company can't give him a copy if he isn't on the lease.
@Lucky2K13 document, document, document. Get pictures/copies of financial documents and store them digitally in the cloud or send physical copies to your mom or someone you trust If he threatens you, write it down, date it and tell a friend. If he gets abusive take your child and leave. Walk out the door and call someone once you are somewhere safe. There's nothing in your apartment worth you or your child getting injured over. Hopefully he's just an all talk jerk, but please be careful.
I'm sorry for everyone who is crying in sadness but hormone related tears are the best. Just after I find out I was pregnant, I drove over a pot hole and out came floods of tears. But today I topped that. DH came downstairs, I asked him for a hug, as he walked towards me I just started tearing up. We hug all the time but tonight I was just having a 'special' moment.
I was watching the dog agility competition on tv and the dogs jumping into the water and trying to knock down a floatation tube. They missed and I bawled for them. Especially when they played the slow motion replays. Poor doggies!
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying w/o 1/26
DH: 32
Married 7/18/15
1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16
Team green turned BLUE!
2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18
Team green turned PINK!
Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
Which is so far better than my pregnancy with DD where I cried over the Austria episode of No Reservations... because the blood sausage looked so good and I didn't have a place to go buy any
TTC since Oct 2016
DX: Undetermined possible PCOS+MFI
July 2017-Dec 2017 Letrozole+TI
Dec 2017 CP
Jan 2018 BFP:EDD 9-25
And due to all of your This Is Us responses, I opted not to watch the latest episode on my lunch break in an effort to not cry today. *sigh*
ETA I’m not caught up on This Is Us and now I’m fearful to...I have to be in a certain mood to watch that show on a non-pregnant day.
Married: 2012
BFP #1 Sept 2014, MMC Dec 2014 | BFP #2 May 2015, DD Jan 2016 | BFP #3 May 2017, MC July 2017 | BFP #4 Jan 2018, MC Feb 2018 | BFP #5 July 2018, fingers crossed
She is the first family we are telling as I am really early but she is super supportive and close and I wish she was my M-I-L instead of my monster in law that I have! Okay going to go cry some more.
I tried to keep it in. Too good
And here's hoping the GIF works and isn't enormous.
Btw marriage counseling really helped me. Just a few sessions of listening to my ex's responses showed me that I absolutely wanted out and there was nothing worth "saving." Made it so much easier to say bye-bye, don't let the door hit you where the good lord split you!
Have you tried counseling? It can really help you see which way you want to go.
DH: 32
Married 7/18/15
1st born at 35+4 on 6/6/16
Team green turned BLUE!
2nd born at 38+6 on 8/30/18
Team green turned PINK!
Due with #3 on 6/6/20 Team Green
BFP#1: 11/15/2010 * Missed M/C 12/28 * D&C 12/29/2010
BFP#5 12/26/2017 *SURPRISE* Due 09/02/2018
Just after I find out I was pregnant, I drove over a pot hole and out came floods of tears. But today I topped that. DH came downstairs, I asked him for a hug, as he walked towards me I just started tearing up. We hug all the time but tonight I was just having a 'special' moment.
Update: the mail lady got back to the post office and realized she forgot to deliver my package so she brought it! Insert the waterworks again!