Doubts-losses mentioned

carterh33

Does any one else have doubts with all this? After TTC for over a year and two losses I just get discouraged sometimes. Some times I wonder if I'm even meant to be a mom or if this is God'a way of making sure I'm not a mother. I know my DH and I want a baby so bad. 
I start my first medicated cycle next month and our dr says we have pretty good odds of conceiving within a few months, but as next month gets closer I can't help but think all the pressure that comes with each new cycle from now on. 
I don't have any living children, but I hear parenting can be pretty challenging. I feel most 'typical' couples at least get to enjoy getting pregnant and the pregnancy itself when now because of my history getting/staying pregnant is a worry for me. There's no part of it that's easy. I just hope in the end, this will all be worth it. 

Ok venting over, have a great day ladies! 

Lin&say

Hi @carterh33. I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. What you're feeling is totally normal. Infertility is such a hard journey. I think anyone who has been through it has felt hopeless, frustrated, and full of doubt over whether it will happen or not. It sounds cheesy, but for me, it helps to take a step back and remind myself of all the things I'm thankful for instead of constantly dwelling on what I don't have. It's hard to get out of bed some days, sure. But I just remind myself I'll get there someday and I try to enjoy all the quiet sleep-filled nights in the meantime

Does your dr have any idea what caused your previous losses? It sounds like a good sign that he's optimistic about your chances. I hope that he's right and you'll get your bfp soon. Best of luck 

rainbowwishes5

@carterh33 HUGS!!!!! Omg hugs. I feel the EXACT same way and so ill give you the same advice/self talk I give myself in my better moments: have faith!!! Statistics are with you! The odds are in you favor if you give it time. Try to be patient and practice all the self-care you need/want. Now is all you time. 

jewellbush

I absolutely feel this way! Some days are worse than others, but like PP said, I try to focus on all the wonderful things in my life - a loving and understanding husband, a supportive family, a beautiful home, a successful career, and most importantly - hope. 

Good luck in this journey! Hugs!

Knottie31699316

I feel the exact same way. I am now 35, and we have been trying for baby #1 for 1.5 years. We have had two pregnancies during that time, both ending in missed miscarriage. All testing has been negative. This month, I was supposed to start Clomid and IUI, but it was cancelled because I have a large, estrogen producing ovarian cyst. If it is still there next month, they might aspirate it and try to salvage the next cycle. The whole experience has been really disheartening, and sometimes I wonder what we are even doing. Good luck to all of you ladies in this difficult journey!!!!