PGAL Check-In 2/22

mylittleversailles

Check-in for those who are pregnant after a loss. If you're new introduce yourself and tell us your story.

1) How far along are you?

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally?

3) When is your next appointment?

4) Rants/Raves/Questions

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!

mommyportz

1) How far along are you?
Somewhere between 6-7 weeks

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
Not too bright today. Had some spotting last night and am waiting for the OB's office to call me back to see if they can get us in for an US any earlier than Friday.

3) When is your next appointment?
    Friday as of now. *Edit: US is today...2 hrs from now.

4) Rants/Raves/Questions
Just wondering why we can't have a 'normal' pregnancy. After 2 losses, why can't we just have a problem free pregnancy?


5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!
It was just super popular in the 80s.

lovemaddux

1) How far along are you? 8w2d (hopefully I get a better dating scan today)

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally?  Fine physically.  Ok Emotionally but extremely emotional over everything.

3) When is your next appointment? Today!  We should find out if the pregnancy is viable today.  I thought I'd be happy and excited but I'm honestly nervous and terrified.

4) Rants/Raves/Questions-  I hate my progesterone suppositories!!  And I'm not even sure I need them but no way I'm not going to.  And they cost $664!!!  You bet I'm taking them.  Also, It's only February and I've already meet my deductible!  That's crazy.

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!  I was supposed to be Shasta-Lynn Tina but there was a song that came out and my mom really liked the way her name sounded and especially with my terrible last name.  Bullet dodged although I do like Shasta, it's the combo that's just too much.

2babes3angels

Hey ladies! 

@mommyportz sorry you're dealing with this. Praying everything is ok!!

@lovemaddux hope you get some relief today! I can imagine how stressed you must be leading up to this appt. 

1. 6w4d
2. Physically feeling pretty nauseous for most of the day. Also extremely tired. I've been taking 2 hr naps with my kiddos every day for the last 3 weeks lol. Emotionally feeling pretty good. Today is a big milestone bc I passed the date when we lost our last 2 babies. It's been pretty stressful and anxiety-ridden getting to this point, and I'm by no means "in the clear" but it is a relief to have made it this far.
3. Next appt is Friday (ultrasound). I'll be just shy of 7 weeks so we are hoping to see a good, strong heartbeat!!
4. None.
5. Named after my grandmother

Yall have a great day! Love getting to check in with you all

flowerintherain

@mommyportz I'm so sorry that you started spotting hopefully they get you in quick and find a reason for it. I know that a lot of women do spot and everything turns out fine. You'll be in my thoughts.

@lovemaddux good luck at your appointment today!

@2babes3angels Woo! Glad you got past your loss days! Hopefully that does mean your in the clear

1) How far along are you?
5w 2d

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally?
Physically fine..I wish I had raging morning sickness or sore boobs or something to reassure me this is a good pregnancy. Emotionally I have up days and down days..but I'm trying to be optimistic while not getting too attached just yet. 

3) When is your next appointment?
Today at 1. I'm so nervous. I think they're going to do an early US. I know there won't be too much to see, but I'm hoping that the sac and yolk sac and everything is measuring at the correct dates. 

4) Rants/Raves/Questions
Not today

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!
It's biblical and was also just super popular while my mom was pregnant with me. 

afwoods10

1) How far along are you? 6 weeks today

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Much more optimistic this go around. Everything is just... different. Hoping that's a good thing! 

3) When is your next appointment? Just had a sono yesterday due to spotting. Next appt is March 29th. 

4) Rants/Raves/Questions - Too tired to rant today. 

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do! I have no idea, but my dad must have liked it because he also used it for my sisters middle name! 

lovemaddux

Thanks ladies. The appointment went. There was a flicker of a heartbeat but I'm measuring 2 weeks behind and freaking out. That dating would put conception when I got my BFP-  
not sure how I feel right now. Mostly numb.

Cythe

@mommyportz and @lovemaddux thinking of you ladies today. FX for beautiful scans!

1) How far along are you? 6w4d

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Like poop today. MS is back with a vengeance. I'm just sitting here, trying to digest my green smoothie so if I puke, it's okay.

3) When is your next appointment? Um, Thursday with the OB for a lame appointment and Monday with my RE for my graduation scan!

4) Rants/Raves/Questions I'm dying today. Literally (not literally) dying. Nothing PGAL related, just whining.

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!

Well, my mom wanted to name me Elise but my dad wanted to name me a super popular 1980s name and I guess my dad won. Womp womp.

flowerintherain

@lovemaddux I'm so sorry I was really hoping you'd come back to share positive news. I'm heart broken for you. A flicker of a heart beat is something though..and you're not bleeding are you? Maybe your pregnancy is just progressing slower than normal? I'm not sure if that's possible..but maybe. 

riverrainez

So sorry @lovemaddux. What is the next step, do you go back for another scan?

ashcakes921

1) How far along are you? 6+4

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically the morning sickness and food adversions are in full swing so that's always fun. Emotionally I feel that I have mellowed out

3) When is your next appointment? First one is March 14. Finally less than a month away

4) Rants/Raves/Questions - I only have a rant today. We're moving in like a week and half and we're not at all ready. Granted we're just moving across the parking lot to a bigger townhouse but still. Also my husband is of no help to getting anything packed

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? I was going to be first name Amanda, middle name Lynn but when you say then together, it sounds like a musical instrument (a mandolin) so they switched my first name and kept my middle name

riverrainez

1) How far along are you? Bringing up the rear at 4w6d

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Pretty good! 

3) When is your next appointment? I feel like a broken record with this question in all of the check ins. March 23. Hoping I have nothing to report until then.

4) Rants/Raves/Questions When I got pregnant last fall, it never felt real and I never felt connected to it even before we officially lost it. This time around is already really different. It feels real. I want to think that my mind is reading signals from my body about this being the real deal.

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do! I'm named after a wine.

migdala

@lovemaddux I'm so sad to hear this.  Did they draw betas or let you know what the plan is for next steps?  You're in my thoughts, I'm praying this was just a blip and everything is fine.

@mommyportz Fx for you at your US today.  Let us know how it goes, if you feel able.

@2babes3angels I'm right around my loss day from last time and it feels like such a pivotal moment.  Congrats on getting past yours

@flowerintherain I said the exact same thing about wishing for morning sickness last week, and now I feel nauseous all the time and no food sounds good but honestly I'm glad to be miserable.  I'm not puking but it feels almost like a perpetual hangover feeling.  It started for me right at the 6 week mark -- before that, I felt literally no symptoms other than sore boobs.

@afwoods10 I hear you on the exhaustion.

@Cythe you're a brave woman to try a green smoothie.  I'm sitting at my desk eating a double meat foot long cold cut trio from Subway FOR BREAKFAST because that was literally the only thing I could imagine eating.  I had them microwave the meat so I wouldn't worry about listeria.  Pretty sure everyone at work thinks I'm severely hungover.

@ashcakes921 We're EDD buddies, I'm also 6w4d

@riverraine I also felt like this one was different from the get-go.  Fx we're right.

AFM...
1) How far along are you? 6w4d

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally?  So effing nauseous and all food sounds terrible except for the most random stuff.  Yesterday it was avocado toast for dinner.  This morning it was a Subway sandwich for breakfast.  I started gagging brushing my teeth this morning, so that was fun.  And I have a constant headache and spend my whole day pining for my bed.  Emotionally, I feel ok.  It helps that I feel physically miserable and that we saw the heartbeat yesterday.  We didn't get a measurement and the equipment wouldn't let us hear it but we saw it clear as day and it looked strong.  But at the same time this is right when we lost the last one so every minute this week feels very life-or-death.

3) When is your next appointment?  Monday, for a better ultrasound.

4) Rants/Raves/Questions  I wish DH was on the same page as I am this week.  This is when we lost the last one, plus my old EDD is on Sunday.  It just feels like such a critical time, but he sees it as "well there's nothing we can do so why worry".  I get that intellectually, but I don't feel like I have a choice about worrying or not.  I can't help it.

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!  They picked it out of a baby book, and it's similar to the name of an island they liked.  My middle name is an amalgamation of my mom's favorite sister's name and the name of a cousin who died before I was born.

Cythe

I'm so so sorry @lovemaddux. I must have been typing my response when you posted, so I feel like a huge ass.

I will keep everything crossed for your next scan, until then so many hugs and love to you and your SO.

mylittleversailles

@mommyportz GL at your scan!

@lovemaddux Keep us posted! I'm so sorry.

@2babes3angels Naps

@flowerintherain Symptoms don't mean much, so hold onto hope!

@afwoods10 That is commitment to a name all right

@Cythe Yay! A graduation scan!

@ashcakes921 Moving is the worst. I've moved three cites in the past 5 years - and multiple times in one of those cities. Thankfully, staying put for a while now.

@riverraine I am also feeling completely different (better) than last pregnancy, which I am also hoping is a good sign.

@migdala I hate Subway but the veggie sandwich is all I can eat some days lately. It's the weirdest pregnancy thing (happened last time too).

On my end

1. 6 weeks 3 days

2. Feeling fine! Some nausea setting in later in the day, which I imagine is the Diclectin wearing off. It makes me really dopey, so I prefer to only take it at night. Being drowsy and confused seems like it would make the days drag even more. Food doesn't appeal, except cold fruit and vegetables (ha not much different than usual tbh) so I try to eat the vegetables with tahini for more calories/calcium. Tired. Emotionally, pretty good most of the time. Fell down a rabbit hole of bad thoughts about a blighted ovum yesterday, but feeling more steady today. I'll take this over the unadulterated hell that was a year ttcal. 

3. Had acupuncture this morning. Dating scan Monday morning. 

rant: I feel a bit bitter sometimes I can't be the one who is stockpiling diapers and preparing for baby but then the gratitude takes over. I wish I could feel that excitement.

rave: DH is the best. He's always been the best, always will be. 

q: Not today

4. My father is a Francophile. I'm pretty sure my mum was too goofed up for the c-section meds to argue and I'm named after an ex-gf of his. I love my name, though, so it's alllllll good. 

2babes3angels

@lovemaddux so sorry it didn't go as you'd hoped. Maybe this one's just a late bloomer. Keep us posted

mommac2017

1) How far along are you? 8w2d

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically it's getting better. I've been taking Vitamin B6 which is helping my morning sickness. It's still really strong in the evenings so I'm pretty much in bed most evenings. Emotionally, I've been pretty good since we saw the heartbeat last week. I still have bad moments, but I'm starting to feel more hopeful.

3) When is your next appointment? March 9 for another quick scan in my OB's office

4) Rants/Raves/Questions: None right now.

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? My parents found both my first and middle name in a newspaper and thought it was cool. Funny thing was that my mom's really good friend was due just a couple of weeks after her. When my mom called her to tell her she had me, her friend went really quiet. They had picked the EXACT name if their child was a girl. They ended up having a boy anyway, but it was still cool that I could've had a name twin!

lovemaddux

@flowerintherain No bleeding, nothing unusual.   *Good Luck with your appointment!

@riverraine Yes, they scheduled me for next week to see how I'm progressing (either way).

@migdala They did do a full work up.  I had my HCG done a few weeks ago and they were happy with that.

@mommyportz Hope your scan goes well!

@Cythe No worries!  Hope your scan tomorrow goes well!

Thank you so much.  I really had no one to talk to and I just had to get it out.  I'm desperately trying to stay away from dr. google!  With the heartbeat I'm hopeful but 2 weeks behind is just so long that I don't know what to feel. 

mommac2017

@lovemaddux, I'm so sorry. I'm echoing others here, but what is the next step? Beta draw? Another scan? Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

mommyportz

I'm thinking of you, @Lovemaddux! And keeping my FX and hoping with everything that you've just got a slow grower. 




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UPDATE!

WE HAVE A HEARTBEAT! The tech couldn't tell us anything definite, but said that nothing immediately jumped out at him as a red flag. We'll have to wait for the 'official reading' and the call from the OB. But I am officially measuring at 6+2 just like I thought! I will share the US in the US thread.


THANK YOU to everyone for the good vibes and well wishes! PGAL Brain is such a mindF!

sqfibemom

1) How far along are you? 5w2d

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Ok at the moment, still not really real yet so I think that's helping

3) When is your next appointment? Nothing until March 14, I have a doc appt and an ultrasound that day

4) Rants/Raves/Questions Not right now

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do! My parents thought they were having a boy so my name was a last minute thing at the hospital, they saw it in a magazine and liked it haha!

laeberge3

@lovemaddux Thinking of you and have all my fingers crossed it was just a blip.

1) How far along are you? 7w5d

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? For both, pretty well.  Seeing the heartbeat last week helped quite a bit and I have another US on Friday before they release me to my OB, so that makes me feel better.  Physically, I feel small bouts of nausea but nothing too bad yet.  The tiredness seemed to return, so I'm pretty out of it during the evening, but otherwise, feeling pretty good.  Oh, bloated...so bloated. 

3) When is your next appointment? 2/24 for an US before being released to OB.  My RE offered it and I was not going to say no.  Then, 3/13 with my OB, which I believe also includes an ultrasound. 

4) Rants/Raves/Questions: Rave: this unseasonably warm weather has really helped my mood swings.  Rant:  work, just blech. 

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? There was no significance behind it - my first name was very popular in the late 80s, and they thought it flowed well with the middle name they chose.  My parents had no boys names picked until my mom was in labor.  I laugh because if I were a boy, I would have the same name as H. 

laeberge3

@mommyportz Yay for heartbeats! 

@mommac2017 Glad the B6 is helping you feel better!

@reneeannemm  Glad you're feeling better this time around!  I would also love to be the one stockpiling baby items but mostly I'm terrified to buy anything and will be for awhile.  I will say... a week before I got my BFP this time, I did buy a onesie. I had never done so in any of the months previous and never did with our first loss, so it made me nervous.  Not going to tempt fate anymore

@migdala Glad you're feeling some symptoms now but hope they don't get too bad. 

@riverraine @afwoods10 This pregnancy feels different to me too - hope we all are right!

@ashcakes921 Moving is the worst.  We're probably going to have to do that before baby arrives or by the end of the year and I am not looking forward to any part of it. 

@Cythe Yay for RE graduation scans!  Hope the appointments go well and your MS give you a break soon. 

@2babes3angels  Glad you're past your loss milestones.

@flowerintherain Hope your US goes well today!

Uhlease13

@lovemaddux I'm so sorry for a less than reassuring scan, fx that thugs progress

@mommyportz yay!!

@laeberge3 if DH was a girl, he would have had my name, and it's not that common of a name, so we think that's pretty cool. Somebody mentioned my name earlier in this thread, but I guess their other name won out

How far along are you?: 6+1

how are you feeling?: tired a lot, sore boobs, and off and on nauseous- which I'm trying to take as a good sign, but it's so hard because symptoms or no symptoms will not determine the outcome of the pregnancy. So I'm just trying to stay positive. Really getting nervous for my first scan.

when is your first appt?: March 3...just waiting until then!!

rants/raves/questions: I wish pregnancy wasn't tainted for all of us.

gtky: my mom liked a name from family ties...

2babes3angels

Uhlease13 said:

rants/raves/questions: I wish pregnancy wasn't tainted for all of us.

100% agree with you  

Mommyamp

1) How far along are you? 4+3

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Battling headaches but I think they might be from the progesterone I'm on. Exhausted after coaching soccer tonight. Emotionally I'm slightly detached because this is hopefully a rainbow baby and I just don't want to be heartbroken again. 

3) When is your next appointment? Not until 3/14!! OB is out of town during my 6th week and I don't want to go in sooner and not be able to see anything and then just worry more.

4) Rants/Raves/Questions nada

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!  No idea. My mom swears it wasn't poplar at the time but it was somehow in the top 5 the year I was born. Lol

Designmamauk

1.) How far along are you?  7+3 

2.) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Physically, a bit tired but not too bad. Some days I'll feel a bit queasy but I've been lucky and no real morning sickness. Though sometimes I wish I would just have morning sickness as it would make me feel more pregnant and put my mind to ease.

Emotionally, I feel unattached to this pregnancy as trying to not get my hopes up before we see the heartbeat. Sad to actually type that and wish I could be thrilled. 

3.) When is your next appointment? Next and first is set for 2 March. Counting down the days. 

4.) Rants/Raves/Questions. I totally forgot how long the list was of stuff you shouldn't have in pregnancy. Missing a good hot bath already. 

5.) GTKY: my parents thought I was going to be a boy, so when I came out a girl gave me the feminine version of the boys name they had picked. 

migdala

I'm feeling snowflake-y today so feel free to roll your eyes at me and carry on.  This week is stressing me out so much and I'm reading into every little thing.  I don't feel quite as nauseous today and I'm trying not to see that as a bad sign but of course I'm freaking out about it.  I'm 6w5d and this is exactly the time that the last one stopped growing (though we didn't find out til the 8w appointment).  I really hope that we get a good scan on Monday at 7w2d and that my PGAL brain calms down a bit at that point.  I wish I could just be optimistic and enjoy this pregnancy without the idea of loss hanging over my head all the time. Bleh.

Myelhsa

Swinging by to say:

@lovemaddux I'm definitely keeping you in my thoughts and sending positive vibes your way! Fx for a more favorable scan next time.

laeberge3

Sorry for the tough day @migdala. You're not being a snowflake - we all have these really bad days.  I read into every symptom too and I wasn't as tired last night as usual so it freaked me out.  All the fx for a good scan on Monday!

I had the worst bout of dry heaving this morning and feel just terrible today.  In a way, it's a comfort, but I really hope this doesn't continue or work will know quite soon.  I'm grateful to be able to work from home today.  It's about now that my anxiety for my US tomorrow starts creeping in.  I have a full load of crap to do at work tomorrow, so even if things wouldn't go well, I'll have to tough out the morning, at least.   Cue the high anxiety. 

theglitteredpterodactyl

1) How far along are you? I'm not sure, I think somewhere around the 5 week mark

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally? Okay. I feel really guilty because I feel like one of those rare women who aren't that sad about their loss. It was around the 8 week mark, and we were terrified to be trying again after the first time almost killed me (exacerbated mental illness with severe PPD/A that started when I was still pregnant), so it honestly felt like a bit of a relief when we lost the pregnancy. And admitting that always makes me feel like some lightening bolt is going to strike me where I stand. Especially because now we're in a better place, we both really want this baby, we're excited about it, and I'm terrified I'm going to experience the same thing again. I don't want to lose this baby. 

3) When is your next appointment? I need to schedule it. I'm afraid to right now because last time I started spotting right before the dating ultrasound, and the tech & doctor that was there basically gaslighted me with "Maybe you thought you saw a positive pregnancy test result". It was horrible and I feel like I"m procrastinating calling until I get past the 8 week mark. Which is irresponsible. I know.

4) Rants/Raves/Questions Um I think I tackled this in the previous two questions

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do! They picked it out of a baby name book. My mom liked the nickname that comes from it, but from an early age I refused to be called by it. I still hate it. My dad is the only one who calls me by it but he's a dick and everyone knows it.

migdala

@laeberge3 Congratulations on feeling terrible and GL tomorrow!  This isn't your first scan, right?  After the one on Monday I have to wait until Mar 21 for another, and I'm already scheming about how I'm going to talk them into giving me another one in between.  I'll label my chart as "100% crazy lady" myself if it means I can get more scans...

laeberge3

@migdala Thanks! This will be my second scan and then assuming all is well, they'll release me to my OB. I have an appointment with her on 3/13 which will include another ultrasound.  Otherwise, I would also be doing my best to convince them to give me another scan!  While the buildup to each is terrifying, I'll take that dread any day if it means seeing baby more!

cooaladolly

@lovemaddux I'm so sorry to hear that your scan was not so great, but still keep heart. Have you in my thoughts.

Sorry I'm so late to the thread guys and I'm going to punk out on individual responses this time.

1) How far along are you?... 6 weeks today.

2) How are you feeling physically and emotionally?... Emotionally I'm feeling surprisingly well. Though I know I'm not in any way out of danger for loss, I feel strangely zen lately, like there's nothing I can do about it, so why worry. Physically my symptoms are a little stronger. Finally starting to feel MS at very random times (like now). Boobs are still hurting quite a lot. Some vertigo every now and then.

3) When is your next appointment?...  Next Friday.

4) Rants/Raves/Questions... Despite the MS I'm still all about all the foods. Raving that I'm about to get up and make Swedish meatballs over egg noodles and a huge salad.

5) GTKY: Do you know why you were given your first name? Tell us the story if you do!... My mom loved her co-worker's name and named me after her. Funny thing is it's a somewhat ethnic name, and though I do share that ethnicity, people are often surprised because I don't exactly look it. I got to go to that country several years ago and someone on the plane was calling her child by the same name. When I mentioned that we had the same name she told me that it means "precious child " in the native language.

Mommyamp

@cooaladolll I've been feeling the same way....I'm strangely at peace even though I should be a nervous wreck. I have zero symptoms other than being a little crankier than normal. That's probably helping because it helps me not focus and obsess about everything. Obsess I feel like I'm in denial that I'm even pregnant some days. Very strange. I think party of me is just trying not to get attached until I hear hb and then I'll start to let my guard down a tiny bit. I know from experience that I won't truly breathe until my rainbow is on my arms though. 

Mommyamp

@cooaladolll also, what an awesome name meaning.