new gal around here

40momma

I guess I should stop lurking and introduce myself. I'm not sure if my head is ready to be here on this board yet but it gives me hope and helps me to think positively. 

This is all so new to me so please forgive me if I've used the wrong acronyms or not included a TW when I was supposed to.

In March/17 I started counting the days and recounting and then recounting again and realized the dates didn't line up. I was a week late, my breasts hurt and I felt queazy. I was completely shocked, NTNP but I kept thinking I'm either pregnant or perimenopausal ! Took a HPT and got my BFP and we both fell in love with our little appleseed. But at 7w3d I had my first US and OB sent me home heartbroken. I m/c naturally and am currently still spotting but I need to focus on better things so here I am, with hope for brighter days ahead. 

I'm 40 and SO is 41. We spent the last 18 years thinking we would TTC in just a few more years... But we got the little kick in the butt that we so badly needed, our little surprise made us instantly realize, we are more than ready but now I'm scared to death that we maybe left it too late. 

I'm not sure if I have the strength to TTC yet (I guess I'm technically what you call benched for a full cycle or two anyway) but I figured I'd say hello as you all sound so incredibly supportive. 

MimoCa

@40momma sorry for your loss but welcome to our group of very supportive ladies. I hope your stay is short. There are quite a few of us who are also benched as well. I seem to be benched indefinitely so I will be around for a while.

vlagrl29

Sorry for your loss - hopefully you get pregnant again soon!

amberruka

Welcome @40momma, I'm so sorry for your loss. 

tlq0726

So, so sorry for your loss. We are definitely here to help and support. We're all in this together. Welcome!

splashmountain

Hi @40momma I'm so sorry for your loss, but welcome to the group

SP128

So sorry for your loss. Hope your stay is short and sweet 

Mack2342

So sorry for your loss.  I hope it's a short stay.  I will be 42 end of month.  ***TW**** I had my first son at 40 and totally healthy.  Just wanted to let you that there is hope 

msstephanielynn

So sorry for your loss. Welcome to the group!

dpjennifer

Sorry for your loss, but welcome.  Also, did you know you still have a 'ticker' for your last PG in your signature?  Just don't want you to forget and then see it months from now and get upset!

40momma

Thank you ladies for the kind words. 
@dpjennifer - ugh, thank you for letting me know, I thought I had it turned off. Heartbreaking to go back and see where I would've been. I really hope I didn't offed anyone with it. 

rklinge0

So sorry for your loss. There is a benched thread if you want to join. I am self benched so it doesn't have to be medically benched either to chime in. 

dpjennifer

@40momma No problem!  I know many of us have done that and it's usually easier to deal with the heartbreak of taking it off earlier rather than later. Sorry you had to see it though

BelhurstBride

I am so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the group.