***TW - Loss Mentioned***

katmarie13

First, thank you all for all your prayers and support over the last few days. I got the call from the dr office this morning. Hcg levels dropped and it's a confirmed miscarriage. I was so hopeful because they downloaded notes from the visit that I read last night on the portal and it said the fetal core is there and it wasn't there 2 days prior. So I was hoping that since it grew everything was going to be okay.  I have never been through something like this, never even thought something would happen. I just feel so stupid for being so excited and am just so devastated. 

I have to go back to the OB on Monday morning and they said they might have to do a D&C. I have no clue, but looking online it is not something I want to have done. I just want this to be over with. The slowness of how it occurs might be one of the worst parts of this. 

livingoffpbjs

I am so sorry Thoughts and prayers for you.

burnsmommy27

Oh no, I didn't want to see this. I'm so sorry. Prayer for you and your family as you deal with this. Take care of yourself. 

BelhurstBride

I am so, so sorry you have to go through this. 

The girls on the miscarriage and pregnancy loss board are awesome and may help talk you through your choices. I'm sure your doctor is going to recommend waiting for it to happen naturally, to take a pill to speed along the process or the D&C. There are pros and cons to each. 

amberrmariee20

Oh no, sorry for your loss momma, hopefully you can find peace 

gusgus14

Oh no I'm so sorry. Lots of love your way

[Deleted User]

Oh momma, I'm so sorry. Please take care of yourself. Hugs 

beesquar3d

I'm sorry for your loss.

remindmeofthebabe

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't feel stupid for being excited, you couldn't have known this would happen. Be gentle with yourself.

missblaze

I'm so, so sorry. Sending healing vibes.

sonalisharma

So sorry to hear that. Take care, let time do the healing..hugs.

baileym9126

I'm so sorry for your loss ❤️

mdfarmchick

I'm so sorry @katmarie13 Thinking of you and saying prayers. 

PleaseSendPicklesNow

I'm so, so sorry. Remember, it's not your fault. Be gentle with yourself,  and take as much time to heal as you need.

ryannenikole

I'm so sorry for your loss hun. I was hoping for good news for you. Don't feel silly for being excited. I've had two miscarriages (both natural-I never had to do a D&C or take the medication) and it is a really hard experience. Take good care of yourself physically and allow yourself to grieve. Lots of love!

cyanope

Oh, @katmarie13, I'm SO sorry that you had to go through this. Do NOT beat yourself up about being excited. You had every right to be. And you'll be excited again too. Please be gentle with yourself and take time to heal. 

libbberty

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Reading your post, I remember feeling exactly the same way a few months ago - know that you are not alone. Sending you love and peace.

aimsforyou2014

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I repeat what everyone else said above about be kind and gentle with yourself. 
You are not alone. Sending lots of love and prayers your way. 

hunt_adventure_society

So terribly sorry for your loss. If it's any encouragement, I had a D&C the month before we got our BFP and I thought it would be agony, but really wasn't. I took it easy for a few days, let my honey take care of me, and I didn't even need to touch the pain meds they gave me. I'm praying your experience is similar, and the road to recovery is smooth, for both your body and your heart. Give yourself the time and room to feel everything you need to feel. Sending you all the love & light. 

labgrand2012

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs during this very difficult time.

jesscmv

So sorry, we're here if you need support!

GraceUponGrace09

@katmarie13 I am so sorry! Don't feel bad for being excited. I enjoyed reading your posts. Praying for you. ((HUGS))

zamoraspin

@katmarie13 I am so sorry for your loss, I was following your story and hoping for a different outcome for you. Take care of yourself. 

EmilyLove25

Hugs. And please please do not feel stupid. And I promise if you have to end up doing a D&C, you will be okay. It is a quick process and your body will recover perfectly. Hugs again! I'm so sorry.

trudytudy

So sorry for the loss. Take care. 

gulimz

I'm so sorry for loss

Dani0329

I'm so sad to read this.  Thinking and praying for you.

fivetimesnoluck

Shit! I am so sorry for your loss. You are not alone. I second what @BelhurstBride said about the MC/Loss board. It may provide some comfort and answers as you navigate next steps. Usually a decision about D&C or natural doesn't have to be made right away, so take your time.

I hope that your SO and family provide you the support you need in the coming weeks. You will be in my thoughts. Sending you huge hugs.

KatieEl

I'm so sorry for your loss, sending you lots of love, peace, and healing

darkrose88

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you all the virtual hugs! 

CANTW82BMOM

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't be hard on yourself. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May you find peace and strength during this difficult time. 

hmlynch84

I'm so sorry for your loss. I've had one miscarriage and the grief and confusion and pain of it all is overwhelming. Just rest and take care of yourself, and give yourself time to heal. You're not alone in this, so so so many women experience this unfortunately. 

katmarie13

Thanks for all your kind words. I feel so alone. On top of everything else I have going on, my boyfriend broke up with me. We got in a fight because he texted me saying he wishes there was something he could do. I responded that he could be here with me so I didn't feel alone and didn't have to go through this by myself. He came over a few hours later and was so cold. When I asked why he couldn't even look at me, he packed all his stuff that he was temporarily storing, told me he fell out of love weeks ago, and that he isn't going to be with me anymore. He said he knows timing sucks, but he is done. I'm at a loss for words. My family lives too far away and no one else knows what is going on. I'm in so much physical and emotional pain right now. He told me that he wanted to break up with me right before I found out I was pregnant. He said that now that we aren't going to have the baby, he wanted to tell me that this made him realize how much he doesn't want more kids (he has 2 preteens). Even though this wasn't planned, we always talked about having kids together over the past year. We planned on later, but he even wanted them sooner than I did. This just feels like a nightmare that I'm in. He told me there is no chance at all of us fixing us because he doesn't love me at all anymore and he wants to work on himself. He told me he hates being a dad and that he isn't a good dad and that the happiest he has ever seen me was when I was pregnant and he didn't want to rob me of the chance ever having children by staying with him.

Really, really crappy day. 

KatieEl

@katmarie13 I'm really sorry you're going through all of this, I can't even wrap my mind around your bf's response; heartbreaking.

ETA I hope someone in your family is able to help you through this, despite the distance. I'm sure they want to be there for you.

sjb2215

@katmarie13 I'm so sorry for everything that happened. Know you have support here, but hoping you can get some support from a friend or family never as well. Sending you hugs 

mcrosie

@katmarie13
that is so awful; I'm so sorry. And for your boyfriend to break up with you like that RIGHT AFTER it happened? What a selfish, immature prick he is. I'm really sorry. I hope you can find someone to share this awful news with because it sounds like you really need a better support network right now.

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@katmarie13 I'm so sorry. What a selfish a$$.

Peepster

@katmarie13 That's awful! I'm so sorry for everything that's happened. I hope that you're able to find the support you need, either here or with family and friends. Take care of yourself and take whatever time you need to heal, physically and emotionally. So many healing thoughts and creepy Internet hugs coming your way.

burnsmommy27

@katmarie13 what a dousche canoe. Reading this made me very angry for you. There's not enough words to say how sorry I am. Please reach out to someone you trust and get the much needed support. 

mdfarmchick

Wow. @katmarie13 Wow. He sounds like a complete dick. I am so sorry and I can't believe he would pile that shit on you after everything else. Please find someone to reach out to for support right now and feel free to let me know if you want to talk more off of the Bump. Huge hugs. 

NAP1029

I feel you girl; I've walked in those awful shoes. There's a reason this baby wasn't meant to be; you'll feel him/her with you forever. I'm so sorry. Honestly, as awful was the D&C sounds, it's the fastest path to healing mentally and physically. Be strong. You got this.