I must admit outright to being a previous lurker here in the boards earlier in the year during my first IVF. I did create a user profile so I could post during my TWW but I had to wait 3 days before being able to post - and then I lost my nerve (sorry!). But I'm jumping back into this boat again, and I've read so many of your wonderful strong stories and see the amazing support everyone here offers each other, so if you'll have me, I'd love to be part of this community
So my story so far (TW loss mentioned). I'm 38, DH 39, TTC for over 6 years. We've tried Clomid and Letrozole and had hysteroscopy/laporoscopy and did a number of rounds of Puregon injectibles. I have a very high egg count and always got at least one follicle but always got a BFN. We tried IVF earlier in the year, again got lots of follies, but then only 9 eggs, only 3 of which were fertilised. After EC I felt very ill and found out I was over-stimmed (ovaries were huge!!) so couldn't do fresh transfer. We only had one good embryo for freezing. Had to wait 2 cycles and then transferred - but finally got the BFP we had been waiting for. Honestly, we were more shocked than anything else!! It was only when we saw the little erratic heartbeat at 7wks that we actually got so, so excited. Sadly, we lost our little bud at 9wks. I was heartbroken. No matter what I thought I was prepared for, I just wasn't prepared for that.
That's our story. I know many of you have similar situations. I swore at the beginning of this year that we would only consider doing one cycle and if it didn't work we'd call our journey to an end. But after actually achieving a positive result and seeing that little heartbeat I know I have to try one more time. It's tough when no-one else understands what you're going though. My family are great, but they can't help but say the wrong thing! Also I work with all men apart from one woman and it's just typical that she is actually pregnant now with a due date within a week of what mine was, plus I just found out my brother is expecting their 3rd child, again at the same time I was due. I know none of these affect my own situation and I'm truly happy for them all. It's just that sometimes, it can be a little tough being happy for others when you're just so sad for yourself.
I should also mention I'm actually over in Ireland (I guess a lot of you are based in the US) so I think some of the protocols might be slightly different, but it's all the same process! But forgive me if I mis-understand something - or get my dates all mixed up (month-day not day-month!!! That confused me hugely earlier in the year!!). Anyhoo, I'm off to my RE tomorrow to see when we can get going. I'm really hoping to stim and take out the eggs in November - probably then doing a FET in January (if so I'll hop on over the the November IVF group to see if they'll have me!). But one thing I've learned form doing this before is that it is so hard to predict what will happen, so I'll wait and see what I get told tomorrow.
Sorry for the super-long post! I didn't mean to - but I haven't actually written it all out before. Thanks to anyone who has read this far
I wish you all the best of luck in the weeks and months to come. Hugs xx
**History in Spoiler**
Me 39, DH 40
Married Oct 2010, TTC ~7yrs
Seeing RE since Spring 2013
Clomid - no response
Letrozole (6 months) 2015
Laperoscopy/Hysteroscopy in 2015
Puregon injectibles + trigger x5 in 2016 - all BFN
Started IVF March 2017 - 25 follies, 9 eggs, 3 fertilised, 1 survived-> frozen due to hyper stimulation of ovaries
FET May 16th 2017, BFP May 27th 2017, m/c @ 9wks
IVF #2 February 2018 - 16 eggs, 8 fertilised, 3 frozen embabies
Awaiting FET April 2018 - cancelled (cyst)
FET May 2018, BFP June 2nd 2018, m/c @ 8wks
FET October 2018 - BFN
Final FET - late November 2018