PGAL / PAIF Weekly Check-in 9/26-10/2/17

NYTino24

This thread is for women who are pregnant after a loss and who have a history of loss or for women who have struggled with infertility and are now pregnant.

This thread is one huge trigger warning so if you just came to read, please protect yourself if you are not comfortable reading about loss.  This is a place where women can talk freely about their loss history.

*****PLEASE DO NOT post losses here. Start a new thread. *****

Hey PGAL / PAIF ladies, "Today you are pregnant!"   

1. How far along are you today?

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing.

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes?

4. How is your SO handling everything?

5. GTKY: What song makes you think of your little one coming?

MKMandeville

1. How far along are you today?

34+1


2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing.

-early miscarriage/CP confirmed via blood work 4+2 August 2016
- ectopic pregnancy confirmed via ultrasound and blood work between 5-6 weeks September 2016 (Thursday will be our 1 year anniversary of our ER visit and I'm dreading waking up that day). 


3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes?

A little tired but not too bad. Just trying to rest while at the same time finishing some chores. 

Struggles- at my appointment yesterday I was told that I was progressing and at 2cm dilated and fully effaced. He told me he cannot put an accurate estimate on her birthday as he has had women 100% effaced go into labor that day, some in a couple of days and some in a couple of weeks. He did say with my history with DD and how long I was at 1cm and went to 1.5cm and 50% he thinks it will be in the next week or two. I knew his estimate was between 35-37 but I still wasn't mentally prepared to hear that. 

Success- I had a growth ultrasound yesterday afternoon because last week I lost weight and was measuring behind. Well a majority of her measurements are measuring two weeks ahead with the exception of two measuring right on track. The tech is also calculating she currently weighs 5 lbs 13oz. When I asked her how accurate they usually are she said they could be off about a pound either way but she said since most of her measurements are on the higher end she thinks it is pretty accurate or even 6lbs already. Hearing how big she was already and knowing everything looks good on the ultrasound made me feel a little better about the strong possibility of me delivering in the next week or two. 

4. How is your SO handling everything?

We are both pretty nervous now but he seems to be hiding it better. His main concern right now is how to balance his new job/working from home/helping with a toddler and newborn all at the same time. 


5. GTKY: What song makes you think of your little one coming?

"You make beautiful things." - Gungor

DungeonTrollMel

1. How far along are you today? 30+6

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing.
MMC at 9 weeks feb 2016, 2 chemicals in April and June 2016, MC at 6.5 weeks in October 2016
Ivf with PGS testing, transferred 2 in march and one still growing 

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes?
stressed out a lot more lately. I am still waiting on the referral to the cardiologist to work up my palpitations and heart rate issues. We finally have our growth scan next week. We have had a formal ultrasound in 10 weeks. 

I want to ask mt doctor about his position at my appointment Thursday. I'm fairly certain he is transverse and I'd like to discuss flipping him sooner rather than later since he's been like this for a really long time and I'm worried about growth with he doesn't have as much space this way. 

My success is i kept up all weekend in Chicago with my brothers. We did two sports games with tons of waking and stairs and I didn't have any BH or problems. Just sore legs 

4. How is your SO handling everything?
hes super overprotective as always. He's asking when we will start packing the hospital bags and get more things ready 

5. GTKY: What somg makes you think of your little one coming?
adele sweetest devotion 

Abby7

1. How far along are you today? Um, am I 33 weeks??? I think 33w2d

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing. Two 10 week MMC - October 2010 and October 2016. One daughter born March 2012.

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes? Overwhelmed like crazy.

Here was something that happened that I had no idea how to handle. We had a backyard party last weekend, an annual event we co-host with our neighbors. At the buffet, I'm getting food with a bunch of people around and this one woman goes "Wait, weren't you pregnant at this last year too?". I just denied it. Oh yes lady, I have no idea who you are or how you knew I was 6 weeks pregnant exactly a year ago but OBVIOUSLY it didn't go well or else I would not be standing here 8 months pregnant today. I felt dumb denying it - she was like, really? I thought you were? - but what else could I say when all the other people around had no idea.

4. How is your SO handling everything? He's OK, he's doing things to get ready, which is good.

5. GTKY: What somg makes you think of your little one coming? Danny's Song. It came on the radio right when I got my first BFP back in 2010 (which turned into my first MC) and for years it has made me emotional to hear it. 

YesOuiCan

1. How far along are you today? 31+4

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing. 18 cycles TTC, several cycles of treatment.

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes?
I feel great today!
Struggles: I tend to have a lot of pelvic pressure as baby sits pretty low, and a lot of Braxton Hicks. 
Successes: Yesterday I got a gallery wall done in the nursery which makes it look/feel really done. I've also been getting on top of kegels, squats and hypnosis work for birth prep. I feel like I've got my sh** together and am so excited to bring this baby into the world.

4. How is your SO handling everything? Really well! He is reading The Birth Partner and that is getting him more involved with labor prep and more aware of what needs to be done in the coming weeks, which I really appreciate. He's been taking notes and is going to be a great labor support person.

5. GTKY: What song makes you think of your little one coming? What a great question! There are two that come to mind. The first is "Beautiful Boy" by John Lennon (we don't know the sex of our baby, but this song still really gets me). The second is absolutely ridiculous: Call Me Maybe makes me tear up whenever it comes on the radio! It's the line "before you came into my life I missed you so bad." I honestly bawled the first time I heard it while pregnant and still can't hear it without crying. I feel like I've missed this baby so bad my whole life, but especially during the struggles of trying to conceive.

Abby7

@YesOuiCan - I know what you mean! I have a similar one with my daughter. When she was an infant (2012), we lived next to an elementary school, and they started doing this morning outdoor exercise program and would play the song "Glad You Came" really loud for the kids to exercise to, so I heard it daily while getting ready. For whatever reason, the lyrics just got to me - "the universe will never be the same, I'm glad you came" - and it still does. Probably postpartum hormones plus the loss, but right now I'm thinking about it and feeling emotional.

angbaby83

1. How far along are you today? 31w 5 d 

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing. cp april 2016 mmc 11/17/2016 no hb at 12 week appt. Baby was 11 wks. 

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes? I have been having a rough time. So uncomfortable and also thinking a lot about being pregnant last year at this time.   I had no idea I would be so emotional.  I thought getting by the EDD was my big hurdle.  Baby is due one year and one day after the date of my d&c.  On a positive note baby is moving like crazy and reassuring me everything is ok.   

4. How is your SO handling everything? He is the best.  He has been super helpful and is enjoying the classes and trying to learn everything he can.  Plus picking up on my slack because pregnancy has definitely kicked my butt. 

5. GTKY: What somg makes you think of your little one coming? my husband has been playing classical music for the baby which gets the baby to move quite a bit.   No particular song but it has been a neat experience for my husband and me and I treasure that time we get to spend together talking about our new family and also enjoying special time just the two of us.  

NYTino24

1. How far along are you today? 32+3

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing. NMC at 7w6d in Jan.

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes? I'm starting to get nervous over this preterm labor stuff like something might go wrong. I also just found out that his due date is World Prematurity Day. I hope we make it to full term. 

4. How is your SO handling everything? He didn't seem to concerned at the hospital. 

5. GTKY: What song makes you think of your little one coming? 
There are a few I've said before - "H.O.L.Y." and "Somewhere Over the Rainbow", but let's add Dan + Shay "From the Ground Up" (even if it's about a girl baby

NYTino24

@MKMandeville I hope your LO stays put for longer!
@angkay711 Hugs! EDD are really rough. 

YesOuiCan

@Abby7 Ahh, yeah, I had never thought about the lyrics to that song before, but I can definitely see how that would make you emotional! What a sweet line. I'm so glad your daughter is in the universe!

dragonfly87-2

This week has been crazy, so late to posting.
NYTino24 Sorry to hear you are in pre-term labor. I tried to catch up through posts, but are you back on track to hopefully get to your EDD? 

MKMandeville Crossing fingers your baby stays put for a while longer!


1. How far along are you today? 32w2d

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing. CP in December 2016

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes?
Not too bad today. Had a prenatal massage this morning, which was great....other than LO kicking me in the side the entire time. 
Lately, my bladder keeps feeling really full...and then I go to pee, and nothing comes out. I also have a lot of pelvic pressure and and occasional tightening/spasms. Dr. said it could be nothing or just braxton hicks. But it feels like someone is punching me in the vag...not a pleasant feeling.

4. How is your SO handling everything?
Pretty good. He needs to do some more reading of the Birth Partner (part of our doula agreement) and finish things in the nursery...so I am trying not to nag him, but wanting him to just get it done.

We did have a conversation about my parents coming out after LO is born. My mother wants to stay for 3 weeks to help me when DH goes back to work (he is only taking 1.5 weeks off). I would like the help, but he made a comment about me and my getting to spend more time with our LO than he gets to. Well...that's going to happen regardless because he doesn't have time off. Ugh, I get his concern, but there isn't really a good solution. He works in education as well and luckily will have 2 weeks off for winter break about 3-4 weeks after she is born.

5. GTKY: What song makes you think of your little one coming?
Hmm....maybe the Rockabye song by Clean Bandit and Sean Paul.

NYTino24

@dragonfly87-2 He's still in there and contractions have stopped for the third time. 

cwalker042

 1.How far along are you today?
32 weeks

2. Share any part of your history you feel comfortable sharing.
MC in October at 11 weeks. Baby was measuring 7 weeks. 

3. How are you feeling today?  Struggles?  Successes?
Today I feel pretty good. Spent the whole day deep cleaning the house including steam cleaning the carpets. I'm not sure where the energy came from. I've been feeling so lethargic the past few weeks. Sleeping is a struggle. I'm up at least 5-7 times a night to use the bathroom. Turning over and getting out of bed are a huge struggle. The baby doesn't move much which makes me pretty nervous. Sometimes she will only move 2-3 times a day, if that, and it's usually just a quick kick or her just changing positions. I started putting up our Halloween decorations today! 

4. How is your SO handling everything?
Calm cool and collective as always. 
5. GTKY: What somg makes you think of your little one coming?
I actually cannot think of one right now. 

DungeonTrollMel

For all of us mamas who know all too well the hurt and pain of remembrance this October (pregnancy and infant loss awareness month), I wish I could give you all great big hugs. We are almost to our birth month