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Losing Hope

mjjc7709mjjc7709 member
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It's been a long time since I've posted/looked at the message boards. I don't know how to feel anymore. I don't have any children except for my "angel babies." I had 2 miscarriages last year and 1 last month. As soon as I stopped bleeding last month, my husband and I tried again. One week ago I noticed that I was feeling nauseated and my breasts were feeling very painful like my other pregnancies, so I took an analog pregnancy test and got a faint positive. My period still hasn't come and I'm still feeling pregnant. I still have sore breasts, nausea, dizziness and fatigue. Just to "confirm" I took a digital pregnancy test this morning and it's negative. I fear I may be having a chemical pregnancy or early miscarriage. 

I don't know what to think anymore. Is there anyone out there who can offer some advice? Hope? I don't know. I need something. 
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Re: Losing Hope

  • laeberge3laeberge3 member
    Sorry for your losses.  With your most recent loss, did you track your hcg levels down to zero?  It's possible that hcg remains in your system at a low level.  I think digital tests aren't as sensitive, so you may not have high enough levels to register on a digital test.  I would see about getting a blood test to test levels. 
    Me: 35     DH: 37
    BFP: 1.6.16 | MC: 2.17.16
    BFP: 10.3.16 | CP: 10.11.16
    BFP: 12.14.16 | CP: 12.14.16
    BFP:  1.23.17 | EDD 10.6.17 -- DS born 10.7.17 <3
    BFP:  9.9.18 | EDD 5.23.19 -- DD born 5.24.19 <3
    BFP: 9.1.21 | MC 10.1.21
    BFP: 11.11.21 | EDD 7.24.22 

     

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  • mjjc7709mjjc7709 member
    @laeberge3 Thank you for responding. Yes I got the quants done before. I was hoping I could get more drawn now but my OB-GYN won't have me come to the office until the 29th. Not feeling every hopeful. 
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  • laeberge3laeberge3 member
    @mjjc7709 Sorry you're not feeling hopeful. If your doctor won't order the hcg testing, I'd wait a couple days and retest at home to see if the line is still there/has darkened any.   I hope you get some answers soon; being in limbo is the worst. 
    Me: 35     DH: 37
    BFP: 1.6.16 | MC: 2.17.16
    BFP: 10.3.16 | CP: 10.11.16
    BFP: 12.14.16 | CP: 12.14.16
    BFP:  1.23.17 | EDD 10.6.17 -- DS born 10.7.17 <3
    BFP:  9.9.18 | EDD 5.23.19 -- DD born 5.24.19 <3
    BFP: 9.1.21 | MC 10.1.21
    BFP: 11.11.21 | EDD 7.24.22 

     

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  • mjjc7709mjjc7709 member
    @laeberge3 I truly appreciate the response. Being in limbo is definitely hard. I just want to be able to move on. Either way, I'll just have to wait it out.
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  • mjjc7709mjjc7709 member
    Starting spot a little. Maybe AF will finally come.  :(
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  • Hopefulmommy1980Hopefulmommy1980 member
    I am sorry :(
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  • NewMommyCoopNewMommyCoop member
    @mjjc7709 I am very sorry for your losses. Hopefully the spotting was AF so you have some closure.
    **TW - Loss & Child mentioned**
    Me: 40  DH: 47
    Married: 10/2015
    DSD: 17
    BFP #1: 6/2/15, ectopic, metho 7/15
    BFP #2: 12/4/15, cp 12/7/15
    BFP #3: 8/5/16, MMC discovered 9/1, Misoprostol 9/19
    BFP #4: 5/10/17, EDD 1/20/2018
    Baby boy born January 12, 2018, 6 lbs 3.3 oz, 20.5 in.

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