Hello, I was part of this group many moons ago when I had my first miscarriage back in February 2013. This group helped pick me up off my feet. It let me whine, cry, complain, moan, empathize...it saved me. I appreciate everything so so much. I was able to move on and move forward thankfully, but now 3 1/2 years later, I find myself here I again.
We decided to try for another baby back in May. Got my IUD removed, waited the recommended 2 months to really try (since I scoured the internet about miscarriage rates and IUDs and they all recommended that. Found out that I was pregnant in August. Old nerves popped up so my doctor chose to monitor my levels. First one was low, second one didn't quite double, third one dropped. I was "lucky" enough this time that everything happened on it's own and my levels were back to 0 within a week.
Fast forward the next month, I continued temping, ovulated on time, but nothing happened. All of my symptoms were the same, but tests wouldn't turn positive (I swear I saw lines, but I'm probably crazy). I convinced myself it wasn't happened and decided to move on with my life. But, still no AF. I googled longer luteal phases after miscarriages and only found people with shorter ones. So a few days later, to shut myself up once and for all, I took a HPT and imagine my surprise when it was positive. I nearly fell over.
Petrified, I called my doctor, went in immediately for blood work and found out it was a 4, which they don't even consider positive. So my questions. 1) What the hell is going on? 2) How can I have multiple positive HPTs, but be a 4 (nurse couldn't even explain that one) 3) If I'm not, why did my level go up and where is AF? 4) HUH?
I know no one can answer this (although I'm sure we all wish we had special glasses to look and see what was going on in there). I go back for follow-up levels tomorrow. I just. This sucks. I can't believe I'm here again. I can't believe I'm here again, again and so soon. I hate that there has to be a board for this. That people actually experience this. I don't really know what I'm looking for? Hope? Empathy? A jeez that sucks? But I've been thinking of this board for days, so I decided to pop back in. It just seemed like the thing to do to help heal my heart.