Something I'm struggling with lately - how our TTC struggles have affected my career. Mostly, it's the waiting and not-knowing.
Without getting too into the details, my work now has pros and cons. I've been there for a few years, I know the job really well, I have a great manager who is understanding and supportive - the best manager I've had! I'm compensated fairly, all of that is fine.
But there's no opportunity for advancement, so I can't increase my compensation, and I've kind of learned as much as I can. I mean, I learn a little bit each month obviously, but I'm nowhere near as challenged as I was in the first couple of years of the role. Sometimes I miss really being able to sink my teeth into my work, you know?
In the 6 months before we started trying, there were some layoffs at my work. In the early months of our trying, there were more. This really changed the environment. Some of my friends were let go.
If we weren't trying to have a baby, or going to try to have a baby, I would have found a new role a long time ago. Over the year, I've seen a few jobs that I thought would be interesting, and I've thrown my hat into the ring, but nothing's panned out.
I'm starting to think I should aggressively hunt for a new job, but every time I think that, I hesitate: what if I get pregnant this month? What if I can't find as good a boss? What if I'm visibly pregnant at the interview for my dream job? Right now, I'd want to take a longer maternity leave, but if I started a new job, that might not be an option.
Is anyone else putting their career in a holding pattern while they wait for their BFP & baby?
Me: 34 DH: 35
TTC #1 since Nov 2015.
Dec 2016 - Apr 2017 - IUI + clomid x 4 - all BFN
July 2017 - IVF#1 - 4 frozen embryos, medical freeze
Oct 2017 - D&C
Nov 2017 - Apr 2018 - 3x FET - all BFN
Sep 2018 - IVF#2 w PGS - 3 frozen normal embryos
Nov 2018 - FET #4 - BFP