Here's to STRONG women

klpangrcic

Through this infertility journey I've had times where I just hated everything about my body. I couldn't understand how this body, MY BODY, that works out regularly, is nourished with healthy food, and hasn't had any major medical issues, just can't hang on to a pregnancy/ become pregnant at all. I've written so many journal entries that mention how much I hated this empty vessel that couldn't do the most natural thing for a woman to do with her life. It's been a tough journey and I've faced some amazingly difficult obstacles and it wasn't until recently that my best friend reminded me how two people can have completely different perspectives on a situation. I messaged my best friend and mentioned how much of a failure I felt like; failing at being a good wife because I was preoccupied with treatment, failing at being a teacher because I can't give 100% in the classroom right now, failing at coaching because I'm caught up in my own life that I try very hard but it never seems to be enough, and failure at being a woman and mother because I can't conceive. It was a really low point and I felt like I was losing myself. She consoled me and said that she was here because she needs to remind me that she sees everything in such a different light. She said I was an amazing wife because I want to give a family to my husband, I'm succeeding at teaching and coaching because even though I feel like I can't give 100%, I still give 100% of what I have available. She reminded me that I do so much for these kids and that they might not realize it, but other people do. She also said that I'm a STRONG and FEARLESS woman because I've been able to handle all these different diagnoses and procedures and still get up each day to teach, coach, exercise, and be there for my friends when I'm hurting. 

So, this is my reminder to all y'all that are feeling like a failure and like you've been beaten to the ground. You are all some of the strongest warriors our there. A lot of people would not be able to handle what you go through. Most women would be paralyzed by daily injections, ultrasounds, being poked and prodded on a daily basis and then doing it all over again if it doesn't work that month. Most people would crumble, but you're standing. Keep moving forward and know you are walking amongst an army of strong women going through this battle together.

csp2017

This is really beautiful @klpangrcic, and so true. The infertility process hangs over everything we can do, and make us feel like we're not measuring up in any area of our life, but just the fact that we push through it really is a testament to our strength.

Thank you for sharing this! I needed to hear it today.

manders85-2

Thanks for this! This really helped out in a tough moment. @klpangrcic

IfYouCanDreamIt

That's beautiful and so true, thank you

rel_1987

@klpangrcic after thr day I've had. I needed to read this...Never know how strong you are until being strong is your only option to get through this 

gwinnyblack

Thank you a lot, I was tearing up the whole time while reading your posting. you are an amazing woman and your words are what I have been meaning to read, to hear for the whole time of my treatment. we all are warriors indeed but sometimes we forget about our accomplishments and cry, and feel bad, and feel devastated. we just can't help ourselves but feel like that, we need this reminder being read to us 24\7
thank you again!
xx

katherind

 Thank you for sharing this. I think many of us need that reminder every now and again of just how strong we are especially when we aren't feeling it some days. That was beautiful.