Been having a difficult wknd and just had to vent. One of my friends from hs is unexpectedly in town this wknd with her baby and I'm getting together with her and 2 other friends from hs (one has a baby and the other one doesn't want kids). We are having a dinner party tmrw night with the babies and the DHs ( except mine who has to work) and I just feel awful at the thought of sitting there by myself with both babies and incessant baby talk. None of my friends have been very supportive- my 1 friend never reached out again after I told her. My other friend when I told her I had a shitty year after 2 back to back losses asked me what else happened to me this year. My one friend and her DH always bring up how you dont want to have kids after a certain age and should have kids sooner than later.
Just thinking about how they have reacted to this and sitting there with them and their babies is just too much for me. I am trying to be strong but I just can't have it thrown in my face like this and it just stings that none of them care or realize how difficult this would be for me.