Today is 3 months from when our baby girl went to heaven. I didn't even think about it until my mom sent me a message after arguing with me (because I started running again... I ran 1 mile and she's trying to convince me that running is bad for me because it will affect my hormones!) Anyway, just got really down. Probably partly because I feel guilty I didn't remember today (I've thought about it many time before today though!). Partly because I feel guilty because I feel like I'm doing better than I should. Most days I feel fine- a "new normal" because I think about her and what happened to me constantly, but most of the time it doesn't bring me down. Partly because I am just so so sad she's not here with us. I'm doing ok, just having a down moment and need to share and my husband is out of town tonight.