PAL check in w/o 1/17

juliebleu

A day late, but here it is.

This is a check in for those of us who are experiencing pregnancy after a loss (miscarriage, chemical pregnancy, stillbirth, child loss, to name a few). Hopefully we can all lend support to each other through the hormone filled craziness that is pregnancy!

Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread. 

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)  ?

4. When is your next appointment? 

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?

juliebleu

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  11 weeks today by O date and u/s, but 11 weeks 4 days by lmp. 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms): nausea is no longer all day. But I do get some yuckies after 6pm- pretty much on the dot. Not as tired, either- thank goodness! 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise): really good after my ultrasound last week. I thought I was being zen, but really I was just super detached. After the ultrasound I couldn’t sleep for like a fay, then I crashed and slept for over 12 hours. Woke up excited for the first time this pregnancy. Been feeling hopefull since then.

4. When is your next appointment? Feb 9th.

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  Pass this week!

6. GTKY: I have read enough fairy tales to probably run the other way if a genie offered me wishes- but, if it was a sure fire thing that the genie wouldn’t twist the wish I would want: a quarter billion dollars in the bank, a mini van that never breaks down and the house we are planning on building to be HGTV move in ready.

neeraja_k

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  

8w4d, I've surpassed my previous loss by two weeks. 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

Off and on queasies, general lack of appetite, tired all the time, and very short tempered. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) ?

I'm feeling better about things in general with this pregnancy, but there's still anxiety and doubt in the back of my mind that the rug will be pulled out from under me until my next ultrasound. 

4. When is your next appointment? 

January 31st, it can't come soon enough. These 4 week waits are agonizing. 

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  

I can't think of anything that hasn't been addressed elsewhere. 

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?

Unlimited money in my bank account, the US to go back to being non-Twilight Zone, and my own mountain in Montana. 

hezzer78

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  9w today - 2.5 weeks past my previous 2 losses.

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Pretty good - which can be unsettling at times. Mild queasiness occasionally, and tired a lot - I'm finding the heartburn/gas kick up occasionally too. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)  ? A little better after last Friday's US - but really just trying to hang in there til the next one. I don't think I'll feel really good until we're out of 1st tri and the NIPT comes back. 

4. When is your next appointment? Jan 29 - this is the longest I've gone between US and it's messing with my mind.

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  Not really this week!

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?  

Probably a lot of money, land and horses somewhere in Texas or Colorado, and something good for society... free good healthcare, women's & lgbtq rights - or just rid the world of hate and bigotry. 

fishee333

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  10ish weeks. My loss was at 16 weeks so no big milestones yet in my opinion. Although my NT scan is in a couple of weeks and if no abnormalities show up, that'll be a huge relief for us. Also getting the cell free dna test results back soon. 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Tired and I have a new food aversion to chicken. I've been feeling more nauseous this week but I think it's because I'm on antibiotics for a UTI. I hate antibiotics

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)  ? I'm at about a 5 out of 10. Anxious whenever I think about getting the results of the cell free dna test results back. I don't think any anxiety will be relieved until we get positive news from the blood work and NT scan. 

4. When is your next appointment? NT scan in a couple weeks. I'm absolutely dreading it so I'm trying not to think about it for now

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  All these TW posts are heartbreaking. I have a hard time opening them. 

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)? 1.I wish I had more energy to do things in my life (it's somewhat pregnancy related but I don't have much energy even when I'm not pregnant). 2. Lots of money 3. Free and great healthcare for everyone

pghctwife

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  11 weeks! Yes, I’m past all my milestones 

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Ok. The nausea has lessened but not gone away 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)  ? Ok. I was doing great but I did my nipt test and waiting for the results and the what if’s are creeping in. I was going to tell the kids and make it public with those results too but then I’m not going to hear the hb again till later. Blah.

4. When is your next appointment? I need to call to reschedule my nt scan. They booked for a time I can’t go. Soooo no idea. After that I’ll see my mw on 2/6 around 14w 

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  I *am* getting super excited to tell my kids!!! I was looking up cake recipes today. I’ll make it this weekend then color and fill when we find out the sex

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?

1) enough money to live comfortably off of. A couple mil would be plenty.

2) for my kids to be happy, kind, well adjusted people, who want to have a relationship with us as adults

3) my parents, siblings, Nieces and nephews to stay as close with us and to have 2 as well (and hey 1 too why not!)

lolapop2005

Hi, I intro’d just a minute ago on that thread!

How far along are you? Any milestones?  

I’m 9+1 today. I’m passed my chemical loss but my other two seemingly perfect pregnancies were lost at 9 and 10 weeks so I’m right in the middle of those.

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

I’ve been sick, though not as bad as my first. But it seems to be easing up for the last day or so which, totally messes with my head. I’ve been really tired though. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)  ?

As of right now I’m about a 9 out of 10. My first prenatal appt is Saturday and I dont Think they do u/s in house so I’m going to beg her to write a script for one to calm my nerves. I had an ultrasound at 6 weeks that looked great and blood work as well. So it’s not as though this has been totally an unknown. But it went that same way with my other later losses. Ugh.. 

4. When is your next appointment? 

Saturday is my first prenatal appt that I talked About above.

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  

So I’m struggling right now. Waiting for the other metaphorical shoe to drop. I wasnt Even going to intro until I was out of the first tri but I just needed a place to vent a bit. Sorry ladies! I do Plan on participating in the group. This is my third pregnancy in the last six months and I’ve developed a bit of an insecurity about talking to my irl friends (even though I know They would support and listen). Anywho, thanks for listening (reading?) to my anxiety filled ramblings!

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?

Has anyone seen that SNL but by Steve Martin on his three wishes? That’s all I can Think of! YouTube it if you want a laugh!

NAP1029

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  

Crossing over into week 11 this weekend. Just squeaked past both of my losses at this, but not far enough along  that I feel like I can take a deep breath. I fully intend to officially introduce myself to this community once I'm out of the first trimester.

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?

Sore boobs but they're barely sore anymore. Early evening tiredness. Starting to get frisky but doc says I'm still on pelvic rest until 12 weeks even though the SCH has resolved.

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?

I'm on top of the world when I leave each OB appointment--literally crying because I'm so grateful to see that heartbeat. But as the days pass before the next appointment that horrible knot creeps back into my stomach and I start to worry about whether this little heart is still beating. The TW MMC posts as of late are heart-wrenching.

4. When is your next appointment? 

Monday morning for Maternity21 testing and check the heartbeat via doppler to give this PGAL brain some peace of mind(fingers crossed). I'm very happy my doc is sympathetic to my anxiety.

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  

My bleed resolved. Sweet! So I figured I could fly. I was supposed to head out to a conference in California yesterday for work. My pesky mother-in-law started asking 48 hours before take off if I had clearance to go. I thought she was being ridiculous but the little voice in the back of my mind told me to ask the doc just to be sure--if something happened I'd never be able to forgive myself. Sure enough, I do NOT have permission to fly and I had to back out of the trip last minute. My employer is livid and I feel like a jerk, but I can not/will not take any chances. My employer is bewildered because I flew throughout my first (and only) successful pregnancy--so why not now? I guess my losses have made me high risk until August and I'm grounded until then! I just wish my doc would have told me the rules up front so I would have known not to break them. 

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?

1) For my husband and myself to not have to work out of necessity but, rather, to spend our hours doing something more fulfilling--like traveling the globe as a family. 2) To put an end to needless suffering everywhere.  3) To be able to walk barefoot outside right this moment and feel the warm sun on my shoulders. 

fishee333

@NAP1029 How interested about flying... Did she say why? I've never been told not to fly because of pregnancy/high risk pregnancy. 

NAP1029

@fishee333 Me either! Which is why I was so shocked—and angry, honestly. I’ve learned my doc is super conservative for what it’s worth. But also, she cited risk of blood clot (I had SCH a few weeks ago and now on baby aspirin), I’m still on progesterone (not sure why that matters), the duration of flight (Chicago to Anaheim is a long stretch), turbulence (seriously?) and the flu outbreak (ok, I kind of agree on that one).

elsieisamoocow

Hi! Just joined the community and I didn't see a more recent PAL checkin so I'm posting here.

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  12w6d. My last loss was at 11 weeks last spring, so I was very happy to be past that day. My pregnancy issues usually don't start that early, so it was a big shock and hit me really hard. I'm very glad to be in the 2nd tri tomorrow!

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?  Pretty decent. I am getting some more energy (first tri while chasing an almost 3 year old is intense), still a bit of nausea, and lots of migraines, but better than I was a couple of weeks ago at least. 

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?  I'm definitely still hesitant, but we are going to announce next week on my son's (1st rainbow) birthday and I'm actually letting myself get a bit excited now. I won't really relax until we're past 24 weeks, and even then won't be truly relaxed until the baby is in my arms and healthy.

4. When is your next appointment?  Tomorrow afternoon

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  Nothing much. I'm anxious about finding out the gender, just because both of our losses were girls, our living kid is a boy, and this will likely be our last, so I'm really hoping for a girl. It's been rough.

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?  Hmm not related to pregnancy... A large house in a great school district and great neighborhood with a large yard, a private jet so I could visit my parents and friends in other places as often as I want without dealing with airports and TSA lol, and being financially stable enough that we could take a year off and travel the world.

harleyquinn0621

Hi i also didn't see a more recent thread (or a high risk thread) so i'll just add on here too 

1. How far along are you? Any milestones?  9w5d  I've past one of my milestones of 8w but i've also had a second tri loss so there is a long way to go

2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? tired

3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)  ? so this pregnancy is strange for me... i've had three previous losses- two of which were just last year... my brain hasn't accepted that i'm bringing a baby home this time. So i'm not really anxious... i'm not really anything yet. 

4. When is your next appointment?  02/02 for a growth scan 

5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  not really a rant, but i just wish i could make myself feel excited... i feel guilty that i haven't gotten there yet

6. GTKY: Genie in a bottle, what three things would you wish for (not related to pregnancy)?

1. a  new house 2. a paid vacation anywhere i want to go 3. a new car