PGAL checkin w/o 10/4

jsl82

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 

5. When is your next appointment? 

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?

silvergreen

1. FTM. 28-years-old. 1 previous MMC.
2. 4+6. Team green.
3. Swelling down there/weird sensations. Some spotting the other day.
4. Anxiety is see-sawing. Just anxious for some kind of answer about how well this pregnancy is doing. My family lives in the UK and it's hard to be so far away from your support system.
5. 10/19 with OB/GYN.
6. I don't understand why they don't test you for basic things like progesterone straight away when you have had a loss along with low progesterone. I started taking my old supplements when I noticed some spotting last Friday and then they tested me on Monday with levels of 11. Can't imagine what my levels would be without doing that! OB/GYN nurse said it's likely they're ineffective being as they were prescribed earlier this year - so I guess 6 months is too old? She prescribed me a new batch, but PGAL brain has me worried that it's too little too late.
7. This one is a bit of a long story. But long version made short, we met through mutual friends where we grew up together, and then ended up kindling a long distance romance (during our first year of university in different countries) before meeting up over the summer and really hitting it off!

doxiemoxie212

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating) FTM, 29, previous early MC last September (first presidential debate, sigh) 

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
5+4

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) very tired, sore boobs, panic hungry sometimes, achy joints. No nausea yet thank the lawd lol  

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) pretty good. Betas looked good so I'm feeling better about things. 

5. When is your next appointment? i need to schedule my first ultrasound but I'm debating if I want to do that with my current OB or switch before. 

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)  so I think we've decided we're going to tell my mom when we go home to visit October 14. My mom doesn't know we're coming. DH is a little wary of telling people but I told everyone about my MC last time, and I would again, so that's the plan. I want to jump out of a box but DH is worried she'll have a heart attack lol. 

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?  we had a mutual friend who introduced us because my parents worked on a certain famous movie series that DH is obsessed with. We were friends first and then I got super drunk at a party and the rest is history. It'll be 10 years in March. 

jsl82

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)

I'm 35 my DH is 39.  We suffered 2 consecutive mmcs before we had DD last December.  We live outside of Philadelphia.  I started a new job 3 weeks ago- and found out about this little bean a week later.  

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
5w1d- 6/5/18- Finding out

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

I was HANGRY when I got home from work last night.  My hunger tends to lead to nausea.  I have tender nipples (but I'm also still nursing my DD).  I am also getting bloated.  First trimester is so much fun.

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 

Most days I don't feel pregnant enough to get really anxious, but I have more moments where I'm worried about another loss than I'm planning for another child. 

5. When is your next appointment? 

Our first appointment is on 10/26.  I have never seen this doctor before and I wish I had scheduled an appointment we were thinking about starting to try again.  I really liked the doctor I had with my DD and she gave me instruction to take a baby aspirin daily and a prescription for progesterone that I do not have this time.  

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Not really.  DH is pissing me off- so I'm sure a ranting post will be coming sooner than later.  

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?
We met at a wedding- but it wasn't a cute meeting.  I was DRUNK and we were arguing about which was the better West Chester (PA or NY).  We still have a constant PA or NY battle going.  

tammy574

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating) I am 26. Live in Oregon. I’ve have two losses. One stillbirth and one late first trimester mc a couple months ago. I have two Lo’s so my chances of loss are 50/50. My Mc still feels very fresh. 

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue? I am 4 weeks today. Found out two days ago. I think team pink

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Fine so far. 
4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 
Totally weepy and numb. I’m so not fine. I’m so so scared of it happening again that I feel very detached and basically planning for when the mc happens. Any advice would be appreciated. What am I supposed to do? Plan and dream and be devastated or stay unattached and numb so that if it happens I’m not crushed. The bliss is stolen. My losses feel so fresh and im struggling. I’m jealous of the bliss. 
5. When is your next appointment? 

I haven’t called yet

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) 

See rant above^

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?
This app is not letting me change the font. We met as teenagers through mutual friends. Married young.   

PatientlyWaiting10

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)
I intro'ed last week but I will post again since there are so many new people (yay!), DH and I have been married for 10 years, have a DD who is 7 and a DS who is 1.  Five miscarriages. 
2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
5 weeks

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Fine, just kind of sleepy, frequent urination, and some mild cramping

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 
I go in waves.  I found myself googling "why does your HCG increase without being pregnant" and just doubting everything. Yesterday when I found out my progesterone dropped one point I was freaking out.  Thankfully I have a responsive doctor.

5. When is your next appointment? 
Go in Friday for an ultrasound to confirm pregnancy and placement

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
I HATE PGAL brain.  I try to stay positive and read and say positive affirmations about being pregnant and reassure myself with scripture that God's got this.  I completely agree with you, @silvergreen about testing/getting progesterone right away.  I think it should be a common test they do just like Quant. levels.  My quant level doubling time was 5 days (based off the two blood draws they did) but they were high, so I'm hopeful that way.  Progesterone dropped one point over that time so my doc called in a script and I started that yesterday.  But, like I said already, I HATE PGAL!!! 

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?
We went to school together, K-12.  Dated for one week in 9th grade (he was my first kiss) and then not again until after our freshman year in college.  Both moved back home for the summer, hung out all the time, and here we are.  

BurlapandLace

@silvergreen ~ When do you anticipate hearing back about your betas?

@doxiemoxie212 ~ A surprise visit to your mom sounds sweet. I would totally be that person that jumped out of a box. haha. 

@jsl82 ~ It may not have been a cute meeting, but its a great story. And I do think its kind of cute 

@tammy574 ~ I am so sorry your bliss is not there *creepy internet hugs* This time around I am *trying* to stay hopeful and carry on like this is going to be a successful pregnancy. Otherwise I would just be an anxious mess all the time, which isn't healthy for me or the pregnancy. I don't think one approach is better than another though, only you know what works for you. I can totally understand wanting to stay an arms length distance from it to try to protect your heart, too. 

@patientlywaiting10 ~ Your DH story is adorable! 

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating) STM - Had a CP last month

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue? 4w1d ~ We will be finding out 

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) Boobs are ginormous and sore. I am super tired, gassy and I am FREEZING all the time. 

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) I am still testing every day and my line yesterday was lighter than the day before. I am *trying* not to worry about that. But this morning, my lower back is hurting and I am feeling a bit crampy in my uterus  Tomorrow is my loss mark, so I am really trying to stay positive. I am having symptoms this time around, and I had none with my CP, so I am hoping that is a good sign. Depending on my testing line today (I'm testing with SMU as I am getting better lines then as opposed to FMU) I may call the doctor either later today or tomorrow to see if I can get in to see her for betas on Friday (She is only in the office Monday afternoons and all day Tuesday and Friday - so I am thinking starting Betas on Friday would be better than starting on Monday or Tuesday, if only for my own anxiety purposes.) I haven't been temping, but I might temp in the morning (and then continue until I get betas back) since my lines are giving me a bit of anxiety. 

5. When is your next appointment? None yet - see above

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Ugh! Early pregnancy is such a mindf&%# - I know the only thing that is going to help my anxiety is going to see my doctor and getting betas/ultrasounds started. But I really don't want to deal with her in the event of another potential loss. It's dumb of me, but I don't know. 

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet? We actually met on a dating app called Plenty of Fish 

catlady1215

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating) 35 yrs old. Been trying for a second since May2016. Had 2 losses since then. 

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue? 5+6  may31st  we'll be team find out!

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) today the queasy stuff isn't as bad. But it also been off and on. 

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 

oh it's bad lol. We saw a heartbeat yesterday. But that has only barely calmed my nervousness a smidge. I know multiple people that lost pregnancies after a heartbeat.

5. When is your next appointment? 

had another today. My OB doesn't need to see me for 4 wks. But wants me to meet with genetic counseling, I'll be calling them this afternoon for an apt. Annnd calling for another ultrasound in a couple wks.

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
I just with it was like 6 wks from now. If this pregnancy works out, I don't want to do this again. Pgal brain is no damn joke.

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?
we met online. 14 yrs ago, before online dating was a thing lol. It was a site where you rate people. An ex showed it to me, so I joined. You can 'follow' people. DH and I did, exchanged AIM (aim lol) names and talked on that for months before meeting.

chocomom2

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)
H and I are both 30. We have been married six years, and our daughter is turning three this month! I am a STM to be (I hope). I am a high school teacher and I am excited for a spring baby this time! 

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
I am five weeks. Due date is 6/4 - my birthday! Obviously no idea what team yet.

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Nausea, but not too bad yet. Definitely tired, peeing a lot, metal mouth, sore nipples, food aversions, cravings...

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 
I was really anxious Monday because my miscarriage was the Monday after we found out last time and it happened at school when I was teaching. So there was something triggering about that. I hope now that the first Monday is over, that won't happen again. I had a CP last month (my only loss) and I am further along now than I was last time, so that makes me hopeful.  

5. When is your next appointment? 
Just got my HCG results a little over 4000 which I think is good? I will call after work today. 
I have a therapy appt next week too - she doesn't know I am pregnant yet so I am nervous to tell her. Not sure why?!

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
I wish I could be more excited, and I wish I could sleep. I have thoughts spinning in my mind all the time and I just feel heightened anxiety all around. 

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?
We met in college and we were great friends for about three years. We double dated and lived together before we ended up hooking up and getting together together.

catlady1215

@tammy574 first, I'm tammy too! Lol. Second, i totally get what you're saying. My last loss was over in Jan. I'm ok mentally about it. But mind is where yours is... im wondering what plans we have going on at this point, or that point, incase i miscarry again. I'm having a hard time deciding if I want to let the anxiety go and be excited this time? Just to be crushed harder? Or not get attached yet so it softens the blow. It really sucks thinking that.

chocomom2

@tammy574 I had an early loss recently and I do not know what is best - be numb or get excited. I mean I think it is healthy to stay positive, but I am having a hard time doing that because I am afraid of the fall if this pregnancy doesn't last. I'm sorry you are struggling. Do you have a therapist or someone you can talk to? I think it is so helpful to me to hear that my feelings are valid and normal and to help me work through the pain and anxiety.

@doxiemoxie212 I plan to tell my mom when I see her this Friday. I can't not tell my mom! And I laughed out loud at jump out of a box. What do you mean? Like she opens the door and you are in a box and you jump out shouting "I'm Pregnant!" hahaha

@silvergreen You have been through a lot of uneasiness with this pregnancy already - I don't blame you for feeling extra anxiety! FX you continue to get good news and good test results. 

doxiemoxie212

@chocomom2 lol okay, so we live in NYC, and my mom lives in CA. She lives on a big, twisty hill, so to get to her house, you walk down like 50 stairs from the street. Basically she's on the down part of the hill instead of the up part, if that makes sense? So all mail, packages, cars, etc, are up at the street level. We haven't told her we're coming, and we'll be in a rental car, so I think I'm going to park a few houses up, have DH film out the window (lol), put myself in a giant cardboard box that I'll label to look like mail with addresses, etc., on it, and then call her from inside the box and be like, "Mom, I sent you a package, did you get mail yet today? UPS tracking said it arrived." She's really paranoid about people stealing her packages so she'll race upstairs. DH is worried she'll have a heart attack, though, so I'm weighing that (slim) possibility with my own giddiness about this idea. 

Alternate ideas:

1. I just hide behind her car; no box (less fun) 
2. We just go downstairs and knock (zero fun because the dog will start barking, and she'll look outside and see us coming down the stairs)

chocomom2

@doxiemoxie212 Could you do everything you said at the beginning but actually have something in a box besides yourself? Like a Grandma photo frame or a onesie or something that says I grandma. You can still video it from the car and see her confused face and then she will look around and you will be there!

doxiemoxie212

@chocomom2 well, so there are a few surprises lol.  1) hi, we're here!, 2) btw, DH's parents and one of his brothers is coming in a few days, 3) we're pregnant! lol lol So, I think I would jump out of the box, and then be like I HAVE MORE SURPRISES FOR YOU! I'll tell her about DH's parents and brother coming in, and then I made a card for her that says:

Front: "Congratulations! You're retiring at the end of 2017!"  (she is retiring from her actual job in December)
Inside: "But in 2018, you're getting promoted! Baby [Doxiemoxie] due June 2018"

And I think I'll get some kind of onesie about grandmas being cool or something. 

(DH's parents and his brother are coming partially because it's my aunt's 70th birthday and partially because my mom is retiring from a very cool place and it will be their last time to go have lunch there, etc.)

I sort of want to be lame and put the initial surprises (minus the baby stuff) on my instagram or snapchat story because our friends will think it's hilarious, but not ready to have all the baby stuff public yet (not that many people follow me at all lol). DH's response is, "do you want your mom's first heart attack on your instagram story too?" Sigh. 

ETA: I should clarify that we are not coming in or surprising her because of the pregnancy. We're coming in for her sister's 70th birthday. She was sad DH couldn't get time off for it but then he was able to and originally I forgot I hadn't told her but then I thought a surprise would be funny. 

bkrahn

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)
I'm 24. DH and I struggled with infertility for 3 years before conceiving DD (1.5 years old) using a sperm donor. We had 2 natural conceptions (both ending in early loss) within the past 5 months. Now pregnant with a sperm donor again & praying desperately for this to last!

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
5w1d - Finding out!

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Tender nipples. All the bloat! nausea the comes & goes with hunger. Intense hunger pains, but I can never decide what I'm actually hungry for.. nothing sounds appealing. Mild stretching cramps at times. Also the acne of a teenager.

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 
Most days I'm okay. Had some minor spotting after sex last week, so that put me on edge. Didn't take a pregnancy test for a few days, and this morning the lines came back SO much darker than last week.. so that made me feel better. I've now passed my loss mark from our last pregnancy.. I keep trying to reassure myself that God's got this, and I feel optimistic that this pregnancy is here to stay. I ordered a swaddle blanket last week, which was a huge step. I just really want to fast forward a few weeks to our first ultrasound. I will feel SO much better once we see a heartbeat.. our last two pregnancies ended before we ever got to see one.

5. When is your next appointment? 
Another round of Betas next week.

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

For any STM's on here.. can children pick up on your pregnancy this early? My daughter has been SO attached to me this past week, and refuses to sleep anywhere but in my arms, which she hasn't done in so long. I'm starting to wonder if it's pregnancy related..

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?

We met through mutual friends 9 years ago. I was actually on a first (and last) date with another guy, and for whatever reason, DH took it upon himself to make our date SO awkward for us. I was so pissed at him, and swore I never wanted to see him again. Well, 2 months later I had made plans to hang out with one of his friends.. and when he picked me up, DH was in the back seat of his car. I was furious. I had to sit in the back seat with him, and there was suddenly this weird sexual tension between us HAHA. We spent the whole night talking and the rest is history.

BurlapandLace

Ok. My line was darker today on my HPT. I decided to call the doctor today to see if I could get in to see her on Friday (next time she is in). I had planned to wait and call on Monday, but I was worried she would be booked and I would have to wait until next Friday to see her. And I don’t have that many more cheapie tests left. Haha. 

So so I just called. She is booked on Friday but the nurse saw my history in the computer and said she’s going to talk to my doctor and see if my doc will just order labs so I can get in sooner instead of having to wait to see her to pee on a stick before she will order labs. So now I’m waiting to hear back about that. 

PatientlyWaiting10

@doxiemoxie212  Could you do kind of a scavenger hunt or something to surprise her?  Instead of you being in the box, put a note in the box that says, look for your other package in X spot and then You be there?  Probably not as fun, but maybe less of a chance of a heart attack that way since she may suspect something.  Or do any of your other family members know you're going to surprise her?  Will they be there and say, oh I saw you had a package out there, better go get it, and they have excuses to not go with her then you be there somehow?  I love surprises like that!!!  SO FUN!! 

doxiemoxie212

@PatientlyWaiting10 My mom lives alone, and unfortunately her dog (well, really she's our dog, but she's been on extended summer vacation with my mom haha) will hear us upstairs immediately and start barking, and my mom will go investigate because she always does. If we drive up and by chance my mom is out at the grocery store or something then we could do that, though lol. I will put together a plan B. 

I really don't think she'll have a heart attack. She's never had any blood pressure issues, and she's been vegan for the vast majority of her life lol. 

silvergreen

@BurlapandLace Having the draw on Friday, which means I won't hear back until Monday.

Thought about things a little more today and not entirely sure I'm satisfied with the internal exam I had. I think she probably focused on my uterus only; it's entirely possible the bladder could prolapse, also. I feel it more when I'm sitting or standing. Scheduled another appointment for tomorrow at a completely new OB/GYN to get a second opinion.

silvergreen

@jsl82 Are you in West Chester, PA?? If so, I'm your neighbor!

napqueen

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating) I’ll *hopefully* be a STM, I’m 25, early MC this past summer. 

2. How far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue? 5 weeks 3 days, EDD 6/3, Team Green

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
The nausea hit this morning, I didn’t have that last time so I’m welcoming it (for now). 

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 
I’m trying to stay calm and optimistic, but can’t help but be nervous. 

5. When is your next appointment? 
Next Thursday 

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Why are all of the foods DS wants to eat so damn smelly? I’m having major bacon/ham aversions and all he will eat is leftover fried rice with bacon. I’m gagging. 

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?
We met in high school, we dated during my senior year and freshman year in college. Broke up for a few years but started talking again after we matched on Tinder lol, we’ve been together ever sense! Our one year anniversary was this past June!

napqueen

silvergreen said:

@BurlapandLace Having the draw on Friday, which means I won't hear back until Monday.

Thought about things a little more today and not entirely sure I'm satisfied with the internal exam I had. I think she probably focused on my uterus only; it's entirely possible the bladder could prolapse, also. I feel it more when I'm sitting or standing. Scheduled another appointment for tomorrow at a completely new OB/GYN to get a second opinion.

@silvergreen kudos for advocating for yourself! I don’t know if I’d take that much initiative if I was put in the same situation. 

jsl82

@silvergreen we are actually in Drexel Hill...but we are still pretty close

Dashaina

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)

 TW I endured my first loss on 8 Sept 2015 at 10wks with my 3 pg, after going in for my first appointment. In this area they kind of do things at your request.. Not really following a list or standard. So my doctor had offered me an u/s and I said sure... Anyway there was no HB and the development was only 8wk 2/3 days. I was sent to the hospital on the mainland for confirmation and it was confirmed. So they took me to the operations room and performed a D&C. I was in a unfamiliar hospital in a foreign country who's language is not my own (I have decent Spanish, but wouldn't say fluent.) without my husband or any family. If it wasn't for my amazing taxista and his wife... I don't know what I would have done. It was a rough moment in my life. But I made my peace with it by the time I made it home the next day. Don't get me wrong I still tear up if I talk about it out loud. But I know CroAbs are out of our hands. It is truly a amazing we exist at all with all the things that have to go right for a miniature human to be created...heck even just conceived is mind boggling with the obstacle course those sperm traverse!

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?

 5 wks, 5days. 1 June (based on O) At the moment I'm team green. But we'll see. I have been accurate at predicting both my living children in utero.. And atm I think it's another girl!! Yay! But I am happy with whatever we get and just hope for healthy and whole. 

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

 Exhausted. Sharp twinges when I am laying down and cough. Insomnia whenever I wake up at odd hours in the middle of the night. My boobs have grown by 2 inches. Yes I measure myself regularly for exercising purposes. They feel full and firm. Peeing a lot. Dry skin and dry mouth. Uterine stretching and my all time favorite party crasher... Gas. 

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 

Meh. I have good days and bad days. Days I'm distracted are good days. Today was a good day. 

5. When is your next appointment? 

I do not have one and have not been to a doctor. 

 6.  Dear Diary... 

 Can I get through this time unscathed, less anxious and with a beautiful baby? I would even be willing to stop using the eff word on a daily basis if this could happen. Pretty please? 

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?

 Short version... Online. Because of Hooters and a friend. 

Dashaina

@bkrahn I'm a ttm to be and think they can... Because my oldest who is the least bit snuggly started being cuddly and super loving and tender, while laying pressed against me around what would have been 3wks. She is 7 next week. We told them both the day I confirmed with an HPT.. But she was doing the cuddle thing for the entire time up till that day and is still doing it. She was also like that with dd2. And about buying something for permanence... I actually bought a lot of 20 previously owned cloth diapers (great price, amazing condition) last week on ebay...fx.

@doxiemoxie212 I just about peed myself laughing.. Imagining your stunt with the box. How much fun would that be!! Yes! Hahahahhaha

kbrown2385

1. Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)

31 y/o, have a 2 year old son, 2 previous miscarriages

2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?

5 weeks today, team green!

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)

Some cramping and my breasts are tender on and off. Have some nausea in the morning but nothing major yet.

4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) 

Doing ok. Feeling really positive about his pregnancy. 

5. When is your next appointment? 

First scan is 10/16. I have been getting blood draws this week and the next one is tomorrow. Fingers crossed the numbers keep rising.

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)

I wish I could be thay naive person who doesn't have any cares when it comes to pregnancy. This anxiety is for the birds

bkrahn

@kbrown2385 I know what you mean. I keep trying to remember if I even noticed any of these early cramps when I was pregnant with DD. probably not, because I wouldn't have thought anything of them. I had no past losses at that point to compare them to. Anytime I felt anything I just thought "oh! It's because I'm pregnant! Yay!" but now every time I feel anything but normal.. I think a million different other things. PGAL brain is the worst. 

kbrown2385

Yes, exactly! Super frustrating. I'm sure my husband is already tired of all the over analyzing I've been doing and the tests I keep taking. I'm just ready for it to be December already. I'll feel better then. 

silvergreen

Just wanted to update those who might be interested in the second/new OB/GYN visit I had today. This nurse had a super friendly and reassuring beside manner, and was much more informative when giving me the internal exam. Rather than the nondescript "everything looks normal" line, she told me, "Cervix looks great, nice and firm, tightly closed." She elaborated that she sees nothing of concern whatsoever. She also thinks that my "tampon" feeling is just a lot of swelling in the tissues that are causing me to be extra sensitive. I'll take this as the reason for now, and see how things go. She said I could lubricate and see if that helps.

She also wasn't concerned with the on-and-off brown spotting. She explained to me that there are a lot of capillaries that become engorged during pregnancy and can rupture from doing normal activities leading to brown blood/spotting. It's almost like she understood how anxious I was and what I needed to hear, which basically was a thorough explanation of all my symptoms. I think I'm going to switch to this practice.

Plus, they had warming stirrups covered in a fuzzy purple fabric! I had to laugh, it was great! Oh, and they had an ultrasound machine on-site, which my original OB/GYN doesn't. Bonus points!

PatientlyWaiting10

 @silvergreen Glad your appointment went well!!  Warm stirrups sound fantastic!!  Makes it a little easier to "saddle up" when they're warm!  I'm always freezing when I have to have those kinds of exams!  But really, I'm so glad you are at ease for the moment!! 

bkrahn

@silvergreen so glad to hear your appt went well! Totally know what you mean, sometimes it helps to know WHY things are normal. I always appreciate a good explanation too, helps ease that mind a bit 

catlady1215

@silvergreen glad you feel better after this apt! and def bonus points for those stirrups lol.

BurlapandLace

@silvergreen I am so glad you went in for a second appointment and got some answers that are much more answer-y. Hope all goes well with your draw tomorrow too. Keep us updated 

BurlapandLace

I ended up calling my doctor yesterday afternoon to see if I could get in to see her on Friday to start the confimation of pregnancy and labs with her office. I hadn’t originally planned to wait until Monday to call, but my lines on my sticks at home were giving me anxiety and if I called on Monday, I was worried I wouldn’t be able to get in until possibly next Friday because of her limited hours (1/2 day Monday afternoons, all day Tuesday and all day Friday). 

So anyways. I called yesterday and they said she is only working Friday morning this week and she was completely booked  
But the nurse saw my history in the computer and got a message to my doctor seeing if I could just go straight to labs without having to wait to see her to pee on a stick first. Labs got ordered late last night, so I went in this morning and got my first draw done. And I will be going in on Saturday morning for the second. 

*TW* Also, today is the dpo we had our CP last time. So it’s a weird day for me today 

twelvetwosomeonenew

 Tell us about yourself (if your first participating)
Re-intro, so many new ladies! I am 31, with a 12 year old, and a two year old-- both uneventful pregnancies and super easy deliveries, followed by two miscarriages. A missed miscarriage at 10 week, and then 2 months later we got pregnant again, but lost it at 6 weeks. 
2. how far along are you? EDD? Team green pink or blue?
5 weeks tomorrow! We will find out.  I'm rooting for a Girl, but I feel like this ones a Boy.

3. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
i.am.exhausted. just sooooo tired. And sore books. 
4. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) got the results from our first two blood draws today, so at the moment i am feeling GREAT! went from 65 to 142 in 50 hours. With our last 2 losses best as didn't double. 

5. When is your next appointment? more blood tomorrow, and then an actual appointment on 10/18 (very early for my office, so not sure what to expect with that)

6. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
my ob is a rockstar. His nursing staff has notes in my file to call in an hcg lab anytime I ask for one. ♡ today is a good day, and those can be hard to come by in forst tri, so I am going to live it up! 

7. GTKY – How did you and your SO meet?
I was his boss. Haha. We both worked in a restaurant together for 2 years before we even went on a date. I was freshly divorced, so we dated for 5  years & have now been married for 3 more. ♡

jsl82

@silvergreen yay for a new doctor!!  Having a doctor that helped (as much as possible) ease my nerves helped so much last year when I was pregnant with DD.  If I don't like my new doctor I'll have to PM you for your new doctor's information since we are almost neighbors!

silvergreen

Thanks, ladies!!

@jsl82 Absolutely! Just let me know!

catlady1215

Having a bad PGAL day. Second day that my sickness is barely there. Like really barely there right now. And slightly crampy. My boobs are atleast still sore. I hate this all so much 

silvergreen

@catlady1215 I hear you. I have to keep stopping myself from reading things in an attempt to reassure myself because it always backfires somehow. Just know that you're not alone in this.

doxiemoxie212

@catlady1215 aw, lady **creepy internet hugs**

I haven't gotten sick at all yet. Like zero nausea or aversions, zero cravings. I feel like a sleepy version of myself with sore boobs. I started to panic about it yesterday (because I'm 6 weeks today, shouldn't I be sick by now??) and DH was like, "no, stop it, just try to feel happy you don't feel bad right now. Maybe sickness is coming, maybe something bad is coming, but today everything is fine so just enjoy that."  And he's right. Maybe something bad is coming, and if it is I'll feel bad/terrible then, but I don't need it to preemptively ruin now, and you don't either! I know it feels like you're protecting your heart with worry, etc, but truly, you'll feel devastated if something bad happens regardless of how you feel or treat these moments now, right?

So, today we're pregnant and not sick. Yay!  

Dashaina

@catlady1215 I agree with all the other ladies. It's really hard to enjoy the moments, but do it.  Because it will definitely make things better.  

I am also having a bad day, emotionally, I had some extended bathroom time TMI loose BMW TMI this morning.  And now with this pit flare up duct thing, I'm just like WTF.  I am tired, cranko, emo, not sick TTL (thank the lord), and feeling famished but not hungry at the same time...and DH isn't here today and I'm with my girls all day I just want to lay curled up in a ball and weep for everything.  and of course I'm over thinking all of my symptoms...like what if the BM is a sign of something bad happening, what if I ate something that is in me right now causing problems.  Yes, I know, silly over active imagination, but it's real and it's happening and I am tearful for all of us that go through this journey under these circumstances.  I've managed to NOT check with Dr. Google today, so I guess that's something, right? bleh.

@doxiemoxie212 I also do not have any MS.  I haven't at all.  I have had what I thought might be food aversions yesterday, but idk.  I also didn't have ANY MS with DD1, not a drop and with DD2 I had it ALLDAY from 6 weeks through 14 weeks. so idk what to think either, I'm kinda happy I don't have it atm, considering all the rest of the garbage on me today.

Yay for today we're all pregnant and not sick!!