@sugargirl019
Im so sorry you cant tell your mom! I totally get where he is coming from but
if I were to have another loss, I would definitely need support from my momma! I
get his wanting to do a big reveal though. We did a cute reveal thing the first
time around too and we haven’t done it since (we’re on pregnancy #4). It just
seems silly to me to try to do it again now that our families know we are
trying and have been trying for a year. Like it wouldn’t really be a surprise
to anyone at this point.
How far along
are you? 9w4d I got to see my baby wiggle around on Monday at my ultrasound!!! How are you doing? (Mentally,
physically...) Pretty good physically. Mentally - I’m past the point where I get to have
weekly appointments and now Im freaking out that the heart will stop beating
and I won’t know for weeks.
When is your next appointment?
I don’t have
another one scheduled yet
Rant/Rave/Questions? My RE wants me to come in
for a panorama blood test on Monday before he will fully release me to my OBGYN
and for some reason I really don’t want to do it. It terrifies me for some reason
but I don’t really know why.
GTKY: What did you want
to be when you were little? Is it at all similar to what you actually do? I wanted to be a
doctor from the time I could remember all the way up until my senior year of
college. In my last 2 years of college I really struggled with my bipolar
disorder and I had a hard time pushing through school. I decided I couldn’t
emotionally handle medical school at the time and figured I’d figure it all out
later. I still haven’t figured it all out but I work in business now so its not
even related to my science degree. Ive
considered attempting to switch to a science related field butI always
get overwhelmed.
@SuperKristy85 blood tests terrify me in general and I have never been able to figure out why. More than once I have had a full blown panic attack just because I was having blood drawn.
@Texafornian I felt bad about how long it's been since DH and I have had sex, so I volunteered oral. Yeah, I almost vomited on DH in all his glory, and running to the bathroom holding throw up in your mouth is just about the farthest from sexy you can get. So....yeah. Oral is not a great plan.
How are you doing? (Mentally, physically...) Mentally I'm alright. Not amazing, but not horrible. Every time I catch myself being happy/no longer worrying, my PGAL brain likes to remind me I'm not out of the woods yet. It's frustrating. I said this in another post yesterday but my goal is to just take things one day at a time right now. Physically, I'm feeling mostly okay aside from the fatigue and intermittent nausea. I almost threw up in the car this morning driving DS to school.
When is your next appointment? Early March, around 12 weeks.
Rant/Rave/Questions? The laundry in this house is never ending. I feel like by the time I'm finished washing, folding, and putting away a few loads of laundry, there's more dirty stuff already piled to the ceiling. I know I'm lazy and slow about getting it all folded and put away but I can't be THAT bad. Or maybe I am. Who knows.
GTKY: What did you want to be when you were little? Is it at all similar to what you actually do? I wanted to be a pediatrician. I realized when I got to college I was not gonna make it through all of those extra years of schooling so I settled for biology. I work in a (non-medical) lab, so not similar to what I wanted to do.
@bigbadwolf12 I am sorry. I hope everything is okay.
How far along are you? 6w2
How are you doing? (Mentally, physically...) super anxious with my first i start spotting at 6w6d. Worried this one will end the same. It is hard to be excited.
When is your next appointment? In one week. Feb8 dr appointment and ultrasound. I have never had a good ultrasound d.
Rant/Rave/Questions?
GTKY: What did you want to be when you were little? Is it at all similar to what you actually do? I wanted to be an art teacher when I was little. Realized I was not that good art as I got older. Now I work in mental health and I love it. Most days at least.
I think things are fine. Thanks for bringing me back down to sanity, ladies! It probably is constipation....it just felt so much like it did last time! Still no spotting or anything, and it's a new day, so I think we're good.
TTGP history (*TW*):
Started TTC Oct 2015 BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016 Re-started TTC Aug 2016 Started IF testing Nov 2016 Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017 BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
Went in for US at the radiology center. They don't tell you anything and so you're just looking at the screen wondering. I couldn't tell if there was a heartbeat and they kept pausing the scan to take pictures and measurements so it was really difficult. I hate this and am prepared for bad news.
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Went in for US at the radiology center. They don't tell you anything and so you're just looking at the screen wondering. I couldn't tell if there was a heartbeat and they kept pausing the scan to take pictures and measurements so it was really difficult. I hate this and am prepared for bad news.
That stinks! I had mine done at a radiology facility and she at least showed me the heartbeat. Hope you get the results asap!
@rainafire77 Oh gosh.. that stinks. Hopefully you will hear something soon! I will say, when they did my scan that showed no heartbeat they only took a couple of pictures and didn't do measurements or anything.
@rainafire77 I'm so sorry, as that is the most frustrating thing ever. They didn't answer any of your questions? Not right. I hope hope you get answers really soon!! Do you have an appt set up?
I'm cramping on my left side... around my ovary. I know this can be normal, but I really wish it would go away. All I can think is "This is how it starts... you'll be bleeding soon." And I was doing so good being more positive lately!
@HollyGolightly09 I've had pain around my ovaries a few times, and I think the same thing. Chances are it just feels like my ovaries, but it's actually my uterus stretching, but it's still scary.
@HollyGolightly09 I get occasional cramps too and because I've been spotting for awhile now I start thinking the same thing. Creepy internet hugs for you.
@Texafornian They're supposed to call me today but I've called twice and they're "super busy" and haven't gotten back to me. I had this done at noon. It's almost 4. I definitely saw the baby but I couldn't see the heartbeat at all. They ran a red and blue pattern over it and the red pulsed but it also pulsed when they passed over other places too. They also spent a ton of time measuring my ovaries. It was an Ultrasound intern who didn't really know what she was doing with the regular tech walking her through it. I just feel like I'm jinxed. And then my doctors office not calling me when my doctor had it on the order to call me IMMEDIATELY. (She's out of town today so it's between the on call doctor and the nurse.)
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@rainafire77 I didn't hear back from my dr until almost a week later! But I got results back via the radiology email/portal 2 days after the appt, Friday at 5pm after the drs office was closed. I called Monday, dr was supposed to call back. But then I didn't get to talk to her until my appt the following day. It was terrible. Especially since I had questionable results for my liver. Also the tech took A LOT of measurements of my ovaries too, which scared me at first bc I thought it was my uterus and there was no baby, but then we saw the baby. Not sure if it had anything to do with it but I have a few cysts on my left ovary, wasn't sure if that's why they did so many measurements. Fingers crossed you hear back soon!!
Went in for US at the radiology center. They don't tell you anything and so you're just looking at the screen wondering. I couldn't tell if there was a heartbeat and they kept pausing the scan to take pictures and measurements so it was really difficult. I hate this and am prepared for bad news.
I don't know if this is comforting or not, but when I had my US done during my second pregnancy *TW* and there was no heartbeat, the tech had me wait in the lobby and got the radiologist on the phone immediately to review the scan and talk to me. With my first they thought there may have been a heterotopic (false alarm!) but my Dr had called within 30 mins of me leaving the clinic.
I think if something is wrong, they move fast to have someone with authority contact you. The technologists know (even though they can't tell you) and let the radiologists know that they need to read the scan asap.
Still no call but I went online and red the radiology report. Said "findings consistent with fetal demise" measured 6w3d and no heartbeat. I don't know what to do now.
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DD born 04/28/2002 Married DH 03/25/2017 1st MMC 08/13/2016 2nd MMC 02/14/2017 BFP 06/16/17 Rainbow DS Born 02/05/2018
@rainafire77 I am so sorry, that is heartbreaking. I can't believe they wouldn't talk you through something like that. Big, creepy internet hugs. Please updated us when you talk to your doctor.
@rainafire77 I am so incredibly sorry. What a terrible way to find that out... I wish I had something to say to make this a little better, but I am just so, so sorry. (hugs) If you feel like it, please update when you talk to your Dr.
@rainafire77 I can't believe they let you find out like that. I would have expected someone would tell you that in person or over the phone. I hope you're able to speak to your doctor soon.
@rainafire77 noooooooo!!!!! This makes me so angry to read...I want to go back in time and smack the living crap out of that technician. There is NO excuse...you shouldn't have found out that way. And your doctor's office...ugh. People can be so desensitized and inconsiderate. The day I had my D&C the surgery center made me pay my full deductible up front...right before I went back for surgery. WTAF. Give us an iota of respect please... No words can make you feel better I know...but I am SO very sorry to hear this news and i'm heartbroken for you...not fair, not fair, not fair. Sending you lots of love and light...
@rainafire77 there are no words. It's just not right for you to find out that way. Unconscionable and inhumane. Not the way to treat a human being on so many levels. Sending virtual support and strength your way and wishing you a speedy recovery; with time will come healing.
@rainafire77 Oh no!! I am so devastated for you, and that you had to read those results on your own! All the hugs and wine for you tonight! I'm so so sorry
Me: 27 years old DH: 27 years old Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
Married in July 2014
TTC #1 since late Feb 2016
BFP #1 3/29/16 MMC: 5/5/16 BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16 BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17 My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast: Juicebox Podcast Episode 118 A1Cs: 1/12/16 6.7% 5/25/16 6.0% 11/2/16 6.1% 3/22/16 5.8% 4/27/17 5.4% 6/13/17 5.3% "Sugar Fancy Tutu"
I'm exactly one month away from my EDD for the baby we lost in the summer. I was reminded by the package of formula samples that came in the mail today with a card from Nestle saying that baby's almost here. Apparently I signed up and forgot to remove myself.
The fact that I have this baby to be excited about is making things much easier but it was still a kick in the teeth.
Re: PGAL Check In 2/1
@sugargirl019 Im so sorry you cant tell your mom! I totally get where he is coming from but if I were to have another loss, I would definitely need support from my momma! I get his wanting to do a big reveal though. We did a cute reveal thing the first time around too and we haven’t done it since (we’re on pregnancy #4). It just seems silly to me to try to do it again now that our families know we are trying and have been trying for a year. Like it wouldn’t really be a surprise to anyone at this point.
How far along are you? 9w4d I got to see my baby wiggle around on Monday at my ultrasound!!!
How are you doing? (Mentally, physically...) Pretty good physically. Mentally - I’m past the point where I get to have weekly appointments and now Im freaking out that the heart will stop beating and I won’t know for weeks.
When is your next appointment? I don’t have another one scheduled yet
Rant/Rave/Questions? My RE wants me to come in for a panorama blood test on Monday before he will fully release me to my OBGYN and for some reason I really don’t want to do it. It terrifies me for some reason but I don’t really know why.
GTKY: What did you want to be when you were little? Is it at all similar to what you actually do? I wanted to be a doctor from the time I could remember all the way up until my senior year of college. In my last 2 years of college I really struggled with my bipolar disorder and I had a hard time pushing through school. I decided I couldn’t emotionally handle medical school at the time and figured I’d figure it all out later. I still haven’t figured it all out but I work in business now so its not even related to my science degree. Ive considered attempting to switch to a science related field but I always get overwhelmed.
@sableeg my DH suggested oral in lieu of the sex and I about punched him...cuz yea, gag reflexes are cool.
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Losses:
#1: 8wks MMC 4/16
#2: 13+4 T21 + Hydrops 3/17
Married to David 3/22/14
Started TTC again October 2016
BFP on 1/6/17!
**TW**
Losses:
#1: 8wks MMC 4/16
#2: 13+4 T21 + Hydrops 3/17
Married to David 3/22/14
Started TTC again October 2016
BFP on 1/6/17!
edit- I did tell DH last week that if he could have sex with me without jostling my body, to go for it.
7+6
How are you doing? (Mentally, physically...)
Mentally I'm alright. Not amazing, but not horrible. Every time I catch myself being happy/no longer worrying, my PGAL brain likes to remind me I'm not out of the woods yet. It's frustrating. I said this in another post yesterday but my goal is to just take things one day at a time right now. Physically, I'm feeling mostly okay aside from the fatigue and intermittent nausea. I almost threw up in the car this morning driving DS to school.
When is your next appointment?
Early March, around 12 weeks.
Rant/Rave/Questions?
The laundry in this house is never ending. I feel like by the time I'm finished washing, folding, and putting away a few loads of laundry, there's more dirty stuff already piled to the ceiling. I know I'm lazy and slow about getting it all folded and put away but I can't be THAT bad. Or maybe I am. Who knows.
GTKY: What did you want to be when you were little? Is it at all similar to what you actually do?
I wanted to be a pediatrician. I realized when I got to college I was not gonna make it through all of those extra years of schooling so I settled for biology. I work in a (non-medical) lab, so not similar to what I wanted to do.
How far along are you? 6w2
How are you doing? (Mentally, physically...) super anxious with my first i start spotting at 6w6d. Worried this one will end the same. It is hard to be excited.
When is your next appointment? In one week. Feb8 dr appointment and ultrasound. I have never had a good ultrasound d.
Rant/Rave/Questions?
GTKY: What did you want to be when you were little? Is it at all similar to what you actually do? I wanted to be an art teacher when I was little. Realized I was not that good art as I got older. Now I work in mental health and I love it. Most days at least.
**TW**
Losses:
#1: 8wks MMC 4/16
#2: 13+4 T21 + Hydrops 3/17
BFP #1 June 2016: EDD 16 March 2017, MC July 2016
Re-started TTC Aug 2016
Started IF testing Nov 2016
Spontaneous BFP #2 January 2017: Rainbow Baby Boy September 2017
BFP #3 November 2018: Baby #2 expected August 2019
DD born 04/28/2002
Married DH 03/25/2017
1st MMC 08/13/2016 2nd MMC 02/14/2017
BFP 06/16/17 Rainbow DS Born 02/05/2018
**TW**
Losses:
#1: 8wks MMC 4/16
#2: 13+4 T21 + Hydrops 3/17
DD born 04/28/2002
Married DH 03/25/2017
1st MMC 08/13/2016 2nd MMC 02/14/2017
BFP 06/16/17 Rainbow DS Born 02/05/2018
I think if something is wrong, they move fast to have someone with authority contact you. The technologists know (even though they can't tell you) and let the radiologists know that they need to read the scan asap.
Fingers crossed you get your good news soon!
DD born 04/28/2002
Married DH 03/25/2017
1st MMC 08/13/2016 2nd MMC 02/14/2017
BFP 06/16/17 Rainbow DS Born 02/05/2018
Me: 35 | DH: 38
Met: 2007
Married: 2013
BFP #1: 06/21/16 MMC: 08/04/16
BFP #2: 01/08/17 DD: 09/23/17
BFP #3: 06/10/20 EDD: 02/11/2021
No words can make you feel better I know...but I am SO very sorry to hear this news and i'm heartbroken for you...not fair, not fair, not fair.
Sending you lots of love and light...
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Losses:
#1: 8wks MMC 4/16
#2: 13+4 T21 + Hydrops 3/17
Type 1 Diabetes since 2001, MTHFR hetero A1298T
Dogs: Raider 4 yrs, Dex 4 yrs
BFP #2 7/6/16 SCH, D&C 8/4/16
BFP #3 12/26/16 EDD: 9/6/17
My Chart / My Diabetes/Pregnancy Blog
My Type 1/TTC/Pregnancy Podcast:
Juicebox Podcast Episode 118
A1Cs:
1/12/16 6.7%
5/25/16 6.0%
11/2/16 6.1%
3/22/16 5.8%
4/27/17 5.4%
6/13/17 5.3%
"Sugar Fancy Tutu"
The fact that I have this baby to be excited about is making things much easier but it was still a kick in the teeth.