This: http://www.popsugar.com/moms/Premature-Baby-Finding-Dory-Director-41750080Do not watch unless you need to bawl for 2 days straight.
I had a nice 30+ minute full blown sob fest in the shower last night. Just SO many things wreaking havoc on my emotions these days. Started with DS (he'll be 3 Sunday) wanting me to carry him everywhere and my back and feet were hurting so bad that I was trying to convince him to walk beside me to literally 10 feet away to his room to get a book to read. He starts crying about it which irritates DH so he picks him up and puts him in time out til he can calm down. That was fine and it needed to happen and DS calmed down pretty quickly and was fine but the whole time I'm getting him ready for bed I'm blinking back tears and when I got in the shower I just bawled. I am so worried about the transition for DS. I am feeling so guilty and anxious about totally rocking his world. I love (and get aggravated about all at the same time) that he still "needs" me and wants me but I am worried about having the time and energy to devote to him like he's used to at least at the beginning when the baby arrives.
Then I started bawling about my feet being super swollen and hurting, my back hurting and just all around feeling huge. The stupid comments from coworkers aren't helping that matter. I just am ready to feel "myself" again and not feel achy, huge, and unattractive. Then came the sobs about how the end of pregnancy stuff just "weirds" DH out (my puffy feet, sex, etc). Don't get me wrong, he's not a jerk or anything and tells me I am still beautiful etc I just am ready to feel that I am to him again cause I know sometimes he's just being polite.
Then over lunch today I wanted to cry cause my house is a wreck and I need to clean like a mad woman tonight as we have company coming tomorrow. My feet and back hurt already and I am dreading doing anything.
Ok, sorry this is a book and thanks for listening. Obviously my hormones have been CRAZY the last couple days!!