Intro: Here to feel a little less isolated

bktosf78

New to thebump, and to any TTC forums. (Though I've been lurking on a couple for a few weeks now.) MC at 6w2d on Aug 3 while on a 5-week trip away from DH and my docs. 

DH and I were NTNP for about a year, but now we're 3 cycles in (including the MC) to a regimen with BD schedules and repeat testing and long waits to see specialists. I thought I might get lucky last cycle (post MC fertility bump?), but AF is here and heavier than ever. I can't shake the post-MC blues and can't decide whether I'll lurk or actively participate here.

As for risk factors: I'm 37, have anemia, adenomyosis, and allergies that have gone bananas over the past 8 months. I had three terminations during college, all pregnancies that happened with bf's while on the pill. (Wtf, I know, please no judgements here.) I haven't been on any hormones for over ten years though, and the drastic shift from overly-fertile to quiet womb makes me very nervous.

All my family and friends know I've wanted to be a mom since I was 9. Convincing DH to start trying has been it's own really long exhausting journey. My friends are done having kids/trying to have kids/talking about having kids. I'm feeling emotionally raw and worried about the impact of being bummed and just not myself.

So now that I've got all my Debbie Downer intro stuff out, I'll be sunnier when I show up in the other posts/check-in. Looking forward to seeing all of you around here.

Hopefulmommy1980

I am sorry for your loss. It is hard to grieve for your baby. I feel like I have been in a funk since March. Please be sure to be kind to yourself and give your self time to heal

fivetimesnoluck

I am sorry for your loss. The pain and depression can come and go with no discernible pattern. I can relate to the fact that your friends are done (I am 38 with no living children) and it can be challenging to find anyone who can offer the support you need in real life. That's why we are here for each other! Lurk and/or participate as much or as little as you want. I hope you will find this group to be as meaningful and supportive as I have. 

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chloe97

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm also 37 and had a termination from a previous relationship. I strongly believe that past terminations should in anyway diminish the support you receive after suffering a MC. I've been open with my Dr's about my previous pregnancy and its led to confusion being considered having 3 losses when the Dr's don't read the chart correctly. 

Welcome me and I hope you find support here!

DungeonTrollMel

I am so sorry you are here. Hopefully we can offer some support and help you feel welcome 

brooklyngirl18

welcome, so sorry for your loss. The ladies here are amazing and supportive, I hope you stick around if you want to.

bktosf78

Ladies, thank you so much for the kind words. I'm already so glad I found this group.

TScalei

So sorry for your loss!

BitterBetty12

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find this board a great place of support.