I found out on Tuesday that the baby is transverse. I tried not to stress, but was upset the rest of that day and most of yesterday. My midwife called me in the late afternoon to talk to me about baby's position and what I/we can do to be proactive to get him/her to turn. I was so grateful for her reaching out to me and she left me feeling much more positive. I was totally crying on the phone with her.
I've been crying all evening cause basically I just don't wanna be pregnant anymore. My feet and ankles are swollen, I'm uncomfortable all the time, I can't sleep or poop, my back hurts, I'm just over it. When I got home from work my ankles looked like sausages about to pop and yet I still had to stay on my feet to cook dinner. After I ate I had just gotten my feet up and DH asked me to get DS's clothes out of the dryer so he could put his in. I don't know why I even got off the couch. I should have told him to kiss my ass but I did it. And the bending over repeatedly to get the clothes out after having just ate made me want to puke. I just went into the bathroom closed the door and cried.
I'm crying because I'm also feeling like crap, totally done with being pregnant, and upset at how much I suck as a wife.. I was fine then around lunch time I felt nauseous, cranky and my head started pounding. It hasn't stopped all night.. I fell asleep while watching a movie with DD... woke up feeling even worse and couldn't even walk I hurt so bad.. It's DHs birthday and I was miserable then totally just took that nap while he took care of DD. DD was whining that she doesn't feel well and asked if I would snuggle with her and she fell asleep. I had to ask poor DH (who had just dozed off on the couch) to carry her to bed.. He is so good and attentive and I'm totally sucking as a wife and ruined his birthday.. I even forgot candles for his cake..
I cried last night because I had to be up at 5:30am for a special event and still wasn't falling asleep after midnight. Everything hurt too much to sleep. Upper back, lower back, hips, pelvis, and I was having BH. So DH, who had just finished a late night painting in the nursery, massaged my whole back and neck. It helped just enough to fall asleep and I was so grateful.
Ditto to all of the crying because I'm just over being pregnant. I'm tired of hurting, struggling to get comfortable, finding clothes that fit, I'm done with my feet hurting all the time, my back always hurts. Blah. Just done. 3 weeks left.
I have 2 pairs of pants, and 3 shirts that fit me. I tear up every morning getting dressed. I cried today because DH told me he called off of work, the first time in 3 years. He caught DS's stomach virus. I didn't cry because I feel bad for DH, I cried because I'm afraid I'll get it. I dont know if I can handle a stomach virus on top of being 8 months pregnant.
DH saw some Girl Scouts selling cookies and asked which ones I wanted. I said thin mints since he likes them too. He nodded and ended up buying a box of Samoas with a big smile on his face. Samoas are my absolute fav, but DH hates them. I know it sounds corny, but it was such a sweet gesture to me.
also, we had a mama duck lay eggs in our yard and I was super excited to watch the eggs hatch and watch the little ducklings grow.....My DH and I used to have ducks a couple years ago so I was just super excited to watch them again....a stupid black bird ate 2 of the 3 eggs. I am hoping they leave the other 1 alone and that the mom comes back and lays more. I'm already emotional and watching that dumb bird fly away with an egg made me ugly cry.
We set up the pack 'n play last night (so that when my parents get here later this week we can play furniture shuffle and find a place to put it) and afterwards I stared at it and got overwhelmed and started crying.
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Married: 12-04-06
Annabelle: 1-1-08
Patrick: 8-15-10
EDD: 4-20-17
Baby Boy due 04/07/17