TW/AW: Admitted (Update 2.27)

CherryBananas · February 2017

Good luck with everything! Those babies are lucky they have such an awesome mama taking good care of them. Sending lots of healthy vibes your way!

rkstro2 · February 2017

I've been hoping for your update! I am crossing my fingers that you make it all 12 of those days!

CarmCeG · February 2017

Everything will work out, hun! You'll see. I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers!

sweaterboots · February 2017

Wishing you all the best for you & your babies. You are being very strong!!

Yiggle09 · February 2017

If your going to pump for them and need any exclussive pumping advice I'm here for you! Good luck hoping the induction goes well

nda_roxybabe · February 2017

I know it's not ideal by any means, but I am so excited to see (if you'll be sharing any photos once you're ready) those beautiful babies!

mdlorenz · February 2017

@nda_roxybabe There will definitely be AW-ing of my tiny peanuts. I'm nervous and excited... mostly just aloof right now because we're sitting in the eye of the storm.

chickyclg · February 2017

@mdlorenz take a lot of photos!! I barely took any of my kids in NICU because I didn't want to remember them like that, thank god DH and my mom took some. Also check with your hospital to see if they take NICU growth photos I have friends that had them done weekly and it definitely captured all of the NICU milestones like CPAP removal, feeding tube removal, open air beds and all other sorts of things.

mdlorenz · February 2017

@chickyclg I just splurged on hiring a local doula / amazing photographer to take pics at the c-section and initial NICU transfer. I definitely don't love that this is our reality but I'm working on my mindfulness and acceptance. Good reminder about all of the NICU milestones

mdlorenz · February 2017

Another stable Doppler, another day pregnant! I got really emotional today though, because DH is struggling with all of the coordinating that goes into having a 3 year old (aka essentially having to be a single dad while I'm in the hospital, schlepping her to daycare / the hospital / friends' houses so he can go get some fresh air and exercise) and he lays it on me. I set up a meal train "plus" that lets you coordinate meals AND childcare / other things to help ease the burden. Had him peek at it before it went live. Mentioned more than once that people had offered to watch DD this coming weekend. And then today he gets all stressed out because the sweet mama friend who offered to help Sat morning *at our house* (so DH has no schlepping duties) is someone that Ellie hasn't met before. And wanted *me* to fix that for him. I just about lost it. Of course, right before the Doppler. The compromise is that he will bring DD to the hospital where the mama friend (and her kiddo who is so sweet and DD's age) will come and visit with me and DD - if all goes smoothly they might escape for a walk or go to the zoo (nearby). But holy $h!t man. I get that a new face might cause some stress but YOU ASKED FOR HELP and I gave you the opportunity to veto my proposed solution.

Phew. So sorry. I really needed to vent. We are all stressed, obviously. I just don't have the energy to deal with someone else's stress on top of my own.

Thank God the babies are rockstars.

Next Doppler on Monday. C-section tentatively planned for Monday 3/06. So GD nervous.

rkstro2 · February 2017

@mdlorenz glad the Dopplers are stable! That is great news! Sorry DH is being difficult. It must be so stressful for you both.

Omg 3/6! Glad you have another whole week and a few days. Also that is my DH birthday!!! What a great day to be born! Fingers crossed that everything stays stable.

jayandaplus · February 2017

Good news @mdlorenz! I'm glad the doppler went well. I hope you can have a good weekend now.

Sorry about your DH and DD. It is a very stressful time, and that is very nice of you try helping SO much, especially from the hospital. It is truly difficult to manage someone else's stress on top of your own, but you're doing great!

Louise_Belcher · February 2017

So glad to hear that the babies are being rockstars and you have another day pregnant! So sorry the stress is causing some DH difficulties. I cannot fathom the stress you are both under. Creepy internet hugs and vent away.

hp_momma · February 2017

So glad to hear that everything is stable!

As I was dropping my kids off at daycare to run to my ultrasound today and a million thoughts were running through my head of "what if they admit me early for bedrest, what will I do with the kids?!" I was thinking of you in the hospital and how hard it must be to have your little one at home! Hang in there!

chickyclg · February 2017

What does 3/6 put you at? You are doing Amazing BTW! I couldn't imagine my DH solo parenting with me in the hospital, I can only imagine how stressful that is for everyone.

SKZW · February 2017

Thanks for sharing your update. All the emotions you're dealing with---you seem amazingly sane in the midst of all that! I hope you have a great weekend and that DD's visit with a new friend is fun for everyone!

clebl24 · February 2017

So happy to know that the babies are rockstars. I'm sorry DH is struggling in the Mr. Mom role. I think most men would and it sounds like you are going above and beyond under the circumstances. I know you both are under a tremendous amount of stress. Hang in there!

mdlorenz · February 2017

@chickyclg I'll be 32w1d. I am clinging so hard to making it that far. I've never been as nervous at a Doppler as I was today but most of it was probably the building stress from DH unloading his stress on me. The weekend will hopefully be uneventful and then we'll just have 3 more ultrasounds to survive before eviction day.

Thank you, mamas, for your continued kindness. Especially in the midst of my venting.

kat81 · February 2017

@mdlorenz I'm glad you have a plan and a date and everything and I hope everything stays stable until then!
I'm SO sorry your DH is being crazy and wanting YOU of all people to fix it! But it is hard for him and I'm sure he's scared as well. I hope that people do remember to help him and DD. Good luck with everything!

sarah0985 · February 2017

I've been following and lovetitting as support but just wanted to say that you are doing amazing. Vent away all you want and need. Your whole family is in my thoughts.

achays11 · February 2017

You are so amazing! And I admire your strength and calm through all of this. I'm sorry your H is adding stress.

mdlorenz · February 2017

Heart rate monitoring midday looked just weird enough that I got moved down to L&D around 3 pm. Babies looked great initially then decided to have a dance party so they have been hard to trace since. I'm going on 5 hours on my back now and oof my low back is killing me. And they said I can have only clear liquids. I get to go back to antepartum if we get one good hour on the monitor. Oy.

Hansolosparka · February 2017

@mdlorenz fingers crossed that they chill
out in there!! Thanks for keeping us all posted

chickyclg · February 2017

Hoping they stay put and cooperate!

erinh2005 · February 2017

Wow best of luck! Hopefully you can get comfortable again soon and babies hang in there for the time being!

bacorrea · February 2017

Praying for a good hour!

SKZW · February 2017

Hoping for a good next hour! Hang in there!

rkstro2 · February 2017

@mdlorenz I'm sorry to hear about the move to L&d. Hoping that the tracing improves.

mcvgal · February 2017

@mdlorenz as previously mentioned take plenty of pictures in the NICU. We look back now at our little miracle and are so thankful to have those pictures now. I hope your stay is uneventful and that everything goes smoothly. Sorry about your DH, but let him deal with it all and try to relax, if possible.