TTCAL weekly check-in 9/5

DungeonTrollMel

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new):

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.):

3. Rants/raves:

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?

chloe97

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): Not new, but I will introduce for the new folks. I'm Chloe. I had 2 losses-1 MMC at 10 weeks and 1 at 13 weeks due to Triploidy. 

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): WTO/Benched. Cd 15. No signs of ovulation, so I bet it's going to be late this month. I think DH and I may HIO today or tomorrow and leave it at that, I'm under no instructions to wait, but I'm not exactly feeling excited to be pregnant again. I'm 37 and want 2 kids so I can't really wait too long. 

3. Rants/raves: We visited my family this weekend who we hadn't seen together since my wedding. It was good and bad. Loved seeing my niece and nephews and we had so much fun, but it stung hard when my mom asked for a picture of all her grandchildren together. She should have a 5th grandchild right now and it sucks that no one even acknowledged that. My fathers health is fading and it also makes me sad my children will likely not remember him. 

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it? The beginning of June, which coincidentally is my favorite time of the year. We don't really have traditions. We just go out to dinner or a concert or something fun!

Taggarab

1) Not new, but I am Anna. I had an ectopic pregnancy in January and lost my right tube. 

2) I am fairly certain I am in TWW right now even though I don't have cross hairs yet. CD 17 and had a positive OPK on CD 13. I should get cross hairs tomorrow with one more high temp. Does anyone else input temps after they think they've Oed just to see where it would put cross hairs? I may be crazy. Haha.

3) DH keeps making jokes about how I am probably pregnant right now. I know he means well, but it makes me feel like shit because I don't believe it and even if I get a positive test this month still probably won't believe it for a while. I think some guys have a hard time getting our emotions.

4) My birthday is in January and ever since I was little we have always gone out for hibachi. Kind of silly, but I do love it!

stephann85

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new):
Not new but haven't been posting a ton due to the busy summer, so I due a quick intro. DH and I started TTC Dec 2015 and have 2 MMC since.  First D&C was February 5th and the 2nd was June 24th. Found out there was retained tissue the last week of August following AF due to an u/s since my hcg still wasn't zero. Had a hysteroscopy with D&C on Sept. 1st. While they were in there, they found I also had a fibroid that could be causing some of the infertility issues. So they removed that as well.

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.):
Benched and TWW? So I know I am benched until my next AF. But not sure when to expect AF because this isn't like a normal D&C where I have to wait weeks for my hormones to return to normal. They should be effectively zero, since my hcg was 7 when I had my hysteroscopy. If I am not starting over on cycle then my next AF should be around the 20th and they did my hysteroscopy during my FW.

3. Rants/raves: I don't know that I really have any rants or raves. I am just happy to be moving forward again. And for the first time in the last 2 months I am looking forward to TTC.

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?
My birthday is in about a week. Last year DH threw me a surprise party for my 30th. But usually we just go to dinner, movie, or a Milwaukee Brewers game (definitely not this year though). Since it falls on a Tuesday this year I am suspecting we will do something low key like dinner and a movie.

edited because words

DungeonTrollMel

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): long timer around here. MMC at 9 weeks on 2/29 CP in April and another in June 

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): TWW

3. Rants/raves: BFNs are even harder when you are now on to medicated cycles for TTCAL

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?

next week. My tradition is i usually try to pretend it isn't happening. I hate attention on birthdays. Just let me eat 4 cupcakes with no judgement in peace 

stephann85

@Taggarab -  Sometimes men just don't understand. I think my DH did that a couple times before we got our 2nd BFP, but I think it was just his way of trying to be supportive or to cope in some weird way.

stephann85

Just a heads up for those who have a hard time watching shows where there is pregnancy, apparently TBS thought it would be a great day to show all the Friend's episodes that deal with pregnancy today due to Labor Day.

Edited because once again words have bested me.

chloe97

@DungeonTrollMel I'm so sorry about the BFN. Hopefully it was just too early?

SoonToBeMommaHowe

Happy short week everyone! 

1) Not new but there are a cpl names out there I'm not familiar with. I'm Julia, mono-mono twin miscarriage in May '15, followed by secondary infertility. We're currently on our 13 month post loss and have our first RE appt in Nov.

2. CD14, WTO (I O'd cd19 last cycle so there could be some action coming up soon)

3. Raves - I'm a huge fan of seasons, holidays and decorating so on Saturday I lit a bunch of apple-pumpkin candles (Yankee candles best fall scent by far) and put up the fall decorations. I love this weather, crisp, cool mornings and warm days, ahh. 

4. July 8th, two days after my dad. I used to LOVE my birthday, celebrating, throwing huge parties, lots of booze, etc. Until last year when I should've been KU but wasn't. Now birthdays are just another day, DH and I have done a nice dinner the last two years to celebrate. 

Sorry about the BFN @DungeonTrollMel. I swear I could tell myself 15 times before I POAS that it's gonna be BFN and I still get sad when I see that it's actually BFN. 

roxgibbons

1. Not new but will re-introduce. TTC since January/ February 2015. MMC February 2016 at 10+2 weeks. Resumed medicated cycles after hysteroscopy in April. 

2. TWW 12 dpiui 

3. It's starting to dawn on me that we are reaching the end of our medicated cycles journey. If we get a BFN then we will do one more maybe 2 at most. It's just so emotionally draining and all the meds and their side effects. I've just been beaten down. Also- I went out to dinner with two girlfriends the other night who both dealt w/ infertility several years back and one had a loss. They just seemed so whatever about the whole thing when we discussed it. I told them I was in TWW and upset since my EDD is coming up,  and one who is older she's in her mid forties all of a sudden says, "wouldn't it be amazing if I randomly got pregnant!" She kept continuing on that and it really bothered me. It's like you're not even trying, why would you mention that? I noticed every time I'm in a TWW she says something along those lines and turns it about her eventhough they're done with TTC. I know she doesn't mean anything by it but it just bothers me. I take my beta on Wednesday, I'm so done with this wait. 

4. My birthday is July 11. DH does what we call a "terrific lady day"  where we essentially do what I want. It usually involves brunch, a hike maybe shopping and a nice dinner later. One tradition I do love is my mom for every family member's birthday does a family dinner and cake at her house. She even decorates w/ happy birthday decor. I've always enjoyed that. 

@DungeonTrollMel I'm sorry for the BFN, I know all too well the disappointment with medicated cycles. It's like having additional support you expect the chances for a positive to go up. I hope it's just too early. I think you're a day behind me right? 

*edited to fix wrong tag

stephann85

@roxgibbons - best of luck on your beta this Wednesday. FX for you.

AnonymousMom

Hello again (and, yes, I posted on the 8/29 thread without really thinking about it)!

I'm not new (but not a very prolific poster) but I'll summarize my history since that seems the theme.  My husband and I are fortunate to have a wonderful 13 month old little boy. I had a very early miscarriage in June 2016 and we're now trying to conceive again to give him a sibling.

Today is CD23 and 9DPO.

My birthday is at the very end of July. When I was growing up we usually had candles in pancakes for our birthday breakfast. More recently our son was born the day before my birthday so I spent my 2015 birthday in the hospital and my 2016 birthday wondering where time had gone and anticipating all the fun of another year with our new toddler.

rainbowturtles

Sorry for the BFN @DungeonTrollMel I do imagine it would be much harder on a medicated cycle

1. I guess I'll do a short intro since other people have. I'm 34, SO is 39. We had a MC in Feb (and I had one 10yrs ago, too) and this will be our third cycle TTC post loss.

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): TWW, 6dpo

3. Rants/raves: I was sort of doing okay until that debacle with my mom and SIL yesterday and today I just still feel down and like I don't have a chance this cycle and that the rest of the TWW is going to take forever I'm having one of those "it's never going to happen for me" days. I'll try to find something to turn my mind around, just not sure what.

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?

March 19th. I'm such a Pisces. No real traditions but I usually call March my "birthday month" and try to do things throughout the month. Everyone deserves a month I do like cashing in on birthday freebies like free Starbucks, free David's Tea, free Booster Juice, etc since you don't have to get them all ON your birthday; there's usually a couple weeks of opportunity.

AnonymousMom

@Taggarab
My husband doesn't really joke about it but he is so optimistic. So he's already planning for a mid-May baby sister for our son.  It is just kind of in the background of his thoughts even though in reality I'm likely not pregnant and even if I am there is around a 50% chance that our son's sibling could be a little brother. In fairness we would both be thrilled with a healthy baby of either sex but of course husband thinks it would be nice to have a little girl since we have a little boy already.

AnonymousMom

Happy (early) Birthday to @DungeonTrollMel and @stephann85!

chloe97

Hi @anonymousmom Welcome to our group and I'm sorry for your loss. This board is pretty easygoing, but you may want to TW your posts about your toddler. Some people on this board have been TTC after a loss for awhile and their losses would be about your son's age. Many of us are still trying for our 1st and have a hard time hearing about babies and toddlers since it seems elusive for us. We don't really have a hard and fast rule about TW around LC, but for people having a hard TTCAL day, reading about your toddler in multiple posts could trigger a lot of emotions.

Thanks so much! 

BitterBetty12

@Taggarab Oh yeah, I always put future temps into FF to see what it will do! 

@roxgibbons FX for you this week!! I'm sorry to hear about your friends being so insensitive. Hugs. 

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): Not new, but the quick intro is I had a natural miscarriage close to 7 weeks at the end of May. 

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): TWW, 30/10. BFN today. 

3. Rants/raves: Well after the stark white BFNs this morning I went into a cleaning frenzy and then went out to get clothes since I start back at work tomorrow. After I left old navy I basically had a breakdown in the car when it finally hit me. There were so many good things about this cycle (I ovulated at my normal time, my progesterone was amazing, my LP seems to be increasing hopefully back to normal, my H is finally excited at the idea of me getting pregnant again, etc) so I know I should be happy about that. But at the same time, my hopes were way too high because of those things. This is the first cycle TTCAL I felt like I even had a chance in, and I let myself get too optimistic. And there's something so much worse about a BFN while TTCAL. It's hard not to sit here and think how unfair and messed up this process is.

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?
Sooooo I'm going to pass on this question for now. My EDD is 2 days after my birthday and I'm dreading anything and everything about that rolling around. I don't want to celebrate. 

chloe97

@BitterBetty12 I'm so sorry about the BFN. I totally understand what you mean about the BFN after a loss is so much more painful. Especially when you feel like you had a really good shot this cycle.

@roxgibbons FX this is your cycle! How are you holding out testing at 12 dpiui? 

@rainbowturtles I read your story about you SIL on the rant board and I just want to say- I'm so sorry! 

@Taggarab I put in future high temps all of the time to test out CH. you are not alone!

@stephann85 Thanks for the heads up about Friends Labor Day special. I've seen all sorts of pregnancy references to Labor Day on social media today and it's super annoying. As if it wasn't hard enough to navigate triggers.

TScalei

1. DH and I are both 32 and have had 2 losses this year -a mmc in March and another one in August. Going to explore RPL testing with an RE specialist next week.

2. Benched until AF comes back so I'm thinking at least another 4 -5 weeks.

3. Feeling okay. I just miscarried naturally last week so I am just relieved that it's over and I can move on. Also followed up my miscarriage with a bout of pink eye - so last week was all kinds of fun. It kind of hits me in waves that it's over (for a second time) and that I have now had 2 losses.

4. My birthday is 3/31. Usually have pretty low key celebrations with DH and my parents. Not a huge birthday person but I don't hate my birthday either.

@taggarab - I totally get DH not understanding emotions. No matter how supportive they are they just don't get it. And I love hibachi!

@DungeonTrollMel - sorry for the BFN!

@soontobemommahowe - I love holiday decks and getting out fall soaps and candles. DH makes fun of me for how excited I get, lol.

Hope your feeling better today @rainbowturtles.

@bitterbetty12 - I'm sorry for the BFN. It is worse after a loss - I think your just desperately hoping for things turn around and something good to happen (at least that's how I feel). 

Taggarab

Man...I am so sorry to hear about the BFNs @DungeonTrollMel and @BitterBetty12

AnonymousMom

@chloe97, @BornReady, @BitterBetty12, @rainbowturtles, and anyone else I've upset or offended, my sincerest apologies. If I post on any of the check in threads in the future I'll be sure to add a TW.

chloe97

No worries @AnonymousMom! I always forget to add TW when I post on TTGP or TTC35 about my loss. It's easy not to think about it.

szwill86

@bitterbetty12 sorry about the bfn. And your EDD so close to your bday- I'm in the same boat as you. I'm worried that any bday joy I've had will forever be overshadowed by what could have been. 

Introduce yourself (if you're new): not new, but reintro: complete mc at 17+4 back in May.

Status: WTO, CD 13. On my 3rd month ttcal. Some ewcm this am but no positive opk in sight. 

Rants/raves: glad Hurricane Hermine was a bust for where I am. DH was/is working all weekend and the thought of being home alone and something happen was making me nervous. 

GYKY: bday is in october, EDD is 6 days after. It's a "milestone" bday this yr and I'm not a big bday person, so I'm just glad that I can hopefully fly under the radar as I have in yrs past. Trying not to think of where I would have been for this bday is tough, though. 

bktosf78

@roxgibbons I'm so sorry your friend was so insensitive. I have really similar experiences with my friends, and it sometimes baffles the mind. 

1) New to the board this cycle. TTC #1 on and off for a few years now. MC on Aug 3 at 6w. Each day since has been an insane roller coaster of hopeful optimism and refusing-to-leave-the-house depression. I'm generally not much of a joiner, but am finding this board really helpful.

2) CD9, WTO. Today through Thurs is the FW, so being hopeful and trying to relax and do lots of laughing. 

3) Sometimes DH makes me mad, like yesterday: On a climbing trip, I discovered in front of his friends that he still keeps his athletic tape in a years-old Ziploc bag that his ex wrote "Baby Dove Sugar Bottom" on. Grrrr, come on, guy! But usually he is great. He's supportive as he can be, hasn't protested putting his swimmers in a cup, and keeps to our BD schedule without my ever having to bring it up. He is thoughtful and says things like, "When we have dinner with so-and-so tonight, she might bring up her friend Ashley who just gave birth last week. I just thought you might want to know ahead of time." So this is mostly a rave, I guess. Right now I really need to know he's my biggest champion.

4) Between Christmas and New Year's. As a kid it was the worst. As an adult, I know I'm going to get to see all the people I love the most, so it's the best.

TScalei

Welcome @SFtoBKtoYVR - I totally get the roller coaster of emotions - it's the worst. I'm sorry to see you here but this Board is great.

Aera11

@DungeonTrollMel sorry about the BFN

@chloe97 yeah that is so hard, I'm sorry you had to experience that.  It always makes my heart hurt thinking about how my parents should have a grandchild by now.

@TScalei omg, pink eye on top of your miscarriage?  I am SO sorry, that's a horrible week.  Hopefully you're doing ok.

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.):  CD 11, WTO.  I went in yesterday for bloodwork and an ultrasound...the largest follicle was measuring about 9mm so they up'd by gonal f dose and I go back tomorrow to see if they've grown.  

3. Rants/raves:  not a ton either way right now.  Not feeling super hopeful this cycle and have had a lot of hypochondria lately.  I was convinced I felt a lump in my boob and my newest thing is that I think I have a bunion.  

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?  August 23rd, so I just had had one!  We usually do dinner with my family one night and then DH and I either do brunch or a picnic and a fun dinner or event.  This year was the first birthday I've ever had that I didn't care a ton about and was sad; it to me felt like another milestone without a child.

*edited for spelling

chloe97

@Aera11 I'm so sorry about the hypochondria. I've had it SO badly after this loss. My mom's a retired nurse and she told me to start calling her when I start down my rabbit hole about a symptoms. My "issues" that I start thinking are cancer are GI-related, so I'm trying to eat more fiber and that seems to be helping. Have you thought about seeing your OB and having a breast exam? I've found that a Dr reassuring me that all was ok helps a lot too. Anyway, just know you aren't alone. Hypochondria is often spurred by grief. I had it terribly after my aunt died a couple years ago. It took a few months, but I got over it.

BitterBetty12

@Aera11 I second everything @chloe97 said. I've had severe hypochondria in the past. The worst lasted for about a year after I graded from college. For a long time I avoided doctors because they would spur my anxiety. But when I finally went I realized how much better I felt after a doctor checked everything out and was able to assure me I was ok. I also always thought I felt bumps, so it was easy to have the doctor actually feel the areas I was feeling and be able to definitively say there's nothing there, or what is here is nothing to worry about.

NewMommyCoop

@DungeonTrollMel and @BitterBetty12 - I'm sorry for the BFN

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): Not new, but my name is Renae. This is my third loss.

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): Benched. Waiting to MC naturally. Found out last week at my third u/s that there was no longer a heartbeat.

3. Rants/raves: I hate not knowing what to expect or when this will happen. My DH took me to dinner last Friday night for my birthday and he brought up that he has to leave this coming Sunday for a work trip. I am freaking out that I will MC while he is gone. His 15 y/o daughter does not know about the pregnancy and I don't know what I will do if it does happen while he is gone. My DH has full custody since she was 18 months old and her "mother" lives out of state. SD wants us to have a baby, but we decided that we would not tell her until the second trimester, just in case.

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?
Last week. In the past, we go out to dinner as a family and then DH and I go out for a date to celebrate. My parents go to Hawaii every year for Labor Day (golf tournament) so we usually have dinner with them later in the month.

TScalei

Oh my goodness Im so sorry @newmommycoop. I just mc naturally last week after waiting 2 weeks. And waiting for it to happen is just so hard. I hope you don't have to wait too long. Please feel free to reach out if you have any questions.

szwill86

So sorry for your loss, @newmommycoop. Hopefully you won't have to wait too much longer and you will have the support of your DH when it does happen. 

NewMommyCoop

@TScalei and @szwill86 - Thank you. I know DH is stressing about it too, but there is really not much he can do. His job is very stressful and it would not be good for him to cancel the trip. I think my mom is going to come stay with us for a few days, just in case. 

Aera11

@chloe97 & @BitterBetty12 as sad as it is that we all have to go through this and experience it, I am so sooo thankful to know I am not alone.  I am so sorry you both have had to go through that, it can be kind of scary and very isolating.  My mom is a retired nurse as well and my dad is a doctor, so I know I can run my 'symptoms' by them if I need reassurance.  

on a side note, why won't my damn follicles grow?!?  wtf.  I went in today for another u/s and there are three on the right that are 8, 9 & 10...nothing really on the left (shocker).  These stupid shots were SO expensive and I feel like they're not doing anything.  I know there is hope because I tend to ovulate later than CD14 and today I am only CD12, but I also know I run the risk of egg quality and I hate having to make that decision on whether we'll roll those dice. I just don't know how long I'll be able to do this before I beg for IVF or head towards adoption...

chloe97

So sorry @Aera11. It's so frustrating. I also worry about late ovulation and egg quality. I usually ovulate at CD 17, the cycle of my last MC it was CD 24. I wish we wouldn't have tried that cycle. I've read that late ovulation can cause egg quality issues, but usually only if it's after like CD 20.

AFM, I'm at CD 16 today. No EWCM, some watery CM but that's it. Wondfos are super light. DH and I will HIO today and maybe Wednesday or Thursday and leave it at that. If I don't ovulate by Friday, we will go back to TTA until next cycle. So annoyed that I actually ovulate early and have EWCM for the first time since TTC my last cycle on the bench. Figures. 

Aera11

I mean, I am glad I am now aware of egg quality but wish I would have known this time last year when I was about to get my first BFP.  @chloe97 it's so unfair that we actually have to make these decisions.  I think even if I ovulate late this cycle, we'll still go for it.  We didn't last cycle and it felt like such a waste.

MyNamesTaken

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): I'm a newbie. I'm one week post D&C (my first loss). We found out at our 12 week us that the baby had died between 8 and 9 weeks. I had to wait another two hellish weeks for the D&C. We have a 2yo son.

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): I'm benched until I have a cycle, so hoping that comes soon.

3. Rants/raves: I don't have anyone close to me who's had a loss. Nobody seems to get how hard it's been so I'm happy to be here and see everyone else getting through. Physically I feel better than I have in a while which is kind of cruel since emotionally I'm not. I'm working on getting in shape so I'm ready to TTC again l which is a nice distraction but i wish my head and body would get on the same page.

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it? Before Christmas. DH takes me for dinner and then we watch Love Actually and eat cake. I'm not one for birthdays so it's perfect

PleaseSendPicklesNow

@taggarab Your husband's eagerness is sweet, but I understand how you feel. I'd feel so pressured!

@chloe97 I share your sadness that my children probably won't have the chance to know older family members. It makes each loss sting a little more.

1. I've introduced myself before, but for those who are new: I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks in 2015. Two months later, I got pregnant again. Our son was born earlier this summer, had open heart surgery when he was 5 days old, and died of respiratory failire caused by a rare genetic disorder when he was 3 weeks old.

2. I visited the doctor last Friday and was given the thumbs-up to start trying again in October!!! We thought we'd be benched until at least January, so we're thrilled.

3. Rant: I'm 6 weeks postpartum. Two nights ago, a teenage cashier asked if I'm expecting. I laughed it off and told her I just had a baby. But when I got to the car, I cried. I'd been having a good night until that happened. Universe, I DO NOT need any more reminders that he's gone!!!

4. My birthday and my husband's birthday are exactly one week apart. We like to celebrate by going out of town together during the week between our birthdays. We've gone to St. Augustine, Asheville, and Atlanta.

TScalei

@PleaseSendPicklesNow - Oh Im sorry about your experience with the cashier. Its crazy how seemingly innocent comments/ ques from people can send you reeling. I wish people would just keep their mouth shut sometimes! Seriously never ask someone if they are pregnant! Im glad you can try again in October though that must be a relief. And also, I love Asheville - one of my favorite places that I have visited!

SoonToBeMommaHowe

@PleaseSendPicklesNow I'm so sorry about your encounter with that cashier. I've had similar experiences (had my non pregnant belly rubbed by two different women) and The same end result...an absolute meltdown when I got away from them. People seriously have no idea sometimes. I'm really sorry you had to go through that 

mjacks16

1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): Hi I'm new here, but I have been around on the IF board. Been TTC since 2014 and moved on to a RE in Nov 2015. Done 3 IUI's and one round of IVF with a successful FET in June. We did not see a yolk sac at the first scan around 5w and then a very behind fetal pole a week later and then no more growth and it ended with a natural MC at 8w2d the end of July. It was pretty much a horrible waiting game from the first scan and I just knew that something was wrong.  The worst part was it was on a PGS tested embryo which makes me wonder about being able to carry.  Anyway, after AF showed up in Aug, my doc said I was in the clear to try again this cycle if I was ready - and I was! The best thing for me is usually just to move on and my DH may be changing jobs soon, so we are trying to use up the IF coverage we currently have. 

2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.):  Currently waiting for FET #2 scheduled for Sept 13. And partly convinced that this time, it won't even implant and we have no more frozen. 

3. Rants/raves:  Apologies for the longer post, I obviously had a lot I needed to get out. 

4. GTKY: Sorry if this is too personal. When is everyone's birthday!?!? Any specific traditions that you have for celebrating it?  July 10, only two weeks after my DH, so we usually have a nice dinner out or plan a vacation for the both of us. This year was tough celebrating, b/c we were still unsure of what was going to happen. 

TScalei

I'm sorry to see you here @mjacks16.  Fx you won't be here long and you will have good luck next cycle.