Sleep lady shuffle - feeling its necessary but devastated

sophiakadri

This post is just to vent... I am in the middle of sleep training my baby for the first time. He will soon be 11 months and has been sleeping horribly since birth. Never had more than a 2-3 hour stretch unless he he is sleeping with me and my breast is at his disposal (and I end up not sleeping). I did this method with his brother when he was the same age. But he has had a few bouts of asthma so it is much harder for me to let him cry, I feel like a crisis may start because of all the crying. Doctor said it shouldn't. But still. It breaks my heart. He cried for 55 minutes then fell asleep. 1,5 hours later he woke up again. Now it's been more than an hour and still wailing. I am devastated. I feel this is necessary but he is so sad right now... and me too. He is even losing his voice from all the screaming. It is so unfair that we have to use these methods to get a minimum of sleep! I love this baby so much, and I am afraid that he might not know it after  tonight.