Low reserve frustrations. trigger loss

2yearsandcounting

We have been trying to conceive for two years. It's started off exciting but quickly turned emotional. We were ready, why was it taking so long.

Just as we reached our first year of trying we got that happy little plus sign. I don't either of us had ever been happier. Which made the bad news so very hard to hear. We went at 12 weeks for our ipswich test only to discover our baby little heart had stopped. Our world just stopped spinning.

But we want to be parents... so we started all over again.  Doctors soon got involved, Running tests. We finally got the results in today. They didn't find anything that would explain why we haven't had a success conception and live birth in 2 years... but we did learn at the age of 32 I have ever view few eggs left. So not only am I having trouble conceiving but someone has sped up the clock. Now we are trying iui this cycle and IVF if that doesn't work. I'll never stop trying... but statistics are against me and I just feel so defeated.  I just want someone to call me mom one day.

hoffmanr7

@2yearsandcounting I am so sorry for you tough road and your loss.  This is never an easy thing.  I think you will find lots of support here.  I hope your IUI goes well.  Fx for you.

eranvo27

I wish I had some profound words of wisdom or more comfort to offer. I hope IUI works for you guys!

tops-2

@2yearsandcounting I'm so sorry you have to be here.
There is nothing fair about any of this. I hope you have an amazing support system at home, because having that support is so important.

funkykey

@2yearsandcounting - ugh. Well, you've come to the right place for support. A lot of women here know exactly what it's like to try for years, and to experience loss. I hope you can find some support here, enough to keep you going - IUI and IVF are really tough.

Best of luck to you!

MommaWalla

@2yearsandcounting So sorry for your loss. Just know you are not alone and all hope is not lost. We'll be here for you! 
I just had my first IUI yesterday about to have 2 of 2 in less than an hour.
I also have low ovarian reserve (1.2 amh) I'm 31.5 an my DH is 38, we're also dealing with very low morphology. I felt hopeless at first but I decided I wasn't going to be defeated and I was going to do everything I can. I love reading success stories of people with a similar dx beating the odds... some naturally. It's very possible and that gives me hope. 
Best of luck! FX!