@HarleyQuinn7161. No words. Just know we're here. Sending you as much comfort as possible right now. To you and your DH. So so sorry to hear this. Much love.
@harleyquinn0621 I can't say anything others haven't said but I want to echo their thoughts & prayers for you. We are all thinking of you on this difficult day.
@harleyquinn0621 I am in great shock and disbelief, I am so sorry. My heart just breaks thinking of you. Stay strong, and please don't feel alone, we all are there for you any time you feel like talking.
@harleyquinn0621 I don't go here, but I am so so sorry, my heart is so broken for you. Sending so so many thoughts and prayers and hugs. All the love, girl.
@harleyquinn0621 There are not enough words to express how sorry and heartbroken I am. I'm sorry you had to make such a horrible decision. All my love and prayers. And so, so many hugs.
@harleyquinn0621 omg, I cannot believe you are going through this. I'm so sorry and wish I could do something to help. I'm so sorry you were put at such a crossroads and really had no control over the situation Please do what you need to do - if it helps you to stay around here and vent/grieve to us, please do. If it hurts too much, then please do whatever you need to protect yourself as much as you can. I'm so so sorry.
TTGP history (*TW*):
Started TTC Oct 2015 BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016 Re-started TTC Aug 2016 Started IF testing Nov 2016 Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017 BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
Thank you again everyone for your thoughts And prayers....baby Alexander was born on 4/13 at 9:10pm....we got to spend some time with him and will be having him cremated
Me: 36 years old DH: 42 years old
Married: 05.2012 TW:
TTC #1 Since April 2016 HSG/FSH/AMH/E2/SA all normal DX: unexplained IF spontaneous BFP 01/01/2017- Alexander was born sleeping 04/13/2017 at 19w1d ic/chorio September 2017 HSG #2 & Gonal-F/Femara/Ovidrel/IUI #1 = ep (Salpingectomy of left fallopian tube) spontaneous BFP 01/02/2018 EDD Aug 30th It's a GIRL! Cerclage placed on 03/02 Cerclage removal 08/02
@harleyquinn0621 I'm so sorry for your huge loss. I'm glad you were able to spend some time with Alexander. I hope it helps you to work through your grief process. It will not be easy and I hope you have someone irl who can support you through this time. We are here for you of course, but there's sometimes no replacement for an irl hug and listening ear/shoulder.
TTGP history (*TW*):
Started TTC Oct 2015 BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016 Re-started TTC Aug 2016 Started IF testing Nov 2016 Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017 BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
@harleyquinn0621 So many hugs.. your grief must be unimaginable. I hope you got to take pictures with your sweet Alexander. Thank you for updating us in this horrible time. Please do whatever you need to do to recover.. I will be here to support you in any way that you need.
Me: 27 years old DH: 27 years old Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
Married in July 2014
TTC #1 since late Feb 2016
BFP #1 3/29/16 MMC: 5/5/16 BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16 BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17 My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast: Juicebox Podcast Episode 118 A1Cs: 1/12/16 6.7% 5/25/16 6.0% 11/2/16 6.1% 3/22/16 5.8% 4/27/17 5.4% 6/13/17 5.3% "Sugar Fancy Tutu"
@harleyquinn0621 so so many hugs and thoughts and prayers to you and your family. What a great name. I am so sorry for your loss, I know there's nothing I can say to make it any better but I so wish I could. Take good care of yourself, my family will keep you in our prayers.
@harleyquinn0621 Oh i am so sorry you have to go through this and for your loss my dear. Many prayers, thoughts, creepy squishy internet hugs, and everything else under the sun and moon.
3 a.m. and I awoke to this terrible surge of PGAL anxiety that I have no explanation for, I just feel completely terrified that something is going to happen to this baby. I feel like I can't breathe and am going to have a panic attack, which I'm prone to get. I just feel really scared all of a sudden and I don't know why.
3 a.m. and I awoke to this terrible surge of PGAL anxiety that I have no explanation for, I just feel completely terrified that something is going to happen to this baby. I feel like I can't breathe and am going to have a panic attack, which I'm prone to get. I just feel really scared all of a sudden and I don't know why.
I'm so sorry... that is so hard, especially when you don't know why. Maybe a dream you don't remember? Try to keep reminding yourself you have no reason to think everything isn't perfect.
Unfortunately, I've been in that same boat the past few days, so I don't have much advice.
@heatherwilson321 I've had a couple dreams where I can't remember most of it but I know there was something triggering my pgal brain. I hope the anxiety subsides for you!
Re: PGAL Check In 4/12
BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016
Re-started TTC Aug 2016
Started IF testing Nov 2016
Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017
BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
TW:
HSG/FSH/AMH/E2/SA all normal DX: unexplained IF
spontaneous BFP 01/01/2017- Alexander was born sleeping 04/13/2017 at 19w1d ic/chorio
September 2017 HSG #2 & Gonal-F/Femara/Ovidrel/IUI #1 = ep (Salpingectomy of left fallopian tube)
spontaneous BFP 01/02/2018 EDD Aug 30th It's a GIRL!
Cerclage placed on 03/02
BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016
Re-started TTC Aug 2016
Started IF testing Nov 2016
Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017
BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T
Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16
BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17
My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog
My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast:
Juicebox Podcast Episode 118
A1Cs:
1/12/16 6.7%
5/25/16 6.0%
11/2/16 6.1%
3/22/16 5.8%
4/27/17 5.4%
6/13/17 5.3%
"Sugar Fancy Tutu"
Oh i am so sorry you have to go through this and for your loss my dear. Many prayers, thoughts, creepy squishy internet hugs, and everything else under the sun and moon.
Unfortunately, I've been in that same boat the past few days, so I don't have much advice.