**WARNING Bfp mentioned**

thistle8677

Oh ladies....
Posting this comes with so many emotions.
After the 5th time I vomited today, I took a test and there was NO question at all, two bright pink lines within seconds.
I'm in shock because we've been on this journey for longer than I could have ever imagined, and because nearly every year of my life something super intense and usually terrible happens in the month of December...so to have this gift instead...I'm truly blown away. Speechless.

There are of course fears of loss, so every day is going to be one foot in front of the other until we can breathe a true sigh of relief.
I feel like crap so I don't know how much posting I'll do, but I really am cheering you all on.
I'm not ready to move boards yet if that's okay that I stick around a little longer? 

Thank you to all that really cheered me on over the years and months and even just weeks for anyone I've just met
I'm still wishing BFP's on all of you. Xoxo

Momifbysea

@thistle8677 OMG I am so thrilled for you! I just read this to my husband after five minutes prior having JUST told him that nobody on our board had had a BFP since like June and that we all needed some motivation from at least ONE of us getting one! I was just telling him I had this feeling about you and then logged on to read this awesome news!!! I'm typing this with happy tears in my eyes. Many blessings to you!!!

vlagrl29

happy dance!!!! I'm so happy you tested.  I told you that I felt like death when I was first pregnant with DD.  Congrats and hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months with a beautiful healthy baby!  EEEKKK!  I know I haven't known you for very long but I'd be happy if you stayed around for a bit.  Maybe you will break the seal for the rest of us  I saw a shooting star on the way home from yoga tonight and I wished for a little baby.  I'm glad you finally got yours.  

If the puking continues ask your OB for zofran.  It was a life saver for me.  I took it my entire pregnancy.  I was so sick with my daughter.  Sucking on peppermints and chewing on ginger gum will really help with the nausea as well.  You can get ginger gum at CVS in the medicine aisle.  Also smelling pure essential lavender oil will help as well.

ETA - were you doing anything different this cycle?  Just curious.

PoeMasque

yay! fx that this is it for you guys, hang in there!

lickastick

Lurking lurkerson here. I can't help myself I have to say CONGRATULATIONS! All fingers and toes crossed that this one sticks. You have been through so much you deserve it!! 

lickastick

@Sporty1216 also sends a huge congratulations and FX (she can't get to a computer right now but wanted me to let you know;) 

amberruka

Congratulations, girl!!!! 

thistle8677

I'm still in awe and thank you so much again for all the support! @createillumination & @Sporty1216
I feel so special you're lurking over here to check in!!!!

@Momifbysea you made me smile I absolutely recall a time maybe less than 2 years ago on this board when there was an infinite dry spell. We were all like someone please just get a BFP and prove it's possible! Well, once they started they really rolled on, so here's to a large heaping scoop out of the bag of baby dust. 

@PoeMasque you are the reason I didn't get too down on 9dpo, and the reason I finally tested on 17dpo. So thank you for your encouragement.                                     

@amberruka thank you! 

@vlagrl29 you asked if there was anything different we did specifically and I honestly think that my man's health improved with his getting more regular IVIG treatments for his brain disease. He also switched 3 mo ago to have his testosterone regulated by a reproductive urologist rather than his endocrinologist. He got off of some other medications that I think may have been affecting his testosterone levels. Because his levels were better we can only guess his sperm count and motility increased, which is why for the first time in a year we were able to bd 3 times in the fertile window rather than only once or twice. 

I think I mentioned in one of my responses to a post that at one point in the middle of bd'ing I literally broke down sobbing. I knew this was our last try in my heart before IVF, and I also knew that affording IVF at this time was going to be nearly impossible for us. I was surrendering I suppose. This past weekend I started looking into foster to adoption in the United States and became convinced this was our path. And it may still be. Whether I am able to complete this pregnancy or not. I think I got to a place in my heart that just knew the joy of sharing a child with my man, after all he's suffered, after the things we've endured in 5 short years was a dream that I wasn't willing to give up on, but that I was willing to give up on how I wanted it to be.

I couldn't have forced myself here, it took the breaking of our hearts for 29mo. 
I don't think I could thank this board enough. Ever. 

vlagrl29

@thistle8677 - it makes me so happy to hear that.  Glad your mans health is improving.  I guess sometimes it takes that moment of realizing it may not happen and looking into other options for it to happen.  Glad you didn't have to IVF - I know we could never afford it.  Now I'm hoping we can all get the BFP ball rolling!  I for one am very positive this month as both of my tests came back good this week.  Just 2 more and then I will just feel so relieved.  For me its that "what if" that has been in my mind the last few months.  what if my tubes are blocked, what if a hormone if out of range, what if DH has some sperm issues - I will feel so much more at peace by the end of this month.

Momifbysea

Oh @thistle8677 now I'm all tearing up at my desk! So happy for you.

carrieandr

@thistle8677 is right -- there was a long dry spell in 2015 and I was one of the large group that suddenly got pregnant very close together. (I am typing this with my 4 month old daughter on my lap.) I couldn't help but notice this is the same time of year it happened for all of us. I hope you guys have a bunch of bfp's to follow Thistle!

thistle8677

@CarrieandRoy

Labluver2

Congragulations!!!!! 

KLake42

Yay yay yay yay yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm so freaking happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!

thistle8677

@KLake42 omg, what a journey. It's not over yet, but I'm remaining hopeful! When is your transfer?
I hope to hell you're up asap! Xoxo

KLake42

The tentative transfer dates are 1/19-1/21, depending on how everything goes!

thistle8677

How is your wife feeling???

KLake42

She's good, although nervous.  She's never been on birth control before, let alone this crazy concoction of hormones.  But she's adjusting!  My last birth control pill was last night, and I'm already taking lupron, will start estrogen in a few days.  Her last birth control pill is next week, with a base line Jan 3, and then it's loads of shots and ultrasounds until the egg retrieval.

thistle8677

@KLake42 I'm thinking of you both! All those hormones are insane. Omg I'm so excited for you!!!!!! I'm sending all my most positive vibes to both of you! 

jennh75b

Just popping in to see if there were any BFPs...I'm so incredibly happy for you @thistle8677 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  You deserve it!!!  Wishing you the absolute best in your pregnancy journey!  I got your PM just now that you sent me a while back.  I'm so glad things are working out for you!